Im tired of it (Muscular Dystrophy)
I (20M) have Becker muscular dystrophy and was diagnosed when I was 8 years old. Been 12 years of it and I just get worse every year, the feeling of knowing you'll get worse and there is nothing to do is so depressing.
I turned 20 3 months ago and I realized at best I'll probably live 40 more years. I haven't had a job, have never had a GF, and haven't really accomplished anything in my 20 years on Earth. Seeing all my childhood friends having a future that isn't depressing makes me feel more alone.
I spend most my days playing video games, or watching YouTube, TV, or movies. Its kind of hard to have a social life when you feel so different to anybody. Laying in my bed home alone with nothing to do productive.
When I see able people wasting their life being lazy pisses me off because I feel like I would be so happy being able to be active.
Everyday I feel so alone no one to talk to except my parents I feel so bad that I make their life way too inconvenient. I have to use my electric Wheelchair to go anywhere that I have to walk for long distances. I feel like im not good or talented at anything that would help my future.
All the time I think about how great my life would be if I had a normal life, but that will never happen. I want a positive outlook on life but I just can't no matter how much I try.
(Any Advice for me, from other people with MD)