Post breakup mental loops and validation mirror to stop them
Hey guys jsut wanted to share my experience. I’m F29 and six months ago my 7 year old relationship ended. We’ve argued a lot towards the end and it was unbearable. It’s been long enough but until late my brain has been rehearsing different arguments with my ex in my head no matter where i was and it was so exhausting. I could be standing in a line for coffee or driving to work and I was mentally screaming at him, explaining why he was wrong. Rehearsing those badass mic drop lines I’ll never use. It was even rewarding at first but at the more it went the more it started feeling like I’m fixated. he’s not even there anymore but I’m keeping him there in my head just so I could win the argument with him. And trust me I’ve tried to stop thinking about it but this is a stupid advice, like telling somoene to stop breathing. My friends have been very supportive throughout but they seem tired of my vents and bringing the mood down even half a year later so I feel bad taking it out on them. I really don’t want to be this person that can’t shut up about their ex and kills the vibe every time.
What helped a bit and actually shined a light on the roots of this issue was the app that I stumbled upon completely by accident. It’s called copymind and has this nice feature called validation mirror. I stopped rerunning those imaginary fights in my head ans started writing them down instead and I got readings (reflection of my logic) that showed me a lot about where these patterns actually come from. The anger was not even at my ex. I was dealing with my own insecurities every time I fought him in my head because I was worried about so much wasted time and didn’t even know how to be a compelte person without him and start over.
It was helpful to write it down and now I at least know the root of the problem so I can remind myself every time I spiral. Has anyone else reflected on their own insecurities in similar situations?