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Rant I guess. My mother IS my abuser. Growing up, I always got over her acts of abuse whenever she tried being nice to me but as an adult I remember everything she did to me and things she continues to do, and I cannot forgive her. I am so incredibly resentful. I genuinely feel like she’s treating me like I’m a victim and she’s the stereotypical controlling toxic possessive boyfriend (wierd comparison I know). But she controls what I fucking eat (she is religious Muslim so I can’t eat non halal food around her), controls what I fucking wear! I NEVER wore simple jeans and top growing up, yes something so simple would genuinely trigger and set her off as she sees it as incredibly immodest and that it would be my fault if men harass me if I wore tops and trousers. She assumes I am seeing someone whenever I go out and calls me a whore - mind you I have never dated in my life because I’m not into men, I just go out with my best friend a lot. She keeps messaging me when I’m outside constantly asking where I am, what time am I coming home etc. Forced me to wear hijab for ‘modesty’ and crashes out if my bangs are showing. She literally tracks my periods to see when I do pray and don’t pray (in Islam if your on your period you do not need to pray). I cannot be my genuine authentic self EVER with her because that version of my self is something that will put me in danger if I expose myself to her. She tried pressuring me to get married at 18 to my cousin from back home. And many more things. Recently I told her that she is a fucking abuser and because of her behaviour I want to move out and she keeps saying the usual line ‘ I did everything for you, I raised you’. Last year I had horrible anxiety because of her and had to get medicated and go therapy, since then I’ve better managed it and I’m not as spineless towards her anymore. But it baffles me how my own mother, who CHOSE to have me, who chose to birth me, who couldn’t eat when I was in the womb, who STRUGGLED in pregnancy is treating me like absolute fucking dog shit. Why on earth would you birth me if you’re gonna treat me like this? I wish I was miscarried sometimes

Hello everyone I’ve been trying to search if there’s anyone who applied to fast stream as an internal with no degree just to see people’s experiences but can’t seem to find anything on Reddit. Thinking of applying when it opens again for 2027 intake. So was wondering if you have successfully got onto a fast stream programme as an internal how are you finding it, and do you feel that being already being a civil servant made it slightly easier for you to apply and understand the interview questions? Would appreciate it if you would share your experience with me :)

hi guys so I’m autistic and will be working as front of house in job centre. I’m shadowing my colleagues right now but I am incredibly hesitant and anxious and I feel like my colleagues get frustrated with me because I don’t know what to say, my brain freezes on the spot when I call up a customer for their appointment. I am very new though. My colleagues don’t know I’m autistic only my manager does. One colleague from my team is really patient with me and I appreciate him so much but the others not so much. I feel so pressured when I’m shadowing them and taking over their appointments. They just tell me to get over it and be confident but it’s not easy for me to do that. And I feel like they probably judge how socially awkward and anxious I am considering I’ve already gotten comments from a team member about how shy I am :/

hi everyone. so I started a new job I’m working in a jobcentre. so it’s very customer based and a lot of social interaction of course. I am really struggling however as I am a very quiet person and struggle to do small talk with my co workers and understand social cues. it’s much harder also because I’m new of course and everyone has been there much longer than me and I’m the youngest. I feel so out of place and everyday I’m thinking oh my gosh I’m so bloody autistic. I have one co worker from my team who is really sweet and welcoming to me, she’s the only one I really get along with and I don’t feel awkward around her and feel like I can be myself. but I’m really struggling to open up with the rest of my team. I’ve already gotten comments from one lady from my team, she’s said I’m way too shy and was telling me when she was new she was speaking a lot more and doing all sorts of things and I should be like that. that made me feel really bad about myself because I can’t force myself to socialise the way she does so effortlessly, it takes a lot of mental strength for me to mask like that. and not everyone’s personality is the same so I don’t get why she would say that to me… my coworkers don’t know I am neurodivergent (I also have adhd) only my manager knows, he is really understanding and nice. Once my team had an issue with a customer who’s autistic and were making fun of her when she left. I felt really weird about this, because obviously they were being ableist not knowing the literal newbie is also autistic… I honestly I just hate how I feel everytime I go there and I have so much anxiety to go most of the time. some days I feel alright and don’t really care other days I absolutely dread it. last week I tried to shadow a different person each day just to get to know everyone in my team and have a chance to speak to them more. but this week I am barely speaking to them unless it’s a hi… it’s like my social battery fluctuates and I feel so so incompetent socially. I already know they think I’m a quiet weirdo… every time I see my team laughing and talking with eachother I just wish I could socialise effortlessly like that

Anyone here did this and would you say it’s definitely worth it to spend an extra 300 on the pro? Currently have the 17 base got it last week it works perfectly fine apart from the fact that it heats up really hot when I’m gaming and editing… so thinking of switching to the pro due to the cooling system feature. I have a week left till the return period ends

I have the 17 base and it heats up really badly whenever I play games like Roblox. I just got it last week and I’m thinking of switching to the pro because of the cooling system thing (not too sure what it’s called). Anyone here with the pro can you share with me if it heats up when gaming?

Basically I was sitting down, it was in my hand and fell to the floor. The floor is carpet but quite hard. It didn’t fall really high since it was in my hand but the thud was quite loud? I’m freaking out since I only got it a week ago and I’ll be really sad if it could potentially be broken. I remember I dropped my iPhone 11 when I was cooking it was quite high and it developed some red line on my screen and I kept that phone for 9 months until I got the 17. Please anyone could tell me if my 17 will be fine and what are the signs that it won’t be fine from the drop? Thanks

My mum recently got the 17 pro max and I set it up for her transferred everything from her old iPhone etc. But the camera app literally keeps crashing? I press it and it won’t let me enter the app. I’ve tried resetting the iPhone on and off it still doesn’t work. Help!

Ermmm so how do you working ladies here cope with painful periods whilst working a 9-5?! This is my first ever job, and i thankfully started my period on a weekend - I say thankfully because the first 2 days are extremely painful for me so it’s good to just rest. But I’m wondering, if I did start on a weekday how on earth would I have survived a full day of work without asking my manager to just leave because it’s so unbearable, painful and heavy?! 😭

Edit; it is not my first ever period of course! I meant it’s my first period since starting work