r/FirstTimeKo

Hi Guys,

First time ko malaman na wala na yung ex ko, 2 months na din nakakalipas. We separated na hindi kami ok and ng family niya.

Hindi ko alam mararamdaman ko kasi it’s been 2 years since nag break kami and hindi ko magawang umiyak. 4 years din naging kami and kaya kami naghiwalay due to family issues sa side niya. (Inuutangan ako ng malaki ng parents nya) and actually, kaya ko nalaman kasi napa stalk ako. Nag log in kasi ako sa PC ko and nagulat ako naka save yung google account ng kapatid niya which is weird dahil never ko nameet kapatid niya (Nag study abroad that time) and never nakapunta sa bahay namin so iniisip ko baka binuksan nya google account ko and nasave dun sa password manager.

2 months na nakalipas simula nung nalibing siya, im trying to find the reason bakit sya namatay and wala ako makita.

Grabe no, Ganun pala yung feeling na kahit anong hate ko sa kanya, nung nalaman ko na wala na sya nanlambot ako and naalala ko na lang yung times na masaya kami.

Well to be fair, during those 4 years i know na naging mabait ako, i tried and did everything to make him happy. I just hope he’s at peace. Tonight, i’ll celebrate his life by listening to his favorite song, ako na lang din maglalaro ng GTA VI pagka release to honor him.

Tapos nagka develop ako kaagad ng limerence sa ka hookup ko HAHAHAHAHHA

We only know each other’s first names but he mentioned a couple of things about his family that gave me a bit of an idea which family he belongs to. And he seems to come from a prominent family

We both went with the hookup knowing full well what our intentions were. BUT my problem is he is too much of a charmer, pogi with dimples, articulate and he knows it! Although super mabait and gentleman siya, ang daming red flags as in! Kaya at first kampante lang ako na ah di ako mahuhulog neto kasi alam kong ganito siya 😌 We’re both just getting what we want.

But after our 2-day ONS, well no longer an ONS hahahaha I developed an unhealthy crush. To the point na na doxx ko na totally sino siya and mali pala unang hinala ko. He’s even more alta pala than I expected. And a much bigger red flag pa talaga. What da hekkk hahahahahha pero I still can’t shake him off!

Aminado naman na ako na mahilig talaga ako redflag huhuhu anyway yun lang. won’t be doing it again. It’s so easy lang pala for me to get attached

first time ko mawalan ng mamahaling wallet, and not just any wallet kasi Im very very sentimental about it since it was a padala from my sister in the US na I know pinag-ipunan niya and it only lasted me a few months :”)

it had my driver’s license, cards, and the 1k I was supposed to use to buy medicated shampoo for my dog hahshsjshha it even had family photos that I don’t have any other copies of anymore. so medyo disappointed talaga ako sa sarili ko na naiwan ko siya sa hook sa loob ng cr. naalala ko lang mga after 5 minutes galing sa cr, but pagbalik ko, wala na.

reported it to the lost and found, but no one turned it in. idk what the person who got it will do to all the pictures na nandoon euuuugh don din talaga ako nanghihinayang sooo I guess this is a hard lesson learned.

FOR SPREADING AWARENESS

*Re-edit to since last post got removed (sorry mods)

Last Saturday on OmeTV, while there, i met an "American girl" that seems to be friendly wanting to get some friends from other countries using a VPN, i gave her my Instagram and Discord, and after our friend request, she chatted me on discord, telling me that she was feeling naughty, and me being too naive, fell for it, next thing i knew, all of it kapwa-pinoy pala nagpapanggap and i got recorded and now threatened to pay 4k via gcash or else my "vid" will be sent to my friends, what makes things weird is that yung blackmailer somehow found my Facebook despite na wala akong sinasabi at all, at first, i begged and was stressed, but i calmed myself and stall a bit before blocking the account and privated all my socials

After some minutes, one of my friends chatted with me about a GC that got made and it was from the sextorter already sent the video of me, luckily only 4 of my friends were added, including my sister which i secretly took her phone to remove her immediately sa GC. My friends understand the situation, comfort me and also leave the gc, blocked the account and reported it and fortunately, yung 3 lang na nadd yung nagchat sakin about sa nangyari and yung family ko walang alam at all.

Currently, 2 days have passed, walang nangyayari right now, but paranoia is still within me, the blackmailer hopefully nagsawa na sakin and moved on, i wanna move on as well and right now I'm trying my best na kalimutan na to

Ingat kayo lahat sa online, don't be like me.

31 yrs na ko and maswerte sa buhay na never pa namatayan ng kaclose sa buhay o malapit na kamag anak o pamilya. Ngayon nawala ang lola ko na nag alaga sa akin since bata ako, siya nag uwi sa akin sa hospital pagkapanganak sakin tapos ako nag uwi sa bahay sa kanya from hospital nung nawala na siya. Nakakabaliw. Nawalan na rin ako ng gana mabuhay.