u/yuripilledrat

First Picture is supposedly to help you choose between two “lovers”

1. Card: yourself

Upper/lower row
Card 1: how P1 or P2 feels about you
Card 2: what you get out of the relationship
Card 3: outcome if you choose P1/P2

2nd (P2) & 3rd (P1) picture where the same love spreads but for each of the two people

1. Card: Your energy, your feelings, how you are showing up in this relationship
2. Card: the other person’s energy/perspective, what they may be carrying into this connection
3. Card: the current dynamic between you, what is active between you as a shared field
4. Card: what is creating friction, what needs to be acknowledged
5. Card: the action or shift that would move things forward

P1 and I have gotten into a relationship recently, but I’ve had a huge crush on P2 for a good while now, which P1 knows! We haven’t yet talked about this, but I even confessed I had a crush on P2 the day before we got together and both of them mean a lot to me and I’d love for them to get to know each other (I’m poly) but I fear this might be too much for them too.
Regardless, I’d like to know how to interpret this, I’m a beginner and I’m trying to make a choice here if I have to make one.

I used a spread that is said to help choose between “two lovers”.
The card on the left represents YOU. The following cards’ representation is written bellow.

Me:
The Empress: as a person, if I’m not wrong, is a caring and gentle person. They radiate warmth and nurture things around them; relationships, communities, businesses and so on.

1. Card: how the person feels about me
2. Card: what you can get out of this relationship
3. Card: the future/outcome if I choose this person

Upper row: person 1
The Star (up): as a feeling, this person is peaceful, open and hopeful about the connection. Someone who feels safe, who can be vulnerable and sees the relationship as something healing.

Four of Wands (rev): this indicates instability, a tension, something that needs to be worked through or external pressures. So potentially a difficult time during the relationship as lots of issues can arise and make it hard to communicate?

Five of pentacles (up): something has been lost, whether it’s materialistic or emotional, and only focusing on such, rather than the good you have. This could mean that there might be a rough patch in this relationship where both of us will be focusing on the negative things and therefore ruining the good.

Lower row: person 2
Page of cups (up): confusing and mixed feelings, something unfamiliar that they were not expecting and are not sure how to handle, but these feelings are genuine.

Six of wands (rev): insecurity under a confident surface, a hard time with need of validation/seeking validation, believing one is not worth much.

King of wands (up): this person shows fully up, makes their partner feel chosen. Renewed passion, steering the connection toward something deeper. Passion and devotion.

I’m pretty torn between these two people. On one hand, getting with P1 is easier than pursuing P2, as we’ve just recently gotten a bit closer.. because P2 is a very secluded person, but there have been instances where I’ve been wondering whether I’m reading too much into it or there’s actually subtle hints.
2 months ago, I asked some questions about P2 (before meeting P1) that were really hopeful, just to get a whole 180° in answers not even a week later.
But now we are actually friends, which I had a received a yes on, so I’m really conflicted and getting answers from my deck hasn’t been easy, as I’m more conflicted than I was before.

Deck used: Rider Waite