I'm 20y with no girlfriend and that hurts me
I work as a freelancer software enginneer, I have my own way of making money and I live good at the beach, pretty social, smart, I do many hobbies like Boxing, BJJ, I'm pretty good at talking to people, and I consider I have a good appearence.
my family loves me, my parents friends wanted me to date their daughter, an ISFP. that... just didn't work out.
In my teenages I was an asshole. Cocky mf willing to debate everyone. While my friends were banging girls at school I was getting into physical fights, discussions, debating history with my history teacher, causing polemics on twitter with political opinions that weren't even mine...
After my 17 years old I changed, I had no friends in my new school and I was addicted to software and finding a way to not work in a 9-5 job.
I did it. But as I never go to night clubs, I work at home and I just do male-driven activities, I'm surrounded by testosterone but no estrogen to share a bit of life.
I never had a girlfriend, I make sex with hookers some times and when I start something with a girl they seem to find a way to play an ego game with me, for some reason. An INTP girl was like this. When I was actually with my head in my company and projects but willing to travel some miles to go to a date with her, she found many times ways to "make me wait". I just can't play this BS...
After receiving a good money from a project, beating people in a ring and going to drink in a pub with friends, I go home and I find no partner with me. I feel lonely.