u/856077

My partner and I are really not good for each other and there is so much resentment, bitterness and anger toward me for being on ODSP and not preforming as a normal “human being” to their standards even though they know my entire history, they want me to get over it essentially and move on from my traumas which is, as i’m sure everyone can imagine not easy at all.

Anyways. I just feel… stuck. Sick to my stomach and I know I don’t deserve this kind of treatment. But I am not financially good right now. I feel stuck here. I’m close to just calling it quits in general because nothing ever works out for me due to my fucking issues and life feels like a battle i will never win. If anyone can give me some guidance or even share their story i would greatly appreciate it

I didn’t ever get around to watching this one until I randomly decided to a few days ago out of curiosity.. and wow. I am loving it! Such great choices for the women, the level of lore, drama, denial of infidelity etc.

Kelsey also has gotta be one of the bitchiest, projecting, not nice, entitled girls i’ve ever seen. And she’s usually backed by the group when she’s very clearly in the wrong too it’s a frustrating watch.. and we need more info on her dating situation and with this guy who owns that mansion.. what is so special about her that she never had to work a day in her life?? Poor Rosie too, man. Such unnecessary vitriol. I’m glad she has *ashley

I was on social media and ended up seeing the photos and… wow. I probably shouldn’t have even looked and spared myself but woof. Hurt more than I thought it would even though it’s been a few years. I was discarded in the most disgusting way possible because this person was done dealing with someone as “broken” as me essentially. It was the whole put you on a pedestal, love bomb, go above and beyond with concern and care, gifts, living together for years and then one day.. nope. I’m now a loser with no prospects and needed to be tossed.

In the pictures of the wedding were neon signs up in the venue with intimately romantic sayings that this person literally used to say to me for the entirety of our relationship. They served a specific drink as “their favourite thing” and I remember months before the breakup he started liking that specific drink out of nowhere and acting weird. So he was already seeing her.

Anyways. I am just so tired of my trauma
and cptsd ruining my life. It’s something that is always on my shoulder, pining me down and weighing on me mentally. I’m just not a functioning person. I worry that my current long term relationship will end the same because of my inability to human. I feel like truly it will break me.

Basically there are times where I am much more
productive in life. Keeping the apartment clean, cooking dinners, baking treats, going for some form of exercise and just generally ontop of things. Then the down swing comes that not even my meds can really help. I am unsure if i have the type of major depression that is not helped by many medications available as i’ve been on antidepressants for a long while now. I spend a ton of time in bed watching tv, a lot of times applying to jobs and looking into what I want to do as a proper career. (I have mild disability and get government assistance which is then paid over for things like groceries for us etc. Have worked jobs but have difficulty finding the proper fit and holding the jobs).

I understand how frustrating it must be on the other side wishing for a partner, the person you love to get out of bed and stay out. For
them to have a flourishing career. For them to have momentum and drive. It’s just not there for me alot of the time and I simply don’t know what
to do. It’s ruining the relationship and we’re both pretty unhappy. 😞 Should I break up..

Like I get it if we are slapped with a small charge for paying a day or two late (I was in the ER and admitted) but they slapped on an almost 90$ fee onto my already 80$ bill even after everything was paid up and rectified.. i spoke to chat and they are refusing to waive it in good faith claiming they can only do one a year per account (I have a family plan). wtf should I do? Genuinely I won’t be able to pay this almost 200$ bill.. And if I do not pay it, welp ANOTHER suspension of service shut down and charge..

Recently, He asked me what’s for dinner when he was literally going to his mother’s house for dinner a few hours later, and I was pissed because cooking everyday is exhausting. With him he expects like proper dinners- so nothing small or easy/no hassle essentially every day of the week.

Here’s the more annoying grievances..
He will open a bag of chips and literally sit there and finish the entire. effing. bag. Right after eating what i’d consider a pretty hearty meal. He does this alot and has actually even made himself a whole frozen pizza after eating the entire meal i’ve prepared.

Anyways, so He finishes the bag of chips In one sitting.. then goes for a bag of chocolate covered nuts and polishes off
those too. Now as i’m writing this, he’s in the kitchen having a bagel with cream cheese and a coffee that is meant for our weekly breakfasts, at 7pm. (coffee at 7pm wtf) Who am I to say another grown adult can and cannot eat, but these habits in particular get on my nerves because nothing ever lasts in this house and it’s effing expensive!!!

If it were just me living here, the groceries would not be near as costly and snacks would last wayyy more than 2 days. It’s irritating that he doesn’t think “oh my gf may want some of these chips this week, maybe I should just pour a portion into a bowl for myself instead of eating them all!!!” Apparently i’m “a bitch” for being annoyed by this. Idk.