u/123everybodyloveme

Its common in our socialized society to teach others hard lessons because they do not understand you, and people commonly misconstrue that a mature person would do what an 'immature person' does to get immaturity to stop occuring. They follow up with policing habits to ensure people act like them. All these feelings are exasterbated and aimed towards our work schedules, and having to recooperate and recover.

"The grind wears on us and don't critsize what I do like you understand it". But in the same right you demanding from others instricingly means you find it virtious to act how you want sometimes. Basically stating you follow rules, all the time, then don't. And people are supposed to follow their selfishiness, and while some like the people they work with will understand them more, time always proves those work bonds were there for the meantime. Even passion and exciting partnerships fade.

The problem is the grind people exerpeince. It does wear on them mentally. and eventually physically. In order to stop this we do a couple of things, feed our higher being side, our lower being side and deal with mechanical issues that arise from an overworked mind not beign able to honor the mind-body connection we choose to throw out and make others throw out calling it life, when its simple only some people lives. Yes they work hard, but we also create a lot of extra work thats not neccescary. Becuase of what I call the pressureized system. The pressure in the social world, to feed your higher being, by performing and doing activities that bond people in the moment. Which is great until moments pass, and fruits of labors sometimes dry up leading to fleeting moments in our memories. This pressure system is teaching others a lesson. It engages folks to gang together on a commonality, something that feeds their lower, emotional, instictual side. While ensuring mechnical engagement with the body.

See I studied PT. for in life I wanted to educate people more on biomechanics to solve health ailments. Quite simply a beginner lesson I have on repeat is that our diaphram is our main breathing muscle. It works like a piston. OUr ribs flare and depress with teach breath. Our ribs are attached to our spines, sternums (chest wall), necks and the lower half via the hips. We breathe with these muscles. You don't stop creating a pressuized system to engage both flexion and extension and segment your body to manifest those actoins somewhere in your spine because its so important. Engagement of both sides requires controlled breathing. The ability to relax with each inhale and force out when exhaling. You breath with these muscles, posture yourself with others, and you don't want to create an imbalance between those forces. Most people engage everything by sitting too much to relax the diaphram (so sitll engaged), eating so their rectus abdominis can still be engaged, slump their shoulders and only breathe right with engagenent, or mixing it up by looking down on their phone creating rounding of the back that sitting doesn't naturally do. TOo much focus and its the back of your neck overworked, if you can't sense your shoulders, scapula, with your diaprham.

So, many people are miserable because they create a pattern of behavior around this. They find a routine to create engagement through work. A lot fo sitting for most people. They get tight hip flexors, go into a dysfuntional state of APT of their hips (where the extend, making the low back needing to flex to compensate and only engaging hip flexors while sitting, making it chornically tight when they sit a lot). In order to re-engage your front ab muscles like the RA, lumbar disc L2,3 in order to counteract low back rounding, they eat. And then they choose to eat more carbs, sugars to create the same feeling. essetnially only finding energy through carb loads, leaving out protein, damaging muscle growth, inhiiting the ability to stand, and in turn hurting their mind-body connection create strain and strung out feelings where they can't even sleep because they'd shut off breathing muscles just to relax to sleep. Because most people eat too much, eat too little, or eat the wrong things, instead of eating for energy. Sugar is pretty much one of the worst energy sources because of how fleeting it is. Some of this is essential common knowledge, yet we always stray from the good advice and create problems down the line. I for one am tired of a strained healthcare system in America from abusing workers as lets be real, most workers have to be "kept in line" more stringently here in America creating addiction in people, manifesting public health epidemics of obseity, heart disease, strokes, dementia. *oh yeah sugar, and attention are inextricably linked because as I said, flexion creates better focus and sugar makes you go up in energy without using muscles, only energy spikes.

Insomnia, anxiety, depression, addictions, physical maladies like diabetes, heart disease, dementia is caused by our lack of reverance to our individual selves, our bodies, which when we contribute to a community those bodies need cared for, but those who work are working to die and we say hey we were programed for this anyway. Hey if sugar helps my programming why not do it?

