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For context, I recently got a really bad odor in my hair it literally smells like smelly feet. The reason kaya nagkaganon is because after showering, I would wear a cap with my hair tied up kahit basa pa. For like a whole week, lagi akong nasa labas, so I’d spend hours wearing a cap with my hair tied up. I only realized how bad it was when I finally untied my hair, and it smelled SO bad. 😭

I’ve tried shampooing it so many times, pero the smell just won’t go away. Huhuhu, idk if this is the right subreddit, but I literally can’t take the smell of my hair anymore. I’m also always in an air-conditioned room, so parang kalat na kalat yung amoy. And rn, I’m scared to even untie my hair kasi baka mas lumala pa yung smell huhuhu Im also afraid to use hair spray kase baka mag talo ‘yung bad odor ng hair ko sa bango. Huhuhuh

Hi! I just want to ask if it’s really that expensive to study LEAPMed there. I heard that there’s a scholarship for the 1st and 2nd highest-ranking students in the overall exam. Is that true, and what exactly does the scholarship cover?
I’m currently the only one in my family who will be going to college kase tapos na mga siblings ko. My mom earns around ₱70,000 per month, but that’s before taxes and other expenses, and my dad currently doesn’t have a job. Do you think it would still be possible for me to study LEAPMed without a scholarship? Ayaw ko kase ipilit if ‘di naman pala kaya.
Also, nahihiya akong magtanong sa mom ko kasi baka ma-hurt siya or magulat, and baka ma-feel niya na she wasn’t able to give her daughter the life that she wanted

Income 1st year college ako and rn gr 12 I want take a gap year sana is it a good decision. Im planning to take bs bio prog para diretsyo med if papalarin. I feel like I am not ready or prepared enough sa mga cets and I’m suffering mentally rn. The gap year na ‘yun, is u-utilized ko for me to learn and fixed myself i guess? does it work ba? Sa iba diyan na nag take ng gap year for same reason din? And same goals? Does it work?

Before, I used to get the highest scores in almost every subject, not to brag, but just to give context. Then the new school year started with a new set of teachers, and now I haven’t even passed a single one of their exams.

The hard part is that all of my teachers seem to expect me to be the valedictorian. But honestly? I think I’ve already disappointed them because I’ve failed all of their subjects so far.
It’s frustrating because whenever they ask me questions in class, they’re always looking at me. I can answer them naman, but when it comes to applying what I know on the actual exams, I end up failing. Kaya minsan I just choose to shut the fck up and keep my mouth closed. 😭 HAHAHA. Nakakahiya kasi.
I still want to become the valedictorian, but with my current scores? Nah… I don’t think it’s possible anymore. The pressure is just too much, especially knowing that everyone already has such high expectations of me. Nakakaloka. Pero gusto ko rin naman maging vale, that’s why I’m disappointed sa mga scores ko, ganun ba ako ka bobo? Sa room parang laging mga kaaway ko, laging compete sa laht ng bagay. Kapagod.

I just hate that my mom seems more embarrassed that I don’t go to school than concerned about why I’m struggling in the first place. I already asked her if I could get professional help, but she just laughed it off and said, “May tama ka ba?”

She doesn’t know that I’ve been suffering for four years, and there came a point where I genuinely couldn’t handle it anymore. I started skipping classes, and it got even worse because I was being bullied at school. I never told anyone about it, not even my mom, because I’m not comfortable opening up to her.

Then one day, my mom got called into the school and talked with the teachers. After that, she cried in front of them. Like, what the hell? Why make a scene like that when I’ve already told her that I NEED PROFESSIONAL HELP? Minsan kasi pakiramdam ko lagi siyang nagpapaawa at gustong magmukhang huwarang ina.

I don’t even know exactly what happened after that, but all I know is that she cried in front of the teachers. Hindi ko nga magawang magpaawa sa mga teacher para lang patunayang na may pinagdadaanan ako.

Nakakahiya lang kasi after kong ma-enroll doon, and after a year, parang halos lahat ng teachers at pati school nurse namin alam na ang nangyari and nag silipatan sila ng school. I don’t know if it was because of me?

Pero ang totoo naman, madalas talagang wala si mama noong lumalaki kami. Lagi niyang ginagawang opisina ang bahay, at minsan umaalis pa siya at babalik na lang pagkalipas ng ilang araw o isang linggo. Ganoon lagi ang setup namin. Parang nagiging ina lang siya kapag may sakit kami.

Average student lang naman ako. Naiintindihan ko ang mga topics, pero after a few days, nakakalimutan ko rin sila. Okay naman ang grades ko, pero hindi ok na ok.

Nag-enroll din ako sa review center. Akala ko noon they would teach us again from the beginning, pero hindi pala. Ang ginagawa nila ay sasagutan lang ang mga mock tests na ibinibigay nila at saka ie-explain ang mga sagot. Kaya sa isang buwan nko roon, nakatulala lang ako dahil wala talaga akong naiintindihan, at aminado akong nahirapan ako kase wala ngang pumapasok sa utak ko pasok sa sa tenga labas kabila.

Pag-uwi ko, I tried studying at my own pace, at nakakaya ko naman. I’m just worried because we already spent a lot of money on the review center and dorm, tapos baka hindi rin pala ako pumasa.

The pressure I have right now is unbearable. Pero at some point Inexpect ko na rin na ganon and pinili ko rin ‘to pero ang hirappp talaga. I’m trying to study at least 8 hours a day because a topic that takes others only 30 minutes to understand takes me almost 2 hours to fully master.

