I might be genderfluid

(this is my first post like this, so bear with me if it's confusing or longwinded. lol.)

I might be genderfluid or genderqueer.

I have, recently, began questioning my gender again, and from what I've seen that seems to be a constant/reoccurring thing with people under the genderfluid label.

The reason I've started questioning again is because I started feeling less like a 'woman' than i have in the last ~2 years. Looking through some of my private posts have also had me realize during one of my question phases i presented differently than i do now.

I *know* labels aren't all super important or all encompassing but having a labels can help me feel more 'secure' in a sense.

But my questioning of the label comes from my lack of connection to being perceived/referred to as a man. While not opposed to I don't often feel that and I haven't felt that way in quite a few years.

so, I have a few questions:
- how did you 'know'?
- how does genderfluid 'flow'? is it day-by-day or can it be over longer stretches of time (months to potentially years) --this is my biggest point of confusion.
- how did you choose a name that felt right? (all name recommendations for neutral names are mostly earthy or element based which is not what I'm looking for lol)
- how do you cope/deal with dysphoria/questioning?
- is it normal to resonate less with specific sides of the gender spectrum?

(originally posted on the nonbinary sub)

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u/CYANIDDE__ — 6 days ago
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i think i'm genderfluid.

(this is my first post like this, so bear with me if it's confusing or longwinded. lol.)

I might be genderfluid or genderqueer.

I have, recently, began questioning my gender again, and from what I've seen that seems to be a constant/reoccurring thing with people under the genderfluid label.

The reason I've started questioning again is because I started feeling less like a 'woman' than i have in the last ~2 years. Looking through some of my private posts have also had me realize during one of my question phases i presented differently than i do now.

I *know* labels aren't all super important or all encompassing but having a labels can help me feel more 'secure' in a sense.

But my questioning of the label comes from my lack of connection to being perceived/referred to as a man. While not opposed to I don't often feel that and I haven't felt that way in quite a few years.

so, I have a few questions:
- how did you 'know'?
- how does genderfluid 'flow'? is it day-by-day or can it be over longer stretches of time (months to potentially years) --this is my biggest point of confusion.
- how did you choose a name that felt right? (all name recommendations for neutral names are mostly earthy or element based which is not what I'm looking for lol)
- how do you cope/deal with dysphoria/questioning?
- is it normal to resonate less with specific sides of the gender spectrum?

(will edit if i have anymore questions)

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u/CYANIDDE__ — 6 days ago

coming out

I'm bisexual

I won't ever be able to come out to any family outside of my sisters because my parents appear to be extremely conservative/right-wing (I don't doubt they'd probably MAGA had we been living in the states right now.) and one of my brothers following in those same footsteps while the other I genuinely have no clue of where he leans politically though I'm sure he's likely more right leaning. Even then, it was nothing official or special as I don't hide it much online because my parents don't have any real access to those accounts and whatnot. Added, I'm also currently living in a country where being queer is still not legalized and could get you killed.

This is one of the only parts of my identity I'm truly confident and sure of.

This sub will probably be the only place I've officially come out, i hope there's a day where that's not the case. Though, I know that's not a possibility anytime soon.

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u/CYANIDDE__ — 7 days ago

wanting to hop on this before I miss it, how would you rate Kasane’s looks / design on a scale of 1-10?

I’m curious to see how people would rate her and I’m trying to stay a bit active in the community, lol.

(ignore that I posted this on my alt earlier if you saw it lmao 😭😭😭🙏)

u/CYANIDDE__ — 1 month ago

persona update!

not many things changed besides contrast/saturation mainly because I plan to start posting on yt and I feel like it’s both easier to draw and eye catching!

u/CYANIDDE__ — 2 months ago

Kasane Hibana, ask me/her anything! [ CLASS 1-A, MHA OC]

wow, everything in one post, from me?? Crazy…

ksksks I brought back a relation to midnight + asuka’s eyes (I love them)

She’s kinda dumb but I love her.

Procreate has put a lot of motivation in me to draw. a LOT.