Because the long term effects.

Our work schedule are dishonoring our bodies, health, and making us irritable to mentally anguished and hurting others and forcing pain on others. I promise, so much of life begins when you realize this instead of going for the grind. The problem is others are not aware of htis information or not utilizing it to make their lives better.

They sent multiple texts they were excited to interview and didn't want me to miss out on the entry level charitable assistant position. This is one of my first jobs so I am disappointed how this went.

I contacted them to set up a zoom call. First they used slang to set it up. They said yh instead of yes.

Then when it was time to call they didn't pick up, didn't send the email as they said, and the number is literally disconnected that texted me. Was this a scam? What happened here? Did the recruiter just mess with me?

Why haven't immigrants in the past or say today used planes to avoid immigration and other barriers? I'm refering to Mexico in recent times, obviously planes are a way to immigrate to the US but ships moving into Elliis Island were the norm.

People get children then never interact with them. Similar to their pets. They get their pets, refuse to realize its a full time job to feed, seek medical care, interact and socialize your animals.

So we all know the saying all is fair in love and war. To some poeple this is true, others opinions are against this thinking. I think we can all agree likening love and war sounds toxic. To some in realty it isn't toxic, to some its apparent it is.

So my family (and lets say about half of society) takes this position. Generally from frustration in our days, we gain this type of thinking. Its provicincal thinking, relating to small matters I would argue. I think the other half would agree.

So my family (I am a 30M, with a 33M brother and 27F sister and almost reitred parents) its trying to punish me for anything I do wrong in the past. To teach me a lesson.

The big deal that started all this was a scene girl I was friends with (I was an average joe abercombrie looking justin beiber back in the day) became friends and everyone agrees she perverted me a bit in a way I wasn't going to without her friendship. Because as a kid I was the nice guy who was only friends with women, so considered effeminate, gay and got bullied and beaten on. But I was kind of an aloof, "lacking selfawareness" person in others perceptions, cause I was still happy go lucky. anyway my scene friend smoked cigs in 8th grade, got caught at school football games, showed me how she stole form the mall, etc. Eventually I became more lax and joined in debauchery a bit. Mostly smoking pot or drinking beer. It was a victimless crime. She one day tells me how she took her grandmas card, and got free things as her grandma "just disputed the charges and the company wanted her relationship so they didn't make her pay". Sounded like a loophole, I didn't have a CC or anyone to ask. First day of summer she says she got it again and will buy me things if I go with her and her 22M boyfriend when we were 15. I agreed. Thought nothing of it. A month later cops show up at my parents home asking me if I had anything to do with it. I say no. I was just dumbfounded. Didn't think we would get in trouble, thought it was some victimless crime she committed. Turns out it was our friends mom card too. So she doubly lied. I denied it at first to the police but they showed me on self checkout with her smiling. They asked again and I said I knew. I was charged as an accomplice, received 1 hour community service while she got a lot more serious punishment on probation, 40 hours community service.

So the bullying I mentioned earlier got way worse after this, as she tried to make me take the blame with the school and our friend. Because I was somewhat an outcast as much as a happy guy people saw me as two-faced, big faker. So people eventually bought into it. But I was bullied for being a f-word, not for being a thief. Because people still had trouble believing I was this mastermind behind it.

i eventually had a strained relationship with my family (from my perceptions it was being gay, to them it was obvious I felt like a thief) and I did become more of a hermit as high school ended. And had bad anxiety around new crowds. My college experience suffered a bit in the beginning but I still made friends, not really long lasting ones cause I went local and other high school kids kept being my friend so as to spread the repuation with me, I wasn't aware of.

So I was kind of hampered in life, eventually couldn't get a job out of college in my intended field. My parents worked with a very old jewish friend of mine to coordinate we room together (she pretended no one would room with her) so we would both sign a lease. She was a roomate from hell, made the apartment into a trap house and I left. Not before she drugged me with acid. Lost over $3000 from not living there.

