u/Ashamed_Kangaroo305

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Asking because there was an interesting debate about what rural means on a post I saw. It called a house in Switzerland 15 miles from a city "very rural", which many commenters thought was ludicrous. Someone from Italy mentioned that there "rural" is anything not in a city.

Here I feel like rural is defined by distance to services/a city, but then there's a weird gap in the terminology with places that are fairly close to a city (<20-30 mins) but aren't actually in any organized settlement.

I'm watching the show for the first time and I'm on Midnight (10x21) which is of course utterly devastating for other reasons. But the scene where Steve is talking softly to Sam and then he switches up immediately when she stops reciprocating made my blood run cold.

Also a tangent but I can't believe I never see people talking more about Kerry trying to commit a match violation. I like Kerry (sometimes) but that was so unbelievably selfish. She had no idea whether Abby was going to pass her boards or not. What if Abby had passed and then she missed out on the chance to go to her first choice program because of Kerry? And what kind of message is that sending to Abby? She was already worried about not passing her boards; she didn't need Kerry showing her complete lack of confidence in her.

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I tried all the stimulants but they all had side effects that sometimes negated the whole point of the meds. So a little less than a month ago I switched to Wellbutrin and it's actually been working really well. It's still not perfect but I have basically no side effects and I've been doing a lot better than I was before. Except that a couple days ago I started getting really itchy all over my body and it progressed to the point where hives would show up whenever I scratched. I talked to my psychiatrist and it's probably a medication allergy so I need to stop the Wellbutrin.

I've seen some people say that they were just allergic to one of the inactive ingredients so switching manufacturers or taking the brand name fixed the problem (I'm currently on the generic), so I'm hoping to meet with my doctor soon and see if that would be a feasible solution to try. But this is just so frustrating because I finally found something that works and now I might have to give it up and try another med. I've never even been allergic to anything in my life. And on top of all of this, my dog is being put down in two weeks. So the worst possible time to be withdrawing from an antidepressant.

I just feel like it defeats the point of visual tasks being off. I like those lobbies because there's no way to hard clear someone so you have to use other evidence to work out who the impostor is, and it gets annoying when there are three people saying they have scan so they're all cleared. Plus impostors can fake it if they practice enough so it's not even actually a hard clear.

I joined a lobby and in there were only two people near the first kill, one of whom was red. So from the start red was slightly suspicious. Then in the second kill, red was literally walking away from the body when I walked into the room. When I reported, red said I did the kill after I said that they were walking away from the body. They never tried to say it was a shapeshifter that I saw, and later in that same chat they literally confirmed that they were in that room and passed by me before I reported it. But people kept saying it can't be red because they were hard cleared by med scan (even though visual tasks were off and I've seen people fake the walk).

Despite red agreeing that they saw me in the room, everyone kept saying that it was a shapeshifter because red was hard cleared. Then I started accusing red and the person who cleared them (yellow) because they were both clearing each other, but the vote ended up skipped. Then at the next meeting I asked red who was with them watching them scan because the scan happened right before the kill, and they named yellow and two other people one of whom was dead and the other had barely talked in chat. But everyone got really mad at me for still accusing red and yellow kept saying the imps need to kill me next round. Then red ended up getting killed next so everyone started calling me an idiot even though there was no other logical explanation for the kill red walked away from.

I left that lobby and joined another one. Immediately maroon accused me of viper killing in front of them when I was a crewmate. I'm only now realizing that they must've killed in front of me and then panicked and accused me except I hadn't noticed the kill. The kill was right outside a room that I had just walked into. Weirdly they used the emergency button instead of reporting the body. But for some reason no one was suspicious of maroon. They made it all the way to the end but we ended up figuring out it was maroon and voting them off. But the whole time cyan kept insisting it wasn't maroon for some reason which made me think they were also an impostor, but they ended up being crew. Confirm ejects was on and we also won immediately after maroon was voted out so obviously maroon was the impostor, but even after the game ended cyan kept saying they were right and maroon wasn't the impostor.

Then someone joined the lobby who maroon and cyan knew and maroon said "[whatever their name was] you should join the VC". I was like wtf and asked if they were on a voice call and then maroon said "no I actually meant BC" and when I asked what they was they said it was "bitc chat" and when I said idk what that was both maroon and cyan just said "good" so that was really weird. After looking it up it looks like it's a messaging app? I doubt that they actually meant bc but either way I'm pretty sure they were talking to each other during the game.

So I left that lobby and joined another one and got impostor. My two other impostors got voted out somewhat quickly. Both were caught by the same person (tan). Each time tan caught someone they were really rude about it and sent multiple messages about how they're an idiot and a terrible impostor. The whole game I hadn't been suspected at all but I did start panicking a little when the second imp got voted out because there were six crew when I was the only one left and it was skeld so it's not as easy to isolate people. I sabotaged lights and killed someone in a hallway nearby which admittedly was a dumb kill and I should've waited or done comms instead. When I did the kill there was no one around but tan came in right at the end of it so I got caught. They then did the same spiel about how I'm an idiot and should never play as impostor again and I was a waste of a phantom all because I had one bad kill. Even though I had done multiple kills where crew got accused and voted out for and no one had suspected me until that bad kill.

