u/Artistic-Stranger886

I’m a very introverted guy. I tend to be a quiet person and very reserved about myself. I’m very private about who I let into my life and I don’t trust people at all. That’s always been the problem is that I’ve felt like a weirdo and a social outcast. And people have always picked on me for being a quiet person. But whatever, I think my silence is a strength. It’s best not to reveal your cards too much (although I’d be contradicting myself given my Reddit behavior).

I’m a very live and let live person. I believe that people should do what they want. I love harmony and peace and I hate conflict. I am conflict avoidant at times, yes. But i absolutely will finish shit if you try me. I hold a strong grudge and I am very vengeful. I tend to remember very well what other people did and I tend to strongly cross out who is and isn’t in my circle.

I’ve always been a rather dreamy sort of individual. And I’ve always been very good at reading situations and predicting dynamics. This has been a source of a lot of pain for me given how disillusioned it’s made me with the rest of the world. But I’ve always had a pulse for things and I’ve been able to read how things will unfold. At the same time, I think it’s a major source of my creativity. I’ve always been someone who romanticizes life and tends to live in my own la la land 2000s fantasy and have very escapist tendencies. I am very bored with my current situation becuase it’s so beige and I wish for a more colorful and glamorous life.

I’m drawn to glamour and the finer things in life. I love fashion and aesthetics as a result. I’m always very attuned to what I wear and my clothes, I enjoy perfumes and colognes, I love to collect jewelry , and I always go out looking cool af. As a result, my shadow side is I can be super vain about my appearance/looks (although I don’t see it as a shadow side) and I can become materialistic. That’s why I’m drawn to spirituality. I like to read about Buddhism and Hinduism and I’m deeply into astrology and tarot. I also do a lot of meditation.

I deeply enjoy music. I saved up some money from my job so I can buy a MIDI controller and a Squier Stratocaster guitar. I love to produce music and I want to get into writing songs and playing the guitar. I have so many creative ideas that are dying to be heard by others. As a kid, it was my dream to be an actor or a singer and I’d daydream of recording albums or starring on the big screens. And that part of me hasn’t died. I still hope to make/compose music and release it or get movies and acting gigs. I would also love to become an author/novelist or a freelance model.

I also deeply love aesthetic and fashion designs. I always draw out my fashion sketches of stuff that I want to design. I also enjoy photography. I also tend to create a lot of paintings and abstract sketch pieces as a result.

And I love reading philosophy (I just got into it so I’d love some recommendations) and fiction. And I enjoy writing. I always write my own novels and stories and create worlds with characters and plots and stuff.

I take a strong pride in my aesthetic tastes and artistic interests. I know I have a developed aesthetic taste and I wish to be recognized and known for it.

I’m normally a shy and reclusive person but I’ve always found some armor in fashion and style. Fashion has always been a way for me to step into a sort of alter ego, a glamorous and cool persona, and feel confident and feel like a star. Same with going to the gym and lifting weights or doing kung fu or with dancing in the nightclub. I tend to have a very grandiose vision of life and I hate boredom. I like having a sense of thrill and adventure.

I’ve been looking to kind of revamp my hairdo a bit and make it look more interesting.

I’ve been wanting to try mod cuts and from what I’ve heard, mullets around the back of my head suits me. Many people have suggested doing a buzz cut but that’s a hit or miss for me. And I like the mod cut but I feel like it sort of rounds my face a bit. I was thinking of getting a super low fade around my sides but I’m not sure how it will work.

In addition, I wanna change my hair color. I feel like black is a bit boring for me hair color wise and washed me out. Many people suggested I try red highlights or ghost roots and that could actually work really well. Red could fit my skin tone and works with black. And it would fit my more alternative and darker style.

At the same time though, I’ve always wanted to try being a blonde. And for my skin, it seems like the caramel brown/honey color would be the safest way to achieve it. And it looks so glamorous and flattering as a color.

I’ve heard about cowboy copper on TikTok and it could satisfy having both reddish hair and lead to caramel highlights but idk.

If you have any suggestions on what hairstyles and colors I should try, I’d really appreciate it. Thank you

I’m not entirely sure what color to choose. A lot of people have been suggesting red and I could see that working for me. Red also would fit since I like more edgier and darker clothes and it’s more alternative. And cowboy copper looks cool.

But I was also thinking of a honey brown/caramel ish hair color since it might suit my skin tone and it’s very summer friendly. I’ve also wanted to try being blonde and I feel like a caramel honey color is the safest way to do so

I’ve narrowed down my socionics type somewhat but I’m not entirely sure. I have two questionnaires I did and I hope it helps in showing my thought processes.

I know I’m likely an ethical type and probably central or questim?

These are my questionnaires:

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1m7CDyaubb6jSV0dBaSegjbNbUPxW02UY3HGPPaSLRE8/edit

https://docs.google.com/document/d/10KYLXf1WIbblPUXhBcSctmNgo-Sz5fSd2njPqy-UzpU/edit

If you’re able to help I’d really appreciate it if you could provide an explanation of what my type might be and my thought processes so I can understand socionics a bit better