My family also rekindled with me right after a suicide attempt where I cut my throat, arm and thigh and barely survived. They acted nice at first but eventually kept egging me on to kill myself, pretending they would be nice just so they had another chance to bully me and I would kill myself.

I then was siloed into a management position at a wokrplace I was at for 5 years. When I left and went to another workplace all my coworkers were just constantly putting me down, not interacting or fucking with me while interacting. Went part-time, it sucked but I was in school. They coordinate with all workplace hereafer to make the boss act nice to me so I'd use them as a reference and they could easily spread to bosses what I had done wrong. We all know this is a common occurance, people spread lies as rumors. Its horrid and we can't do naything to stop working with these mentally ill people because they will present themselves well so others take care of them. Thats a whole nother post of moral issues.

So thats the LOVE and WAR the put me through intitally for that credit card crime. Tried to stop me from having friends, inhibit my ability to proliferate or feel good internally so I was feel insane. THis happened from 2012 to 2020?

Then I get a job in entry level healthcare. To them that was them being nice, I worked in health promotion PT previously so really huge demotion in my eyes. Never got a chance to use my degree.

So because I am unhappy with what they "let me have" I am an ingrate asshole piece of shit worse person they know, and theyve ganged up to not only disregard me as a human person and disrepect me in our relationship as a family (who I lived with during this time cause they coerced me with no rent, they needed help as their health deteroirated, starting graduate school, not getting a good job so needing this situation)

So since I had a little break in 2020, theyve started up again making me miserable.

When I started graduate school my office workplace had HR make up things. One girl sitting across from me in cubcicles in HR said I stared at her, maybe 2 months into the job and starting school. Then saying i drop water in the bathroom, I smoke in the bathroom, beause I would run in there on breaks so I wasn't being stared at in relationion and they wanted me to feel pressured to feel stared at all day everday for my entire shift. My bosses ex husband reitree followed me into bathrooms.

I took a job again as a pharmacy techncian just to avoid thi splace. Only to be told I am inept and unable to do the job despite always performing fine for all the years I worked it through school. I got fired. Took another pharm tech job, fired again in 2 months same reasoning. Happened again another time, then another, then another, then another, then another. 7 times in 3 years and all these pharmacies "gave me a chance" despite being terminated from all preivious roles with short durations. They just enjoyed having someone to bully and torment and will always feel justified this is "how you treat others when youre upset and they did somethign bad". I promise you guys I am th enice guy and my parents are way worse but if it doesn't affect them why should they care about nicities?

They've destoryed my credit, took my entire savings from when I was living at home, derailed my school career, and are currently working with my landlords to enter my dwellings to put on parental controls on all my electronics so they can monitor me. Believe it or not its not like I have a million passcodes, passwords, so they can break in easily. I ahve them on film messing with my things. The porblem is cops do not help me. They have illegally towed my car, refused to help me when I showed video evidence of someone brekaing into my car they "Couldn't locate" but looks a lot like my neighbors.

SO they started fights with me to record me getting upset at horrible homophobic things they said about me, cut that part out and show my "behavior" and secrelty video tape me so workplaces could pass it along. They went to a court and lied and said "I pooped all over their place, was mentally ill and not well" I rebutted how did I hold a job and go to school and everyone was silent, you could tell they thought they were going to defeat my spirit with more lies.

I'm not allowed to have a job in the area I live because I went on reddit and complained about my parents mistreatement and neer "got over it" so I need to spend more on gas, get angry over that, more time commuting downtown when I live in a suburbs with tons and tons of oppurtuities.

Because i didn't leave the unit when my landlord "allowed me to break lease" by forfeting my security despoit now they are planning to sue me for $5000 instead of keeepng my $1500 because I don't wan to sign a lease cause I am somehow a PT for 7 years and only able to get a contract role.