I just wanted to vent because I've had a lot of dumb lobbies but never this many really bad ones in a row. I ended up just quitting the game for the night after that last one because I was so frustrated.

Based on the sticky I don't think I'm infested because I've never seen adults, only occasional juveniles and always in the bathroom except one which was in the kitchen sink. I am slightly more concerned now because I've seen two in the bathroom in the past two days but I'm going to pour bleach down the shower drain in the morning. They're either coming up from the drains (which is a known problem in the area) or coming in from another apartment in the complex.

I'm moving in late August or early September. My roommates won't let me do any of the treatments suggested in the sticky because they don't want chemicals around their cat. I won't be bringing any furniture when I move, just clothes and other random stuff. Since I (hopefully) don't have an infestation, will I be okay just washing all my clothes and putting them in the dryer on high? I'm not sure what to do about my other stuff.

I just found out recently that I'm extremely deficient in vitamin D, B12, and iron which explains why I've been feeling so awful for the past several weeks, and probably why I haven't been able to get anything done for a few months. On top of that, I started my period today. There's a festival happening in my town that I really want to go to, but I'm so exhausted and whenever I get up I feel lightheaded. It's also super hot outside which makes me feel a million times worse. This only happens once a year and I've never been before, and I don't know if I'll still live here next year. But if I push myself and go, I'm not going to be able to do any of the things I need to get done today, and I might not make it to my classes tomorrow which I need to go to. How do I decide what to do?

Update: I felt good for like 5 minutes so I decided to drag myself out before I started feeling bad again. I'm here now and I'm feeling kinda terrible but I'm also glad I went. I'm definitely not going to be productive today but I'm getting myself a nice mug and got to try out Zimbabwean food from a vendor here!

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist soon but wanted to see if anyone else has been in a similar situation.

I tried Vyvanse for about a year. I think it helped, but the side effects were terrible. Really bad dry mouth and acid reflux, and it lasted too long so I got horrible sleep issues which totally messed me up, which I could not put up with because it's already difficult to get enough sleep as it is. The generic was also really inconsistent but I never got the chance to try the brand name because the copay was hundreds of dollars. I tried filing an appeal with my insurance but that went nowhere.

Then about 2.5 weeks ago I switched to Ritalin. Overall side effects are mostly way better and sleep doesn't seem to be an issue anymore. The dry mouth is gone which has been a huge relief because that was awful. But now I get super irritable when it's wearing off. It's so bad that sometimes I want to yell at my dog, and then I feel really awful because I want to yell at my dog and then I get more irritable because I'm upset. I don't think I can keep doing this. It lasts several hours and I can't get anything done because I'm irritable and I just feel awful about myself because of it.

And on both meds, the dehydration has been horrible. Even when I'm making a conscious effort to drink a lot of water I still usually end up feeling at least a little bad from dehydration at the end of the day. I hate having to put so much effort in just to stay hydrated; it's exhausting. And I want to go on hikes and be more active, but it's so much harder (and scarier for hiking) when I get dehydrated more easily. And needing to pee more often is really annoying. The low appetite can also be pretty bad, mostly in the evenings. It's better on Ritalin but still an issue sometimes. And if I have a really low appetite then sometimes I just cannot eat a proper meal even if I try to force myself to eat. My voice also gets pretty hoarse sometimes which I'm really self-conscious about. Again better on Ritalin but still an issue.

Sometimes I find myself skipping doses because I just don't feel like dealing with the side effects, and the benefits aren't always that helpful. Effectiveness can fluctuate but it's really helpful for getting past the initial wall of executive dysfunction. I can think "I should go get up to grab food/get groceries/walk my dog/etc." and I'll do it if it's a small task like that, when before I would often get stuck on that. For bigger tasks it doesn't always help because they're too overwhelming or scary to start, but I knew going into this that that wasn't something that could be fixed by meds alone. If I'm able to break my tasks down, then the meds help. But where they haven't helped is exhaustion. I do like 2-3 things in a day and then I'm just done. By the time I get home from class and feed my dog and eat dinner, I'm mentally exhausted and can't do anything else. Meds don't help with that at all. They do help me feel more awake if I haven't gotten enough sleep, but that's about it. I also don't think my focus is much better on meds, but my main problem was always the executive dysfunction so it may just be harder to notice small improvements with focus. Do I just need to find a different med? I have a month left of college and I really don't have time to experiment with more meds because I need something that will just work now, but I don't think that's possible. And yet I can't get my shit together enough to pass these last classes that I need to graduate and I don't know what I'm supposed to do.