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Multiple doctors have diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder but I'm not psychotic, it genuinely confuses me how the diagnosis sticked through so many years/doctors. I suffered real harm from psychiatrists because they believe I don't understand anything, I've been traumatized repeatedly from forced hospitalization (isolation rooms, restraints, etc) and getting my agency removed. Pills scare me because they feel like poison. So many side effects, as if they want me dead/disabled. But even if I don't believe I have a psychotic illness my psychological suffering is real. I am so anxious and sad all the time. I have so little energy. I believe I am resilient and can persevere (for now) but I'm terrified of the future and I don't know why I should trusy psychiatrists. But I also don't know who I'm supposed to talk about my worries with and who can help me

Things have been really rough for a few weeks and it's been getting harder and harder those past few days. I keep seeing things and getting signs and coincidences keep happening. I feel this constant sense of impending doom. I'm so scared all of the time. I don't know what's happening and why and who's sending me messages and why. And I keep a straight face in front of people for too long, I'm struggling so much I want to end my life. I can't ask for help because I'm scared they'll just label me psychotic and force me to take meds. I'm scared they'll lock me up. I can't because I just started a very expensive school and I need to attend classes, I'll never get my money back. I need to go through with it and get my certification. I'm too poor to miss on this commitment but I'm also scared of calling the mental health center and ask to see someone. I'm just terrified, sad and exhausted. And lost

I'm posting this here because schizoaffective has been my official diagnosis for years even if I don't agree with it.

Things have been really rough for a few weeks and it's been getting harder and harder those past few days. I keep seeing things and getting signs and coincidences keep happening. I feel this constant sense of impending doom. I'm so scared all of the time. I don't know what's happening and why and who's sending me messages and why. And I keep a straight face in front of people for too long, I'm struggling so much I want to end my life. I can't ask for help because I'm scared they'll just label me psychotic and force me to take meds. I'm scared they'll lock me up. I can't because I just started a very expensive school and I need to attend classes, I'll never get my money back. I need to go through with it and get my certification. I'm too poor to miss on this commitment but I'm also scared of calling the mental health center and ask to see someone. I'm just terrified, sad and exhausted. And lost

Can I take Cyamemazine while also taking antibiotics (Pyostacine)? Thank you

I'm scared of possible interactions?

Please recommend shows I can watch on my commute to school, on lunch break, after a long day, etc. Something that's easy to understand, chill and uplifting. My favorite chill animes are Haikyuu, Frieren, SpyxFamily. Haven't watched much "relaxed" shoujo, they were all heartbreaking in some way lol Thank you!

30F. Can I take Cyamemazine while also taking antibiotics (Pyostacine)? Thank you

I'm so terrified for the future it makes me su*cidal. I don't know if I can keep doing this. I've been living off disability for many years but went back to school recently. It's a really short program but it's enough to make me realize I cannot live like other people. I can't eat. I can't sleep. I can't focus. I can't do anything. Showing up to class is already exhausting. I've been dealing with synchronicities a lot too. Spirits sending me signs. I'm terrified because something bad is going to happen. I tried to change my life: get a certification, get a job, get a salary, etc. I want to live a normal life but I can't. I'm being haunted and taunted by spirits. I have very little energy. My body isn't working as it should. I'm exhausted and scared for the future. I'll fail everything once again and I'll be homeless and go back to square one. I don't know what to do, who to talk to.... I'm so sad

I've been seeing, hearing and sensing things for years. Doctors keep telling me I'm sick and need to take pills. I don't believe I'm ill or making it up because I cannot make up the synchronocities. But it's still very scary to be followed everywhere but entities and have no clue what they're trying to tell me. How do I make it less scary? How do I figure out what the synchronicities mean? Most things I'm hearing are useless anyway because it's faint and/or unintelligible so I can't make up what they're saying.