u/BothDrag3456

I’m 23F and I recently graduated. I had to move to a different city for work. I thought I was strong enough for this, but days before moving out, I could already feel my body weakening from trying so hard not to break down and cry.

Then the day finally came... and I literally burst into tears while hugging my mom goodbye. A considerable number of neighbors saw me, but honestly, I didn’t care. I was just so emotional. 😭

I’ve moved away before for college, but this feels different. This place is much farther, and going home won’t be as easy anymore.

While I was crying in my mother’s arms, all I could think about were the nights I’d have to face alone. I don’t know anyone here. I have to look for jobs on my own, and as a shy introvert, I don’t know if I can handle all the nerves that come with it. But I also know I have no choice but to do it anyway. 😭

I kept thinking about my little sister too, and it hurts knowing I won’t get to watch her grow up the way I always have. She’s my life. I even brought her favorite toy with me, with her permission, of course. 🥹

I’ll miss our house, the one I grew up in my entire life. Moving out suddenly feels like undeniable proof that I’m really on my own now... that childhood is over. 😭

I’ll miss our neighborhood. Our dogs. The home-cooked meals. The warmth of our home. My mom’s voice echoing throughout the house. Everything.

And now I’m bawling my eyes out again.

The entire trip here, all I did was cry. I was even struggling to hide it from the other passengers. 😭 It honestly felt like everything I’ve ever known, the world I grew up in, the life that always felt familiar was crumbling right in front of me, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. 🥹

And please, don’t let aesthetic Instagram and TikTok reels fool you. Moving away isn’t always pretty. It isn’t always coffee shop mornings, cute apartment setups, and romanticized independence. Sometimes it’s lonely as hell.

Maybe it depends on the person, but for me, even as someone who grew up being independent and having to do many things on my own, this still made me feel so weak.

And what hurts the most is thinking about the nights ahead... nights without my little sister beside me, complaining about how tightly I hug her while I refuse to let go. 😭

Does this get better?

Sorry if this is all over the place.

Planning to apply at HENNAN Group of Resorts in Boracay. