I have lost my passion for math and for the love of Godel i can't study for my last 4 exams. (ADHD, university, autism etc..)

I am stuck with my last 4 exams, 2 difficult ones (functional analysis and superior algebra), a difficult, but relatively short one (Lie Groups) and 1 relatively easier.

The problem is for years at this point i have lost my passion for math.

Which isn't even true, but i have neveer been rigorous in it and as subjects became increasingly more challenging, less intuitive or simply more massive in the amount of things to remember (here it's all memorization, or memorization of the logic behind at least, which i suck at anyway, i tend to go for intuition and hyperfocus looking at what i need for what i want to investigate, not necessarily learning every step inbetween), more methodical, more theoretical, it has become a slog.

Now i still love math, i love teaching it (but i need to get the degree to become a proper teacher), but i gotta graduate in it to teach it formally and it's heavy to me, so so so much heavy.

I used to love it, even in university i was active, i was always interested until i started burning out and then fell behind remaining the last of my class.

I have been informally diagnosed with AUDHD and i would love to get meds, but man getting a public diagnosis in my country (Italy) where it's needed to get medicine has been taking 2 years and i still have to have my first meeting with a public specialist on the matter.

I can't keep on like this: any advice to find the spark again? I used to love math videos, but for these advanced subjects there basically isn't anyhthing that is either urface level OR basically just a lesson without nothing really intriguing.

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u/AkagamiBarto — 9 days ago
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Confronto e dibattito durante la presentazione del nuovo libro di Francesca Albanese, con il magistrato Nino Di Matteo

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u/AkagamiBarto — 10 days ago

Oggi divieto di balneazione a Sferracavallo.. le fioriture di alga tossica sembrano legate, quantomeno per durata, alla crisi climatica. Continuiamo a scegliere chi ignora il problema nella sua totalità.

Oggi il comune di Palermo ha ordinato il divieto di balneazione a Sferracavallo per fioritura di alga tossica. Tali fioriture sembrano altamente legate, quantomeno in durata a temperature medie più alte.

Questo non è un problema risolvibile localmente, ma la crisi climatica è stata causata e non affrontata per decenni e nello specifico non siamo tutti ugualmente responsabili.

Tuttavia continuiamo a rivolgerci e scegliere quella stessa classe politica che (a livello globale, ma anche locale) non ha fatto nulla per arginare la situazione...

Niente, considerazioni.

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u/AkagamiBarto — 13 days ago
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Let's never forget how good and impactful can trees be to lower perceived temperatures. We can reach -12 and easily -8 degrees in their shade (+ other benefits)

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u/AkagamiBarto — 13 days ago

So is Leonardo Da Vinci an example of a thriving ADHD having person? And what can this teach us?

So in the past i stumbled upon this article https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/new-study-suggests-da-vinci-had-adhd-180972359/ and some related (some in Italian) which claim Leonardo had traits compatible with ADHD.

He was a successful painter, engineer (or well inventor) , physician. He was a great scientist and artist.

For the period of time he liven in, we could say he thrived, but how? If he truly was ADHD that is, how did he?

Now my speculation on the matter.

I think it amounts to three factors:

  1. mecenatism.

He had people that took care of him and his needs. He worked for them (like the Medici family), but they ensured his needs were met. He just had to do things for them, but key aspect, he had great freedom in it.

They saw his value and decided to provide for him as long as he delivered even without elevated frequence. Because painting is not something you do in one day, so he had to do few jobs, from time to time. In the rest of the time he could do as he pleased, study what he wanted.

  1. pupils/servants

Even in his work he didn't do everything. As it was common at the time there were other people, usually pupils, who took care of many aspects of the job. Maybe they prepared the surface. Maybe they fetched colours. Maybe they painted some phases of the landscape. This is still a common thing i manga industry. Some authors don't do everything, but have other people fill in the boring aspects. The mechanical ones.

