r/GenderfluidTeens

Hi, i was born as a female and I'm over the age of 15. and ever since i was 13 ive been questioning my gender (i was curious so i search all about my feelings. At first i thought i was Demigirl but I found Genderfluid and I related to it.)

anyways. I have a medical condition that stops me from producing estrogen but Ive started it a bit ago. And im upset about producing estrogen some days and not other days. My mom is so happy about the hormones and I should be happy as well. I came out to her when I was 13 about being Genderfluid but I think she thought it was "just a phase" but she fully accepted me. (She even asked me what pronouns I went by was one day.)

But the question is, I dont know if im actually Gendefluid. Maybe thats when I feel like im female and i feel good about being female. (I dont know any terms. I am so sorry.) I know i get SUPER bad Gender Dysformia. Maybe I need to watch more videos. Or get professional help. Or maybe its all in my head and I'm not actually Genderfluid.

I hope someone tells me that they also relate😔

So basically I'm genderfluid but I still haven't gotten the full just of it. I read alot like alot of mm, when I do I envy the male characters not for any other reason but the simple fact that they are male. When I feel feminine I do but I still feel male just wearing female clothes and I don't really hate it all that much, sort of like a femboy. I once told a friend if that I was born male id just be gay and a femboy, I was serious and that got me thinking. So I'm confused am I genderfluid or something else? Cause the way I see it is yes I have feminine days right and I don't mind being called a guy in them, then I have male days which if I'm called a girl in then i will definitely mind so I'm confused on my overall sexuality as a whole.

Who am I? that is a question I've been asking myself for the last 9 months.

I constantly feel at war with myself with my gender identity. I know that it may change over time, and I'm okay with that. All I know is that I am not cis. I'm afab, but I haven't realised until last August that I'm trans or genderfluid. I've adopted both labels I guess, and I hate labels but I also feel lost without them. My family unfortunately aren't supportive, I think. They say they're accepting no matter what, but they dismiss my trans-ness when/if someone brings it up. I've been told maybe they need time and that they might need time to process. what in the world do i do?? I have queer friends which is great but I don't know know them well enough to speak about it. Oh my god and the gender envy I get is SOOOO annoying. Like, every guy I've had a crush on I usually also have gender envy. Some crushes have only been gender envy {I didn't know at the time though, until a guy I 'liked' cut his hair off and I was sad because I liked (*cough* wanted *cough*) his hair. I've been speaking to a counsellor which has been a lot of help. My fem and androgynus side wants to be presented sometimes, but I get so dysphoric, I end up wearing baggy T shirts instead. I also don't know how to tell my friends my preferred pronouns. Advice? (no hate in the replies please)

So for context, I've been genderfluid for months well a year and a few months now. I'm in the closet to the point I can see Narnia. My country isn't generally accepting of stuff like this. Anyway to my social crisis. I've been experimenting with genderfluid names, I have Alexis and it feels fem I mean I use Alex for male and Lexi for female and I want a name that can be a diminutive like this. So can y'all help me ith names here I'm confused and lost and Google isn't helping like at all. Or is Alexis good and this is just a 12 midnight breakdown, I have these alot.

Update My name is Alexis Skye Khumalo.

I've found ways of binding without having access to an actual binder for almost 2 years, mostly using sports bras and other methods. Where I live it gets over 90 degrees (F) sometimes and I want to find more comfortable ways of binding during the hotter months. I don't exactly feel euphoric during the summer and can't bind very well where it's not as subtle or just straight up hot/uncomfortable when I wear outfits I like 😓