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Our little Boomy loves her oily salts.

Loaded Mexican style fries hit the spot for me every time

Following my post yesterday about not getting my ketamine treatment. Well, here's that crisis I was waiting for, no one ever did reach out from the clinic to help me get scheduled. I have a feeling the higher-ups genuinely just don't care. To them, it's all about money in their pockets, not the patient.

God, I just can't wait to feel like this for the next 4 weeks until they get me in for my ketamine treatment!

I think what I will do since they won't correct their mistake is keep an extensive journal on how I'm feeling right now. So if they ever do this to me again, I'm going to be like, "Look, here's the difference between me having ketamine treatment versus me having no depression treatment."

What a cruel world we live in. I won't sugar coat it. They are literally letting me suffer because of the system scheduling error. They don't care how much of an impact this is going to have on me.

Since I am a community moderator, I will save my bitterness for my own posts. I would never take my frustrations with the world out on any of you. But I do ask that you can spare me any unsolicited treatment advice. I've been down all of those pathways before.

Nasal ketamine is the only thing that really works for me. I am firm in my belief on that. Based on my own experience and I do not appreciate anyone trying to tell me otherwise. If therapy worked, I wouldn't be this giant mess that I am right now.

I'm hurting.... but there is no doctor or healthcare provider who cares. At least not one that can do anything to help me anyway.

My... typing this this all out makes me seem super crabby. But I'm not. I'm just in a crisis. And I'm tired of hearing the same old advice that therapy and antidepressants work. No, they God damn well don't. Not for me anyway

Do you know what happens when I call the local crisis line for help? I get some agent on the line that tries to distract me with something as stupid as the abcs. I don't need to sing the alphabet, I need my brain to stop doing this. But I am powerless against its malfunctioning.