I need help im a anxious attachment :(

Hello guys yesterday i had ab argument either my long distabt gf whos a avoidant attachment and and the anxious one.

The argument was about how we both were voice chatting via discord the whole week together but she said "i feel bad for saying no to my friends but i say i play with you" idk why but something just triggered me i didnt felt like a priority and she tried to say that she said it to make me feel prioritised not to guilt trip me but then i just kept going and going spiraling into my overthinking and i just dont know what to do anymore. It was pretty late around 1-2am my nervous dystrophy just kept getting worse and worse.

Then i said something that really hurt her heart

"Because i try to have conversations with you and it just feels i cant reach you so it drains me chasing after someone who doesn't want to be chased but im not like that anymore you cant compare me to my past im a changed man" idk why i said that it just spurted out and i feel terribe she said shes sorry for for not being able to gove me reassurance and make me feel prioritised and i know what i said wasnt the best thing i just kept crying all night because i thought the relationship was over".

I kept texting her saying how sorry i deeply am and that i take full accountability for everything it was all my fault.

And now i just cant seem to function anymore i already applied for therapists via email because there is just genuinely something wrong with me i cant bring myself to calm down

Please i need some advice my heart just feels so heavy knowing i hurt the only person i care so much about

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 16 hours ago

What else should i buy ?

Hello everyone im trying to increase my stack what else should i get.

I currently have zinc(25g) ,selen and copper (2mg) combined with l arginine l citruline mix

I need something for precum and taste and preferably more cum volume

Whats the best thing to add?

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 19 days ago
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Day 4

Well its day 4 and i dont get morning wood anymore.. a week ago shortly where i relapsed sadly i use to get morning wood every single day now i dont.. im 4 days strong i have no urges is that normal?

My last streak was almost 2 weeks long

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 21 days ago

HELP HOW DO I CHUG THIS DOWN ITS TOO BIG

Nah cause wtf is this size for pills.. im getting my other stuff tmr like selen and copper i currently only have zinc and these big ass pills

u/AvailableAd6516 — 1 month ago
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Gonna restart my counter

I was almost 11 days in but i peeked abs masturbated im gonna reset my counter and do it properly no more peeking..

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 1 month ago
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Day10

Well I peeked.. after i peeked i closed everything and tried to fight the urges well i masturbated after half an hour idk if i should reset my counter or keep going..

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 1 month ago

I really had a scary dream rn

I just woke up rn and im in tears like shocked..

i just remember the last fragment of the dream which is most important.

Basically i was walking with my father somewhere it was daytime and you normally see some people pass but there was this one person who walked by us i looked at them and they looked at me (you know how time slows down for a second when you look at someone) they were completely dressed black and had black glasses. I cant remember if they even had a face?

Anyways that person looked extremely suspicious so i kept a eye on him and as soon as i stopped looking at them(the possible robber) he turned around and tried to pepper spray me and my father we kinda dodged it. But then he disappeared not even a trace of running away he was just gone.

Then we were at home with my father aswell and it was night he wanted to go for a smoke and hw literally screamed out of his lungs and the robber took a foot inside the house and i genuinely dont know if i just think it or if it actually happened but before i wake up it turned bigger and taller? (I actually dont know if that happened it was literally 0.1 seconds)

And i looked up what islamic meaning it could have and im more scared now because it says it could be a spiritual attack.

I pray my 5 daily prayers and basically started to practice Islam which im new with..

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 2 months ago

This might be a long post bear with me..

Hi im a m21 years old and im in a relationship with a F20 gf we have been in a relationship for 4+ years known each other 7 years but since a month i cant stop my overthinking and being overly anxious attached

For background around one month i was visiting my gf (were long distance) and i asked her father for her hand in marriage well he said im a great guy but faith wise (since they're religious) he said he has/fears and gave me a "no" for now but he also said i should focused on my work and faith then we would see in the future.. after this me and my gf have been really on and off like shes a distant attached but after since what happened she pulled so much away that we barely text anymore some days were just "goodmorning" with sending 3-4 tiktoks then typing goodnight while i was trying to get conversations with her. We just had "small talk"

Anyways we had a really long talk like a few days ago and she noticed that i also started to pull away to keep myself safe from more hurt and she asked why i was like this and se just had a deep talk. But shat i really needed was reassurance and she barely gave me anything like she knows i overthink and knows im more of a anxious guy but lately I couldn't receive that and if i have to specifically ask for it it doesnt feel like it actually comes from her.

I really have understanding for everything she also goes through she said she needed time for herself and that everything is a task for her. She says she feels still sad about what happened like i really understand it but for me it feels like im giving and giving and giving but i think i put expectations to receive back which was wrong of me from my side.

Im just constantly overthinking things i was also in a really bad place but i had no one to talk about i could normally tell her how i feel but i just feel like a burden abd my heart feels constantly heavy. I just seem to fuck everything up i deeply care for her but idk anymore what to do..

Please someone help me? I really dont know how to go forward both of us are stuck in the past and hurt from what happened but yeah..

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 2 months ago

hello guys i have downloaded a rich presence for discord and it works perfectly now i have another question.. i want the rich presence to show when im basically listening on my phone.

here was my thinking : I download rich presence -> i run it on my PC over the day where im not home -> listen on my phone and it shows on discord

because if you play songs on spotify on the phone it automatically syncs to the web/or windows app but for whatever reason this isnt the case for apple music..

is there a fix to this or is it only just for the desktop..

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u/AvailableAd6516 — 2 months ago