u/90sRnBMakesMeHappy

I am exhausted. I never had a good relationship with my father. It was all on the surface. He always loved his other family over me. He also was abusive to my mom when I was young during their divorce. He tried to run her over with his car with me in the car. Also verbally said he would shoot her in head. We also aren't sure if he tried to poison her.

I stopped talking to my dad after my mom passed. He was no support and actually was making my grief worse. By advice from my friends and therapist, I stopped al communication. After a year, I texted him angrily. Why he always picked his wife and their family over me. Why I always thought he hated a part of me since I was like my mom, and he hated my mom. Then his wife messaged me 3 days later to tell me my dad would never get the message since he passed 3 weeks ago.

I AM JUST SO ANGRY. Angry now since I feel he really didn't love me. He also left me nothing. None of my grandparents' items. I know I need to make peace of some sort. But his wife is also a point of anger for me. She was abusive and just an evil, vile human being.

I am seeing a therapist tomorrow and Friday, then scheduling for future. But I have never been so angry in my life. I am asking for God to help. 

My friend mentioned I don't have to pay for the ER bills that I'll be getting soon since I already pay for health insurance. I tried to google, but I got unclear results. I planned to call the health insurance for charity case and itemized. But my friend said they'll send to collections and the bill will drop off. Is that true?

I am scared of the costs that are coming since I got a CT scan.

I have been doing liquids for 24 hours, but I am still in big pain. I was tempted to keep on liquids longer, I am scared to inflame it more. I saw in the wiki it said max 3-5 days. I am new to this, and I am so depressed as I have so much work to do, but I feel so tired.

Just feel so exhausted and overwhelmed.

I love love love milk in Japan. It has a smoothness to it. I had yogurt and drank coffee with milk, and it's seriously the best I had. The ice cream was elite.

I didn't find anything in my searches for the USA. I was just seeing if maybe someone knew of a dairy producer who favored the Asian market.

When I was in Tokyo, there's even places to have milk tastings from different farms.

I will be a new renter soon, planning on renting a furnished room out. But I want to protect myself, and I didn't know if get a lawyer to write up a renter's agreement was a smart thing to do or typical?

I hope and pray to get to a game this year, I have been studying for an exam for months to get accepted into a school. I was going to celebrate by going in for a game. I was wondering if anyone outside the stadium is capitalizing on our team? Any bidet related or banana related shirts. Like I feel no local Chicago store is doing anything fun, and that sucks since we fucking rock.

I got a bird house, but my backyard I feel is a prime area for a bat house. Does anyone have experience in these? Or someone I can ask? I know you need to know a certain height for the breeds we have in the area. Maybe DNR would be best? I saw Farm and Fleet is selling one, but I wanted to know everything before installing for this specific area.

I wanted to be more than a maid service. I wanted to tackle the basements and piles people keep avoiding. What could I be charging? I wanted to bring a whole experience. I would bring their requested drink, play relaxing ambient music, bring incense, herbs burning, whatever they want or not want to get them in a relaxed state as some people get really stressed when going through their shame piles.

I think being the third party and helping people get through those piles helps. I was that for my mom, and in the end, her house was a place for no more tripping hazards (it was about 80 car loads to the thrift store!)

I haven't been to Davenport's farmer marker for years. I was just seeing if my dude, the legit kettle corn man was still there? He has made the best kettle corn in his well seasoned pot. I can't replicate it at home.

I was just checking he still does his craft. I don't remember his booth name. He didn't have too many flavors , thought it was just kettle corn. Dude was a magician of the corn kernel.

I wasn't originally planning to go estranged the day I did. My mom just died, who had to be both parents growing up. She helped me money wise, emotionally, and she was always there. I would get on her nerves sometimes though. After she passed, I just realized I really had no family left. Even though some are still alive, they aren't really here. My dad was the one I was just done with. He was 0% support, he said he could meet up for brunch, but I would have to drive 5 hours one way. His wife refused to drive him to be any support. I was just done. It hit me how little I meant to him. He didn't send a card or flowers or anything. When my mom was at end of life, all he said "sorry to hear that" and days went by with no texts or calls from him. I think a week later, after my mom passed, I said, that's all the support I'll be getting? A "sorry to hear that"? Then he promised to come down, then it became I should meet him for brunch 5 hours away, and then he said his wife was going to drive him down to then nothing.

He was also soooo terrible to my mom, so bad I never wanted to marry. I also saw my mom never wanted to date after him either. He cheated, was verbally abusive and emotionally abusive. Tried to run her over with a car and would tell her he wanted to kill her. And I am suppose to forget that? And then he became husband of the year for his awful heifer 2nd wife. Who bullied me and made me even fearful to say a word I was basically a mute in their house. I walked like the floor was eggshells, being careful to not make a noise to upset his holy queen wife.

I sometimes wonder if it was an overreaction or my child self standing up to him.

I am just jealous of people who had dads to celebrate for father's day. Jealous of people who's dads would tell the bully at school to STFU. Who would be heros for their kids. Who loved their kids, didn't see them as failures who didn't measure up to someone they could brag about at their job.

My mom was a nurse, and she was bullied out of the profession. She did have a lot of trauma growing up and an abusive husband, so that added to it. I'm in a CNA class right now, and I feel incredibly isolated. I'm older, and I don't feel like I am socially accepted. I am so worried it'll be the same thing my mom dealt with. She always heard staff talking mean things about her, not inviting her. It hurt her so much when I know the managers loved her.

I am ok being alone, I am very alone in my present job as being the only female in a group of 20. I've learned to keep quiet, and I would engage with others outside my department. A big reason I am leaving my career now is because it's very sexist and ageist. My manager called our department a young man's game.

Just voicing my feelings now as outside my friends, I don't really have anyone to voice it to.

My mom used to live with me, but the last year she had to go on hospice care and passed. I have no family left expect for an estranged dad. I am terrified as the What Ifs. I have 2 friends locally, but I don't know how to go about what if I get in a big accident, and I can't take of my cats or house.

What have you done to plan for the worse?

I might be late to the party, but I didn't know he grew up a Sox fan?!?! How fucking incredible. I love 2026 White Sox baseball.