u/Adventurous_Art7903

I feel crazy . I dont know what to do . And cant really tell anyone .All my life I’ve struggled with constant worries about my own health and the health of my loved ones. I was convinced everything and anything could kill me or my family. Eventurally I broke down sobbing to my parents at the age of 8 that I thought all of us were going to die. My parents weren’t concerned and told me i was being a dumb kid . I struggled through all these thoughts which would lead to odd behaviors such as me throwing away my moms earring because I believed that they would give her salmonella (long story but looking back it makes no sense ) Eventually i sorta grew out of them . Then end of sophomore year I was hit full force with crippling anxiety . I kept having panic attacks and then these thought came back even worse . They seem to cycle through different things I worry about . I worried about getting drugged and would constantly wash and empty my water bottle worried It would be drugged. I know all of this is unreasonable but I cant help it and If i dont I get incredibly anxious . I also would constantly check my breathing which would lead to light headedness and only made things worse. Then another one was floaters I became incredibly worried and would keep count of them .The health worries have kept up as well . I thought I would have a heart attack and went down a horrible rabbit hole of searching things up . I know now not to do this because I made things horrible . Mind you I am a healthy teen who has no heart problems . My latest thing is seizures . I have a massive fear of having one though I ve never had one . It started when I witnessed a person having one in a store . I unfortunately read a book where someone has one and learned the symptoms and then unfortunately fact checked it and learned more . Now when I have really really bad panic attacks I think im going to have one . I begin smelling gasoline (a symtom ) and get only more convinced . I have a choir performance coming up and am terrified . What if i smell it and freak out ? what if i have one due to massive anxiety ? I hope not . Then also my huge fear of passing out . what do I do im so stressed, feel hopeless, and dont want do to anything except hide due to my fears . IS this anxiety? OCD ? somthing else entirely . I dont even want to get started on these weird colored orbs I’ve begun seeing . Any Help would be amazing as My parents aren’t gonna do anything and just get mad at me . I tried asking for help and was told im being dramatic .

Ever since I was a beginner in band I was bad at the flute I’d practice and practice and couldnt get it . My sound was constantly airy and weak . Eventually in middle school I found out i was had a different mouth shape and needed to move my flute . That sorta fixed it but I still constantly was the bad one . Eventually I made it into middle school region band but I was still chided for my airy sound. I just was really good at keeping tempo ig? Then comes high school I still get chided for it and everyone just tells me to practice more . I get my flute fixed thinking it could be the flute but no my sound is still bad . The years go on and I don’t care about sucking I’m just there for the fun . Until this year I’m trying to be better but no matter how much I practice my sound is still airy . I’ve been trying to fix it nearly all year now watching YouTube videos and learning the all state music . I even got a flute instructor . my sound has improved ever so slightly but it all goes out the window when I play in front of a crowd or just randomly it’ll go back to being even worse . What do I do I’m tired of being the bad flute . I really do practice and try but I’m not seeing any improvements. And no I can’t get a new flute because my parents won’t let me . If you want I could post a video of me playing .

The councilor decided i was good enough with math to let me skip pre calc and go straight to ap calc . personally I don’t think im smart enough for that . im leaNing towards ap starts

Alright before I get flamed I know it ain’t Halloween yet! but you can never be to early for this :) I also need ideas the gayer the bettter. Two years ago I was an FBI agent(my friend wore a straight jacket) then last year I was a prisoner (my friend was the cop) Also I would love to hear about your favorite costumes in the past . Also I’m a hispanic scrawny slightly above average high soft masc? With jet black hair and a short wolf cut (imma grow it out tho) . Telling yall this so if you think of somone I could be plz tell me lol

Alright my parents are incredibly homophobic but I love them and couldn’t bare to lose them . I never want them to leave my life and they really are good .(except for the whole being homophobic…) Eventually I know they’ll get suspicious of the fact I am still single later in life and if I do begin dating someone and we live together they’ll be suspicious of that as well . I’m curious to know if anyone’s in the same boat as me . I know this is stupid but I’m just going to tell them we’re roommates for a while . I don’t know and don’t have any clue what to do as i am getting to the age where they’re like why have you not had a boyfriend yet ? I told them I’m focusing on my studies but what happens once I’m done?? I guess I’ll just saying I’m focused on my job 🤷🏻‍♀️

Alright so I’m 17 almost 18 female I’m 5‘2 don’t take any meds don’t smoke and am fairly active weghting about 100 pounds . I am super anxious and have been told I might have ocd as well so yea I always get worried I have stuff . Like for example I had this phase where I was sure I was gonna have a seizur??? Never had one before and didn’t have one but I kept googling syptoms and got scared . Anyways so last week my chest was hurting around my heart area ,being the paranood girl I am googled my symptoms and had a panic attack. i saw it could mean imma have a heart attack and suddenly my jaw began hurting the next day . Then a few days later my elbow left. The tension is my chest has came and gone and so has the jaw pain. I told my parents and they brushed it off saying I’ll get my physical done next week and I can ask them then . I don’t know if this is me being paranion but a small lump has aprared below my bust area on my left side . It’s soft and very small and it moves around . The chest pain is mainly mild discomfort and doesn’t appear to come more when I’m more anxious just comes at random the jaw pain does appear to get worse the more I focus on it . Please advise would be great update I checked on the lump and it feels hard as if I’m pressing on a rib but also soft in areas. the lump itself hurts and sorta the middle in my chest .