Does this seem fair to an individual? What kind of lesson are my parents trying to teach me when the whole point is just to be unfair and never express what it is that upsets them. Just name calling, no constructive criticism. And thats maturity from them. Name calling, bullying, hurting others. Going to war is apparently mature in a nice society. Why can't I get poeple to wise up to the fact while wisdom are sayings, words not really a part of reality they make reality a whole lot better?

So alls fair in love and war cause they watch me on reddit, watch what I comment. They gather around my posts to downvote them so regular redditors just breeze by this. And I know you commenters who consistently bully me mostly live in the same area or are just coordinating with other groups. So I know most people would not agree with your assesssment. Most people wouldn't read this far or GAF to begin with. But its not about catching the most. Its about affecting some. Guys I am going to go back to posting reguarlly everyday, even when I start work next week. Help me heal, stop with these inane lessons with no follow up that I actually learned something. At the very least teach comprehension, and also quit being terrorist to achieve your aim. You awful people who are living next to criminals (not you redditors)

Thats the real truth about why theres poverty, why grown adults cant share wealth and help stop homelessness, starving kids. The middle and upper class are equally comprised of terrible people who loose sorrow if you do not hold a similar status. They loose so much sorrow they can be perceived as sociopaths to those they don't like. This is the reason some people go to war, fight for gangs, see killing as morally correct when it happens to the 'right person".

The VERY worst part is you cannot speak out against this. You cannot inform anyone of your situation, warn kids, cause the majority of people are bigoted assholes hating people considered beneath them and agree and vote in their nice society to keep the lower class poor. They lie and try to make themselves look better in compraision so others will not believe you when you say others intentionally hurt you to the point you cannot get ahead like everyone else. Like to the point of even if you had the means for education, it means nothing if you have people gleefully spreaind old or untrue rumors so you become a bottom of the barrel candidate and never hired, always a cut below because youre not cut throat enough to get the hiring manager to like you. Lie but don't lie too much. Its an oxymoron. Now there are some humanitarians, some socialized programs, some scientists who didn't patent treatments and such to help cure these kids, but also middle and upper class kids. But the humanitarians do not help people get out of poverty generally, their work just impacts everyone equally so lower class does benefit. And again with there being these ill-willed but strong individuals upholding and keeping out individuals without the background to accomplish the same end result, people who fall into poverty have an almost impossible time digging themselves out.

If youve truly experienced life, you know especially what I am talking about. THe upper and middle class is comproised of people who work so much harder, specalized more than they say the lower class does, they are allowed to do as they please to anyone trying to fight the heiarchy. They make up lies against those they do not like, systemically break groups of people like ethnic groups, skin color, or gender and oritentation. It wasn't long ago discrimination on all these items was literally commonly accepted among good members of society. THe truth is the ones that disapprove hide it. THe truth is the world is actually kinder than it was in previous iterations, thats the sad part. The middle class will ensure the lower class stay poor because they struggle so hard, the lower class can't see it and in America 51% of individual are middle class. Thats a majroity right there. The the minority of upper class people make the biggest desciions. Again some are in favor of all of humanity, but a lot of decisions are against half of humanity. With this knowledge, why should I act moral to people of a different status than mine? Because they control money? I don't have to worship the dollar but only work hard enough to get by. So what is the motivation to be a better man if I am already scrwed for my placement in life? I find good people around me sometimes in lower class, but honestly most are so beaten down they gain the same mentality of beating down on others to preserve whats theirs. Because thats all they know. Even speaking out about this on reddit has gotten all my accounts suspended. I used to make new emails all the time, probably had about 15 over the last 5 years to evade my parents (who are upper middle class) who were trying to spam every email I gave to my new employer (singing me up for spam emails, telling prospective employers in my field in my city to disregard my application if it comes from the email address - I only know this because they have ruined my repuation with my career, my supervisors always inform my coworkers to watch me but some are in the same position as me and inform me that my parents had shared that with my current employer, believe me I am not paranoid but a part of a larger systemic problem in society were all aware of - people loose sorrow and disrepect and take from those who aren't "deserving")

A little background I've been out of a job sicne November. Worked as a pharmacy technician since before covid and now they are trying to keep me out of any career there because I wasn't docile enough to take unfair punishments. Essentially I would play ball then call out inapproriate behavior and because I essentially showed I am not OK with abusing power and stand up for myself I am fired. Believe me I am amicable, keeping these jobs for months at a time. But since 2023 I've gone through 7 jobs in pharmacy, all telling me I am fired for being incompetent, for a supervisor who told HR they refused to work with me (because they put someone on for me to train and before I finished the process to check a script which takes less than a minute the supervisor pulls me off, and I asked her not to undermine me and she says "i'm not your boss so if you have feedback tell the boss" and I said you are my supervisor correct? I report ro you? then she said go to my bosses boss'. One of these jobs I did protest when the entire facility or nurses and pharmacy technicians (it was a call center) were doing what another workplace did to me all over again, following me into bathrooms, making up rumors, staring me down all day to make me unformrtable, following and talking to me on all breaks. Basically monitored 24/7 cause either rumors of funsies of messing with someone when you have a boring ass job).

also for reference they've had landlords, coworkers, neighbors, people faking my friend try to ruin my life, steal from me, come into my place without my knowledge and find them recorded on camera. They lied to a bank in 2023 saying I stole a check of his he gave me after I complained my sister and mother had been stealing from my bedroom when I lived there for graduate school. Now banks mess with me every month, freeze my account for fun or if they hear I am going to be late for a payment because I scrounging for money from this firing fiascio they inititated by telling workplaces I stole in my youth (I did no more than a handful of times, always with others, I was infleunced by the wrong crowd) and the discrepancy of my lack of awareness others were mean to me for percieved thefts, and not just bigorty from being a gay male always picked on unfairly, led to maybe me sticking up for myself where others would find inapproriate?

I just want to express if I had true freedom not only would I use my free will for better but I deserve my free will regardless of past bejaviors. I am not who I am in the past. I shouldn't be punished endlessly until I become docile to abusive persons. I should be able to have working relationships where others work with me for my current understanding and abilities. I am a person who has had so much bigotry, regardless if you think I deserve it or not, and that makes it harder for me to function. FYI its bigoted to pick on others, regardless of reasoning, its just this society cannot accept bullying is inappropriate for us to all experience a good, heavenly society after contributing for it. We all get weird risk and reward unnecessarily. Doesn't mean you should look for a scapegoat to put all your crap onto. I am not anyones bitch. I am a pleasent guy though generally. Up until my awareness of what everyone was doing wasn't ause they were mentally ill but they literally had every intention of making me more mentally ill, controllling with lies, keeping me out of oppurtunity.

I wan to e

"a month ago I was playing piano, singing, learning a new language, plyaing with kitties, applying for jobs

now I am so fucking afraid of what youa re going to do to me I have no motivation because I assume in a little while you are just going to fuck with me some more and take more of my htings

you have no idea how much i hate you and how much better my life was going to be if you weren't there to punish me everytime you were upset in the past you raised me.

you are the ones who impressed the world on me. taught me how to move through it.

how i turned out has everything to do with you.

half the people would agree.

why can't you just help me, let me have a job in pharmacy? It was never a dead career?

why do you have to have stupid stipulation beyond coworkers and bosses who make me miserable and neccesiatate I work a contract gig so you can have me fired at any time, pay for parking, commute into downtown when gas is the worst its been.

I wanted to be free and do something with my life. I

Its cause of you i am lazy. because of what youre family did. you just need to realize our relationship is fucked, have everyone apologize about the lying and let me be on my way. I am not going your way. I am on my own path to where I am supposed to be. IN this sugarland. I need you to let me go so I can reawaken. I need you to stop with the job bullshiretending I am the problem.

You created problems for me.

I just want you gone forever from my life because you can't appreciate that you want to crisitize me for lying or whatever when you did it 10 times more in response to others lying.

