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I don’t know what to do. I’m in a healthy workplace I guess,but I wanted my supervisors to know that I’m struggling due to CPTSD, because it’s affecting my work a lot.

But even after sharing through HR, they didn’t acknowledge or even ask me anything.
I’m having a shame storm. Guilt. Feeling undeserving and unseen all over again. I know this is a cycle or misplaced thing that I’m searching for.

Like fear or I’m thinking if they know I’m struggling, they’ll treat me accordingly.

They treat me like other healthy people, like they ask me how am I feeling today for example, when I say bad, they just skip it. I know some people are got capable, but I feel I’m trapped again and don’t know what to do in these situations. I feel neglect like past and triggers and I freeze

But whenever I hear people have supportive bosses or supervisors, I thought I can get it too. But now I feel exposed, vulnerable and no difference. I don’t know how to navigate this.

I know they are strangers, actors. But the scale of impact of this issue - across millions of people is huge. I keep putting myself in Sangeetha’s shoes. I’m not even in India, but it’s literally on my mind all the time, though I don’t consume this content.

It’s like a mass wave of disturbance and bothering energy. Hate it.

Also, good or bad, Vijay somehow made efforts for decades to make this happen for him, but still nobody was able to satisfactorily watch the ceremony. All were disturbed by trisha. His whole limelight was stained. What a shame.

Feels like some cursed thing for TN gov, like we people can’t even be satisfied wholeheartedly, something is always bothering and beyond our control

Pathetic! He made a poster of his dialogues and cc’d all my mail IDs.

He always wants to shift focus to me and tell how heartless I am and gain satisfaction, since I was a kid