u/Agreeable_Button_700

So basically for context, I’ve been friends with this guy since like spring and we’ve been hanging out a bit and talking and he’s a really sweet kid and I love his parents, and I think they like me too which is always a plus, I just feel bad like I never really reach out or talk to him that much it’s always him asking to hang out. I’m not trying to give him false hope or anything but I just don’t understand why he likes me, and I don’t like him in that way. This morning I think he was trying to confess to me but chickened out.

Later today he texts me saying that’s not what me meant and that he’s going to tell me soon. I hate this so much for him because no matter what, the answer will be no, it’s not even fully him. He’s one of the nicest guys I’ve ever met and he’s super respectful, but I don’t like him like that. And I feel like he’s desperate and I don’t want him to just like me because he’s desperate, I truly think he deserves someone who’s gonna treat him how he should be treated and someone who adores him. It’s just not gonna be me. I have so much going on in my life and I’m so stressed, I don’t even love myself, and I’m so scared that if we ever do get together I’m not gonna know who I am without him, cause I don’t even know who I am now.

And I honestly just don’t like him like that. I don’t wanna ruin our friendship. Anyways what do I do? Like do I respond to his text and tell him I know what he’s gonna say and that I can’t handle it? Do I just wait til he tells me? I don’t wanna give him false hope but I wanna stop him before the friendship gets screwed up.

TLDR; a guy likes me and I don’t like him and he’s gonna confess to me soon

I just keep giving and giving myself and I don’t even know who I am.

Junior in Highschool here, does it ever get better? I just need an honest answer. And I know it’s up to me to be happy in this life and it probably does only get worse, but I’m scared. My sister is in college and hates her life and is juggling a job and school and sorority stuff, as am I with my school and my job. Every adult I ask wants to tell me to “enjoy my youth cause it only gets worse.” Why would I even stay alive if it’s just gonna keep getting worse?

I’ve read all the light we cannot see, in memoriam, the absolutist, all quiet on the western front, the things they carried, milkweed, etc. I LOVE war books, and as of now I’m reading the book thief and i love it so much. I do feel though like I need to expand my genres, but I love the emotional bonds and stories and heartbreak (ofc I hate that it happened in life actually) but as a story yk? If there are any books with the same vibe and affect but not about war let me know!

I’ve read all the light we cannot see, in memoriam, the absolutist, all quiet on the western front, the things they carried, milkweed, etc. I LOVE war books, and as of now I’m reading the book thief and i love it so much. I do feel though like I need to expand my genres, but I love the emotional bonds and stories and heartbreak (ofc I hate that it happened in life actually) but as a story yk? If there are any books with the same vibe and affect but not about war let me know!

I’ve read all the light we cannot see, in memoriam, the absolutist, all quiet on the western front, the things they carried, milkweed, etc. I LOVE war books, and as of now I’m reading the book thief and i love it so much. I do feel though like I need to expand my genres, but I love the emotional bonds and stories and heartbreak (ofc I hate that it happened in life actually) but as a story yk? If there are any books with the same vibe and affect but not about war let me know!

I’ve read all the light we cannot see, in memoriam, the absolutist, all quiet on the western front, the things they carried, milkweed, etc. I LOVE war books, and as of now I’m reading the book thief and i love it so much. I do feel though like I need to expand my genres, but I love the emotional bonds and stories and heartbreak (ofc I hate that it happened in life actually) but as a story yk? If there are any books with the same vibe and affect but not about war let me know!

I hate that I have to go to Reddit for this, but I don’t have anyone to talk to. My best friend is getting annoyed with me, because I’m always talking about how sad I’ve been, or complaining about something. Today was my first day of junior year, and I was on the verge of tears the whole time. Im not sure how long it’s been, I feel it’s probably only been a week, but when you’re in pain the whole time, it seems like forever. My mom keeps relapsing, so I haven’t seen her all summer (and she keeps threatening suicide/talking about how she might die any day) and my grandpa really could die any day. Im watching him get less and less with it every day and i just can’t do it anymore. In the grand scheme of things, this is nothing compared to what other people have to go through, but I just feel like there’s not been a single day I’ve gone through where I was happy more than like, once. Maybe it’s just a hard week, but it feels like it’s gone on forever. And someone I really really care about is getting tired of me, I do ask him too much if he’s okay, but he’s told me before that he felt like he wanted to kill himself, and I guess I didn’t realize I was starting to like him. I guess I just don’t see the point of my existence if I can’t fix everything. Having somebody to help made me feel better about myself. Anyway, I hear he’s with a girl who’s prettier and more popular than me, which is fine. She’s so nice too, but she hates me. I don’t know what I did. Either way I don’t know. Maybe it’s just a hard week but I’m really struggling. I want to tell my dad but he’ll put me on medicine again. I don’t deny I felt so much better, but I don’t want to be pumped with pills my whole life. I’m just so tired of crying every night and getting no sleep because I’m so worried. I can’t get all these thoughts to leave my head. There’s so much more lore but I don’t wanna risk anyone I know finding me so 😭 what should I do?

I read both these books not too long ago and I thought they were complete masterpieces. Any suggestions?