  1. he was allowed to live off what he liked.

He loved machines and machines were requested. He loved to paint and paintings were requested. He loved anatomy for proper painting and this made his paintings even better so it paid off.

He loved engineering and his works were appreciated. In a way he didn't have "hobbies" as hobbies were his job, without extreme pressure.

I am sure plenty of you excel at their hobbies. I am sure you have great expertise in the field of your passions, but can't really live off it

There is a fourth factor, i believe.

  1. horizontal and broad culture was endorsed in opposition to modern needs for hyperspecialisation.

An ADHD person tends to have multiple fields, multiple passions, multiple competences and sometimes even because of the condition, extreme specialisation becomes far too difficult especially for the ADHD condition, when boredom kicks in and good luck digging further in a subject that now bores you.

But when you can space between things and are rewarded for doing so..

Even Leonardo, as a painter, was arguably worse than Michelangelo. But Michelangelo was mostly a specialised artist (sculptor and architect), Leonardo was that and much more things.

So now, what does this tell us for modern world? How do we get the same conditions?

  1. Guaranteed human rights or UBI (Universal Basic Income), good luck with that under capitalism. Or well, maybe sugar daddies/mommies?

  2. group work. We work together, not everyone is ADHD, who is ADHD does what they are best at, like innovating, hyperfocusing and other people get rewarded for other abilities, like specialisation, tedious work (that they may find relaxing or even if they don't, they are able to complete)

  3. given 1) we then can do as we please and attempt to turn that into our profession or part of it. Without fear of poverty, when we have our needs met, we can experiment, puraue careers, not fear bankrupcy.

  4. this comes as a cascade of the previous ones. Or we can just focus on bringing back horizontal competence and knowledge as a valuable thing. Usually in humanistics or teaching fields.

My two cents on the matter..

u/AkagamiBarto — 15 days ago
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Asking here: are there studies that describe how the temperature of a specific street changes depending on tree presencez their shade, their transpiration comparing with artificial shade? Possibly providing a temperature profile with and without trees.

Hello! I wanted to know if there exists a study describing in detail how a specific street temperature (air and surface) changes depending on tree presence and most importantly if there are studies that provide localised temperature profiles which i expect to peak in full sun and collapse under trees. Possibly also with comparison to different types of shade (like bus stops).

I can find general city level studies, but I can't find something at street level with the degree i want to know about.

Thankyou in advance!

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u/AkagamiBarto — 22 days ago

Should there be a weekly megathread? I got premium free trial and the day after my account was unreachable

Hi! I was looking for the weekly megathread as reddit told me there was supposed to be one for these issues, but i can only find one 11 months old.

So the day before yesterday (i think) i got my premium free trial, to reach some specific people (without any intention to go further than the free 30 days) and i started connecting with a few of them (less than 10, no messages yet)

Then i closed my pc and went to sleep.

Yesterday i found out i wasn't able to reach my account. I did the whole verification thing and now i am waiting, but i got anxious.

Should i be worried? I can't cancel my premium without accessing the account after all.

IF i get my account back quickly, should i still text and contact the people i intended to? Or immediately go to close?

Sorry if this is the wrong place, but again, i couldn't find a weekly megathread

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u/AkagamiBarto — 28 days ago

How do i explain why i wash sone things and other ones not?

We have a washing machine, but we don't always wash everything with it:

Cutlery? Yes. Dishes? Yes. Pots? No. Cups? Usually No. Glasses? Yes.

Moreover we don't run it everyday.

So what do i do when i wash things? I wash the things we use everyday (like breakfast cups) or we don't wash in the machine and leave all the rest to be rinsed in one go and upt in the washing machine when i feel like it.

But of course this is unfathomable to the family.

They ask why i leave the cutlery for example.

And i try to answer "i'll do all together and put them in the washing machine", but they don't understand, they never understand and it becomes heavy, being continuously scolded for it.

