I had to get a feel for it. There are some desperate sad lonely people that hop on here and prey on people in weak times on these threads. If it seems too good to be true it probably is. Pretending to be someone’s person is pretty weird really. I can see why you have to pretend, because you will never have it in your real life😂 my person is an asshole and I love the fuck outa her. You ain’t her ya weird ass
I feel like you’ve been standing right next to me for weeks now, yet too far away to reach out and wrap you in a hug, kiss you and tell you just how much I love you to your face. You’re the greatest thing to ever happen to me I wish I could go back in time and let myself know not to let outside influence effect anything between us. I just want my baby again. Sleep is sleepless without your head on my chest snuggled in close. The summer time creek trips aren’t the same without you with me, nothing is. I feel you in my soul but I may sound greedy but I want you, all of you, forever.
Love,
J ❤️
I can’t keep pretending to be fine. The pain, sorrow, and guilt among many other issues I have stored inside this cage im locked in have become too heavy to carry. They say giving up is being weak, in a way it is but I do not feel weak with the decision I’ve decided to make. This is the lightest I’ve felt in years. There’s a massive difference in being weak than there is being tired and I’m so tired. I don’t have many people in my corner but the ones I consider apart of my life I truly am sorry for the pain I leave you with. When do I get to start doing things for myself instead of putting a fake smile on for everyone, everyday, every minute, every second. I want that smile to be genuine and for once in a very long time, I’ve prioritized myself above everyone and decided to do what makes me feel better. I hope the big man upstairs understands and can forgive.
Love, J
My papaw has been gone a year the 19th next month. I’m still finding little F U’s hidden around their place. We both had an interest for collecting coins. He also liked hiding everything 😂 For context said grandparents are actually my great aunt and uncle but they raised me pretty much. Well I was given his coin and paper currency collection. I know there are a few silver and gold coins he’s hid somewhere on his property, they’re not with the rest of the collection and I know this man would never get rid of anything, he kept everything my. Grew up very poor in the hills of Virginia, the oldest of 6 children. It’s an understatement when I say he was a pack rat😂 the place was never messy but all spaces in the house were full. My granny said he said something about hiding some coins not long before his passing. Been hunting everywhere on his property while I’ve been helping my granny declutter and clean/fix up the place for almost a year now. Thought I finally struck gold tonight…😭
Had an issue with water getting in the house. Well to find it I had to pop a couple pieces of paneling off in his room. Didn’t see it at first; Pretty sure I had a mini stroke when I saw the eagle resting on some framing, also pretty confident he pissed his pants laughing at me up there.😂 Going to make a little necklace out of it. In the process of polishing it, thought someone might get a kick out of this. I’d like to also add I wouldn’t attempt to clean or polish a real coin, get that out in the open before I get crucified. 🤣
Papaw-592 🏆
Me-1 🏅