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Something I’ve learned about my mother is that growing up, her mother never really asked her to maintain her appearance. She’s told me she wishes her mother would have told her to shave and wear makeup and dress more feminine earlier on in life, because now she hates all of her pictures from when she was a teenager. And I understand that she would be upset by that. But the thing is, now she doesn’t give me the choice of whether or not I shave or dress femininely.

Almost every day, I’m told to fix my ponytail because my mother only approves of me wearing as a high pony, and go back upstairs and put on more tinted Vaseline because it’s the closest thing she can get me to wear to lipstick, and roll up my pant leg so she can see that I’ve shaved, and go and change my clothes because they’re too baggy. Especially the clothes thing. Occasionally, she’ll beckon me over, only to start rolling up my shorts, or tying a knot in my shirt to expose my midriff. Whenever she goes to my school, she feels the need to comment on how the girls all dress. One time I remember was during a cross country practice, where she said to me “Why can’t you wear little b00ty shorts and show off your b00b!3s like the rest of these girls? You always look like a boy in all the pictures I see.”

I think if these things were coming from my dad, or really any man, they’d be s#xual abuse, but it’s my mom, so I just have to tolerate it. It’s worse because I’m trans, and she’s even outright lectured me about how “you’re not a boy” and “gender neutral the only thing I truly believe is an agenda”

Anyway, I want outsider perspectives on this, because I really don’t know how to feel.

Alright, so I want to preface this by saying I actually like the book, these are just things that got on my nerves

1. The cheek kissing. Like- people don’t really kiss each other on the cheek platonically in America.
2. Why are so many of the monsters, especially cyclopses in HoO, so brightly colored? I get that they’re inhuman creatures and stuff, but can we dull the neon purple a little bit? How forsaken by evolution and subtlety must you be to end up bright green?
3. Why do the demigods not use guns? We’ve seen Annabeth’s dad use celestial bronze bullets, and that’s probably a lot more effective at killing monsters than Piper’s dinky little knife. I get tradition and all, but it’s literally a life or death thing. At least let some of them have guns.

I want actual good recommendations. Nothing I’ve seen people talk about I’ve really liked all that much.

I want something that’s going to stick with me. I love Heaven Official’s Blessing and The Summer Hikaru Died, and I can’t find much story or lore heavy GL with good execution; most of what I see is fluff. I want fantasy, horror, and pretty much anything but slice of life.

I’ve watched Sakura Trick, I’m in Love With the Villainess, read some of the Green Yuri, read some of Love Bullet, read some of Bloom into you, but I mostly gave it up because the translation I read was awful and I couldn’t tell what was even going on, read Nevermore (webtoon), watched This Monster Wants to Eat Me, and I’m about to start Madokka Magica (sorry if I misspelled that) and I Want to Love You Till Your Dying Day.

I love Nevermore, the Green Yuri I liked, but it’s not what I’m looking for right now, same with I’m in Love With the Villainess and Love Bullet, I’m willing to give Bloom Into You another chance, This Monster Wants to Eat Me was good, but I found the execution a little underwhelming in places, and Sakura Trick was my first GL I watched when I was pretty young, like ten or so, but it’s nothing special.