u/AFaeble_

I have a narcissist mom, she’s lazy, mean, always angry, and just the worst person I’ve ever met in my life and I feel like I’m becoming her…

I feel like I see more of her in me every single day and I hate myself for it. I don’t know why my husband even loves me.

I get angry SO FAST
I’m mean
I don’t have any friends
I’m gaining weight because I’m always making excuses not to go to the gym
I’m unemployed

I feel like a loser…
I feel like all the worst parts of both my parents.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I don’t know how to change.

Like the title says basically I made an ASMR video a couple months ago, after being an avid asmr lover for years and I just finished editing it. I hate everything about it.
I didn’t spend enough time on triggers, didn’t do as many visuals as I would’ve liked, I do some (very minimal) mouth sounds and I just was awkward and repeated the same transition words over and over because I guess I didn’t have anything else to say lol

I have done a lot of research about YouTube and learned that nobody ever sees your first video anyways, should I just bite the bullet and post it just to get my feet off the ground?

What would yall do? I feel like everybody is gonna hate it and me lol.

This is kind of silly and mostly a rant, but I hate the influx in AI usage. I’ve been an avid ASMR lover for years but for the past two I started listening to ASMRBelle literally every night. I was in her top 0.04% of viewers on YouTube, I was a paying subscriber, I would watch 1-2 videos every night for TWO YEARS, and now I’m LOST.

There are other creators that I like to watch, but for some reason her ASMR just hit so right every single time. Now that she started using AI all the time, I unsubbed and unfollowed and I’m in kind of a funk. I choose different creators to watch/listen to every night, but I just don’t get the same feeling that I got for her. I might be weird or silly, but I’m just in a funk. Feels like losing interest in a hobby, or love for a favorite thing.

ETA Since everyone is asking the same question. If you have followed her as long as I have and interacted daily with her content, you would see a lot more than a quick skim of her page.
She started with instagram and TikTok stories, just little edits using AI of her flying and shrinking etc, and then she posted reels and TikTok’s that were fully AI, then she posted a full length YouTube video of her as an AI edited avatar (blue people), and then she has continued to post reels/tik toks including one of her using her own AI face and AI hands “””doing ASMR on herself””” it wss so unsettling that I blocked her just so she wouldn’t pop up on my fyp anymore.

I never once said her page was fully 100% AI like the ugly message I got suggested. I said she was using AI all the time. Daily stories and tik toks/instagram including her personal instagram.

Hi friends. We’ve been given like 500 different answers and no advice so I figured I would ask here.
My husband separated in January and is 100% disabled. I have only just been added as a dependent on his claim for whatever reason.
Do I qualify for tricare?
And if so, how do I sign up?

Sorry in advance for the rambling.

I’m a stay at home wife. I clean and cook, hang out with my animals, go to the gym occasionally, but that’s it. That’s my life. I do crafts and play video games with my husband as hobbies, which are pretty solitary hobbies.

I had a best friend and a great friend group for a free years, but they started turning to drugs and other things so I blocked them all ( I was sober and very susceptible to peer pressure). I just moved to a new state and I’m just lonely. I get money every month from my husband so I could go “do” things but I rather spend that money on fixing up our new house and planning for my homestead.

I used to be an absolute social butterfly, but now I just rather stay home.

I just miss having someone to spend time with I guess. My husband has been working 12 hour shifts 6 days a week so it’s just me and the animals.

Idk I’ve tried making friends throughout the years, but as a woman I feel like women are wheats in competition with me. Like I literally made a friend in our last town and she blocked me because we invited them over for dinner and her husband said my broccoli was good, and asked how I made it. She said I was trying to steal her husband…..

I made another friend and she sent me screenshots (on accident I guess?) of her talking shit about me to her group chat?? I don’t understand. Like I miss what I had with my old friends. We would hang out EVERYDAY. sometimes doing nothing but watching trash tv and playing on our phones or going to run errands together so we weren’t alone. I miss having a friend like that.

I miss the “oh hey I have to clean my entire house and I just want someone here” and then boom, she would show up. I just. I’m so alone.

Ps I have tried getting a job, I am disabled so that stops a lot of the work I can do. I got an offer to work somewhere but it was a 40 min drive and they could only offer me 10 hours a week. Not worth it.

I worked from home for the past 4 years, but quit my job bc I got a promotion and had to deal with more sensitive information and all the clients told me my company was evil/ruined their lives so I looked into it more and my company WAS EVIL.

Even working at home was lowkey lonely. I had banter with my co-workers, but when I logged out, that was it for the day.

I’m just. Alone. My family isn’t here, and I have no one.

Hi friends! My pup is 8 months old. He’s got basic recall, “sit”, “in” (go into crate), “leave it” (drop/stop it), and now “stay” (which is where I think I screwed up).

He no longer follows treats with his nose, so we’re not really getting anywhere with “lay down”, “roll over”, “up”, etc. he also has decent recall but not when he is distracted. He never leaves the yard, but we’ve had random dogs showing up every now and then, and the past few times I’ve called him, he would ignore and chase after the dog, or a person near by.

If he doesn’t follow a treat anymore how can I teach him new positions? He doesn’t understand down at all. And I’m trying to work on leash training, but he’s seeming like he just doesn’t understand tight leash = wait. Etc.

I know he’s still a young pup and he’s great with what he does know! I’m just finding it harder to teach new things.

TIA