So at that point I could jsut say I lied cause you lied or other lies. How insidious?

You can't find people to agree with you and pretend your lies don't matter.

They hurt the world, you hurt the world, you aren't going to be in a heaven but in this world wher eyou have to fight for peace (what an oxymoron) because good people believe hurting others is the only way to improve the world

they believe killing, stealing, controlling, is what makes things better

what an asisnine idea. you just made the world way worse. and you don't care until it happens to you

thats the defniitino of a selfish being

just realize you were also wrong and apologize for what youve done. no matter what ive done or what lesson you wanna give me

Maybe its just cause I never recognized what made it so great intially when I heard it first time. Its so spacey, so many layered vocals to sound heavenly, so many vocal runs from stevie. So few traditional choruses in most songs. Lyrics that read more like running poetry than a traditional song. It was very musey, the pulse of the music moves with a persons inner mechanisms and thinking that's wild in nature. The wild Heart feels like a personal expressions of this persons sincerest thoughts.

But I love love love every song on this album and the outtakes and soundtracks from around this time.

The pink /red / purple hue of the album cover imparts on listeners or at least makes me think of a chanteuse singing in a dimly lit bar. That specific hue go so well with the classic look of a figure so forlorned over lost loves, singing in a seedy bar in the 50s. but also gives modern day lounge singer, kind of neon, kind of matching with the synths and 80s drums all over the place.

The strawberry blonde hair to match the multi-colored background. The robes and beret, multiple stevia's in one shot make me think of an illusion of a witch. Each with distinct faces that show a different face from different disappointments experienced from love. Really equating feminine empowerment to the spirtual, thoughtfulness that the inner power a witch emulates that is what makes being a wiccan empowering. Stevie was a feminist figure through and through on every album. Her witch persona was more of a "I have the power to cast a spell on you by making you think with my poetry that will tether and destroy you inside and reawaken your soul to treat women right". That empowering angle commonly used in history, the 70s and resurfaced around the 1990s. Stevie style really made an impact by the early 90s, with how emotional her work is, how alternative her singing style can be to express sorrow and pain.

The lyrics of this album are generally about sad love, finding self love, being let down by love but still going back for more with the damned wild heart.

I love it all but most of all is the lyrics, music and variety in sound but a strong thematic and musical throughline to the whole album.

Its so synthy. Very spacey, like you are hearing the pure, unaltered thoughts of a person so transfigured by love, so defeated and needing to express their constant state of moving emotions. If anyone falls, Stand Back, Nightbird, I Will Run to You, and Sable On Blonde. All very spacey, all very moody pieces about a persons need for self-love, learning to be alone, learning to deal with the hypocrisy like a Nightbird (a diametric opposite of birds behaviors).

Then so many organs and layered vocals like this is gospel music. Wild Heart, Gate and Garden, Enchanted, Nothing Ever Changes, Beauty & the beast.

The vocal work is beyond. She sounds so broken heartened using imperfections that come through from her singing voice, as well as technical perfection. Beauty and the Beast really emulates what I am talking about here but every song her vocal performance is so specific to the emotion of the lyrics she expresses. Bjork, Lana Del Rey , are artists who did this. Can't think of an album or artist released before this record. This was a new style to music really only heard in folkpop. But Wild Heart is more modern, dancey than regular folk pop. Wild Heart lyrics are similar to folkpop artists but sonically closer to dancepop. Every song is very danceable. Kind of a heartland rock, danceable vibe, not like a Madonna dancepop record, but more like country pop you heard in the 90s but I digress. Its very influential style of singing. Very gospel-oriented. Theres so much yearning and intentionality to choices that's is so so fun. If you add I Sing for Things, Violent and Blue, Garbo and Destiny its an even more heavenly experience to the album.

I can't decide if Wild Heart or Rock a little are more special to me

I just want opinions and people to weigh in why they love one over the other, why they think both are great

I think both are AMAZING records front to back. No skips. Love every single second.

I love that both are her witchy brand