Does curiosity kill the career? How do I maintain my inspiration, creativity, and curiosity, while also accomplishing the minutia and busy work of a scientist?
Fellow NIH funded scientists, I am experiencing an uncomfortable tension in my professional life: How do I maintain my inspiration, creativity, and curiosity, while also accomplishing the minutia and busy work of a scientist?
I feel like I'm driven to be a researcher because im naturally curious, passionate, and interested in exploring the world with an open mind. I enjoy making observations about the natural world, generating hypotheses, and discussing these ideas with others. However, in order to actually explore something deeply and accomplish something, it requires living in the granularity and minutia of grant writing, IRB protocols, budget management, etc. These worlds often seem like they live in a tension that feels uncomfortable - you have to be curious and creative enough to have a fundable idea, but you also have to br focused and systematic enough to execute them.
I feel like my inspiration and curiosity are often stifled by the un-fun parts of being a scientist and I dont want to lose the inner curiosity about the world that drives my interest in doing this work in the first place. For example, I have my NIH funded work, which pays the bills and is exciting to me, but its not as novel and creative as many other ideas I have that feel hard to explore and would take bandwidth that my funded work doesnt leave me with.
Have you experienced this tension in your own life/career? How have you held space for both of those realities? How have you protected, made space for, and even explored your curiosities and creative interests within your life as a scientist. Looking forward to your insight.