I hope we like her chat, this genuinely took me all of last night and today, I wish I was joking 💔💔🙏
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{Personal Info}
• Name: Kasane Hibana
• Gender: female
• Age: 16
• Birthday: 13/09 (sept 13)
• Occupation: hero student
• Net Worth (Billionaire, Rich, Middle, Lower middle, Poor): middle
• Height: 173cm (5’8”)
• Weight: 76kg
• Hair Color: dark blue/purple
• Hair type/Haircut: curly, straightened, long low pony tail
• Eye Color: yellow sclera, red eyes
• Skin Color: tan
• Blood type: AB+
• Distinguishing Physical Features: freckles during the summer, eyes, fangs

==•{Bio}•==

•	Personal Strengths:  
⁃	empathetic , kind  
⁃	helpful  
⁃	gentle   
⁃	physically capable 

•	Personal Weaknesses:  
⁃	self conscious   
⁃	anger issues (lite + quiet, not alike Bakugo’s)  
⁃	sensitive   
⁃	worrisome  
⁃	forgetful  
⁃	lack of understanding + ability to use her quirk properly

•	Attitude:  
⁃	quiet, mild mannered and outwardly awkward   
⁃	high spirited, encouraging and compassionate later on

•	Likes:  
⁃	green  
⁃	ice cream / milkshakes   
⁃	stripes   
⁃	dogs

•	Dislikes:  
⁃	loud noises , yelling  
⁃	rudeness / brash / crude behavior   
⁃	overly impulsive behavior 

•	Habits:  
⁃	fidgeting with her hands when nervous.  
⁃	wears lanyard to hold her student ID so she doesn’t forget it

•	Fears:  
⁃	losing loved ones (uh-oh..)  
⁃	not being good enough  
⁃	hurting others

•	Reason for becoming a Hero/Villain:  
⁃	she wanted to change. (She used to be \*really\* mean.)

•	Relationship with peers/classmates:  
⁃	MS/JH: good to low opinion of her near the end.  
⁃	U.A: good

•	Relationship with Family:  
⁃	father: boo, boo bad. Tomato, tomato. Strained.  
⁃	Mom : very good.  
⁃	Aunt (Nemuri Kayama/Midnight): good, teasing.  
⁃	(step) Dad: very good, if a little awkward.  
⁃	Older brother: good.  
⁃	Younger brother: strained, not hostile.  
⁃	Younger Sister: very good  
⁃	Half-sister: good.

•	Relationship Status:  
⁃	single 

==•{Quirk Information}•==
• Quirk Name: Energy Reflux
• Quirk Type: Emitter
• Quirk Range:
⁃ mid range, but close combat fighter
• Quirk Description:
Energy Reflux allows Kasane to store/generate energy akin to nuclear energy (minus the potentially radiation issues..) throughout her body and charge it out into heated blasts/beams. Kasane cannot do that, though. So, she uses it to self-regulate her temperature (stay warm during winter), warm things up in her hands (coffee, tea.. etc) and ‘boost’ herself.

•	Miscellaneous Quirk Info:  
⁃	Boost:  
⁃	While unable to use her quirk the way it was designed, she’s able to output the energy into short burst of ‘increasing her stats’ so to say, this lasts up to 5 minutes for every 30 minutes.   
⁃	she mainly uses this to give herself a speed boost + faster healing.

•	Quirk Strengths:  
⁃	passive  
⁃	boost

•	Quirk Weaknesses:  
⁃	needs to have an output once energy is charged (or she overheats far past boiling points)  
⁃	time limit  
⁃	connected to emotions

•	Special Moves:  

N/A (read: idk yet, lol)

•	Age quirk obtained(Birth-5):   
⁃	6

•	How the quirk first manifested:  

She was just playing around as it developed, nearly hurt one of her friends when the blast escaped her chest which then caused her to lose the ability to do that altogether.

==•{Hero/Villain Information}•==
• Hero/Villain Name: Starburst / Sunbeam (undecided)
• Hero or Villain: hero
• Hero Agency/Villain Team:
⁃ Manual -> Fatgum -> Endeavor (yes, throw the tomatoes)
• School: U.A
• Year: 1
• Department: hero department
• Class: 1-a
• Costume: heat resistant, lightweight, armored shoulders + boots, knee and elbow pads.
• Gadgets/Tech/Weapons:
⁃ N/A
Suitable/Beneficial/Weak Environmental Effects
• Best Quirk Environment: Hot/dry areas, urban environments, concrete.
• Weak Quirk Environment: water.

u/CYANIDDE__ — 2 months ago

drew two of my favorite oc’s from this sub!!

oc’s belong to:
u/ShyMoca
u/limelightelixir

!!

I’ve been struggling with my own oc(s) and scrapping their designs and storylines because it just doesn’t fit what I like for quirks and such (this is to say Kita has generally been scrapped as a *main* oc, once again but I’ll talk about her occasionally!!). I’ve also been working on my own original works, if that explains why I haven’t been active on the sun in recent times.

I’ve been thinking about reusing Koharu’s design and some of her backstory in a way if anyone remembers her, lol

I’ll probably draw a few more sub oc’s later!!

u/CYANIDDE__ — 3 months ago