Intimate with best friend and her husband
So this is really really bad and I feel disgusting about it but a few weeks ago after too many drinks with my best friend we ended up like kissing and involving her husband who was there and it resulted in a 3some.
More recently it kinda happened again but not as much happened as last time. The day after tho my best friend tells me her husband had started acting weird and basically told her that we shouldn’t be doing this anymore especially since I’m her friend.
This kinda took me by surprise because I didn’t know he thought so badly of this, and I didn’t mind partaking in the activities, so this just makes me feel even more disgusted with myself knowing that her husband and now her agree that this shouldn’t happen again.
I guess I need advice on how to move on from this, like we all pretend like nothing ever happened or if I should stop beating myself up about it or confirm that this is disgusting and I need help.