I just can't adapt to something illogical to me. I swear

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u/AkagamiBarto — 1 month ago

I don't exactly understand the Latex requests

I don't fully understand what the Latex test is asking me to do.

For example i have a "page" that i have to write a transcript of, but in such page the mathematical formulas are not properly visualised. Should i just copy the same writing or should i write the correct Latex formatting so that in theory it shoud show properly?

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u/AkagamiBarto — 1 month ago
▲ 6 r/houseplantsitalia+2 crossposts

Cercasi piante/alberelli/semi/bulbi

Avete piante da buttare/donare/scambiare?

Se sì, sono disponibile a venire a prenderle. Purché non siano troppo grandi va bene tutto, basta che stiano nel bagagliaio di un'auto.

Grazie!

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u/AkagamiBarto — 2 months ago

So, how does the increase work?

I was at 491, then after validating at 508, but if i add 15 to 491 i only reach 506, I don't understand it

u/AkagamiBarto — 2 months ago
▲ 8 r/math

Hello! I need stimuli to study mathematical physics, graduate level. I would love to learn about open problems with distribution theory, fourier transform, navier stokes equations and mollifiers theory.

Thankyou in advance!

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u/AkagamiBarto — 2 months ago

I have checked if asking for support goes against the rules and it seems it doesn't.

I have singles out a large plot of land bordering the Marsala Salinas reserve in Sicily.

The area itself is a peculiar environment where, although manmade modifications are present they don't necessarily prevent the presence of local wildlife and in certain cases even enhance it (flamingos benefit from salinas concentrating their crustacean food). The area is also highly agricultural, with a focus on grapes and wine and there are some issues with tourism and sport tourism.

Now this plot of land is intended for tourism and in the board there is written it will also come with a location adapted to a bar, a kiosk. I would like to prevent that, either dismantling the building or leaving it for natural education purposes or for birdwatching, leaving the rest of the land to nature and wilderness. The area this plot of land is located in is undergoing a new touristic redevelopment and i would love to do what i can to protect at least certain pockets of wilderness. While the reserve on its own should remain relatively untouched sole birds prefer the areas like this one, rather than the salina salt lakes, which are favored by flamingos for example.

List of what is currently present in the area (for what i have observed):

* White Stork

* White Spatula

* White heron

* Blue heron

* Kingfisher

* European Roller

* Cormorant

* Flamingo

* Lesser white heron

* European turtle dove

* Hawk

* Falcon (Falco tinnunculus)

* Sacred Ibis (invasive)

* Other common birds (various gull species, shore birds, corvids..)

What could be reintroduced in the area:

* Greater Bustard

* Common Crane

* Osprey

* Lesser Bustard

* Hermit Ibis

What else could live here, but i haven't spotted:

* Nocturnal birds of prey

* Sicilian frogs and toads

* Sicilian pond turtle

There could also be the possibility for Lynx reintroduction in the driest parts AND for water buffalo farming since apparently the European species or subspecies was present in the area, but that is not actually of my concern for now.

The plot of land i am talking about is roughly 2 acres, 8000 square feet. With 12€ per square meter i'll need something like 100k so that's the sum i am aiming for.

I am personally not well financially and i have reached out to environmental organisations, of which i also am part of, but they/we have the hands too full with other projects and lack the money to begin with, so at this point it's time to ask people around the globe for help.

This plot of land is not enormous by any means, but it is still relevant, still used by the local fauna and, more importantly maybe, it can serve as a stepping stone towards protecting larger areas of or near the reserve.

I have also located a second plot of land, in a relatively nearby area, but way drier and rockier.

That is not the concern of this post, but so that you know, there we could reintroduce:

* Sicilian Partridge

* Greater Bustard

* Onager (in place of equus hemionus)

* Rails

* Scarabs

Well there it is, i am leaving it into your hands, people, i'll do what i can!

u/AkagamiBarto — 2 months ago