I also decided to apply for UPCAT. I don’t know if

I still doubt myself a lot. Minsan pakiramdam ko hindi ako makakapasa sa kahit anong university because most of our tests sa high school are spoon-fed. I feel like my dreams are so big, but maybe I’m not capable enough to reach them.

Hindi rin naman namin kayang mag-aral sa mamahaling private universities. Tho I chose UST because if I get into LEAPMed, based on my calculations, it would be more affordable for us in the long run. If I pass USTET but not LEAPMed, baka state university na lang ang piliin ko.is it possible to pass both kahit average stud lng

After studying for 8 hours, I try to sleep at 3 a.m., but my mind says no while my body says yes. In the end, I don’t sleep. Then I still have another 8 hours of scheduled lessons. I choose not to sleep in the morning because I have other important things to do. So I try to sleep again at 3 a.m. the next day, but during that time, while studying, I’m literally dying. You know that feeling when your body just can’t do it anymore and ur mind? both my mind and body become weak, but I still need 3 more hours to complete my 8-hour study goal. It’s exhausting. Melatonin or any OTC medicine they never put me to sleep. Also, i think I took too much melatonin, every time I tried to take it again ny head hurts like a 7/10 headache.

Up until now ‘di ko alam pipillin ko. If I chose MAAP BS MT mas mabilis akong kikita, if i chose BS BIO it will take me 12 or 13 years however I’ll earn twice bsmt can make. Being a Doctor is not my passion as well as being a seafarer, all I want literally is money. Kaya hanggang ngayon lost ako sa kung anong gusto ko.

Need ba ng company na mag isponsor sa’yo para makapasok sa MAAP for free? And ano ba uunahin naitake na exam MAAP or mga companies like IMEC or IMAJ? I’m the first in my family kase na interested sa ganitong prog at school so I don’t have any clue talaga baka mamaya huli na pala ako for registration. PMMA or MAAP anong mas madaling makapasok?

P.S. Also, is it ok if I had an appendicitis operation 7 years ago and astigmatism?

Is the PMMA entrance exam at the same level as the UPCAT? I’m planning to apply, and I think kaya ko naman kahit papaano. I’ve also been doing combat sports for about four years

I still don’t know what program ang kukunin ko. If mag pre-med ako, parang susugal ako kasi mahal ang med school, tapos hindi ko pa sure kung kakayanin ba ng utak ko. What if, in the middle of studying, ma-realize ko na hindi ko pala kayang pumasa sa licensure exam? Parang lahat ng years, effort, at pera masasayang lang. Pero dream ko talaga iyon since bata pa ako.

Or should I take BS Ed? My mom took BS Ed naman, and I think okay naman ang salary niya. May stable income din naman father ko, so I know magiging okay pa rin ang buhay ko doon. Feel ko rin kasi mas magiging madali ang path na iyon. Let’s face the reality na minsan backer at connections talaga ang kailangan sa mga ganoong bagay, and I feel like mas magiging mabilis umangat ang rank ko doon.

I’m still torn on what to choose. Should I gamble for my dream job, for the title that I really want? Or should I just choose the easier path and live a comfortable life? We have the means naman for me to enter med school. Ang akin lang talaga, baka hindi kayanin ng utak ko.

Ang hirap mag review or aralin ng isang lesson kasi every time na ginagawa ko ‘yon, all the regrets and embarass moments naalala ko, Huhuhuhu like mga problems parang mas naalala ko pa ‘yon kaysa sa inaaral ko e. Nakakainis lng kase ang hirap mag-aral pag puno ‘yong utak mo ng unwanted thoughts.

Totoo pala ’yon na parang ang bigat sa puso, kahit we all know naman that heart just pumps blood. Pero kapag malungkot ka, ang bigat talaga sa pakiramdam. ’Yung ’di ka makaiyak sa mga problema, or kapag broken-hearted ka, iba ‘yong bigat, na parang hindi ka makahinga. At first, akala ko drama lang nila ‘yon, pero I got it all wrong pala. Also, I just realized na kaya pala maraming nagko-commit ng suicide. It is not only because of mental sadness but ‘yong factors na kasama non. The heart feels heavier talaga literal na parang nadudurog. I feel sympathy for those who experience it every day, napaka hirap. Gigising ka araw-araw na may ganung nararamdaman.

I’m 17 and up until now ‘di ko alam if I’m smart enough or bobo. Para naman alam ko if tama ba ang tinatahak kong path. If kaya ba ng utak ko ‘yong prog na gusto ko. I’m thinking na baka masayang lang ang years of learning ko tas at the end ‘di ko pala kayang pumasa sa mga exam tas I wouldn’t have a proper job. I feel like I’m just pretending to be smart. Lagi ko naman sinasabi na bobo ako sa iba pero I don’t have a choice pag dating sa fam ko I feel kinda pessured din cuz they expect na lagi akong nag e-excel na matalino ako at na makukuha ko iyong prog na gusto ko. Pero totoo I’m just pretending kase kailangan. Feel ko kase kahit anong sipag ko wala pa rin akong maisasagot e. Lalo rn kase puro CET’s na and while answering iyong mga practice test napapatanong na lang ako kung matalino ba ako o trying hard lng.

My mom gives me everything I ask for. We are a complete family, and I have a good relationship with my siblings. I don’t really have problems at all. At school, I’m doing pretty well.

But the thing is, I hate my face. My face feels like the reason I could kill myself. I can’t function anymore, I just want to end my life because I think I look awful. I feel like no one wants to see me.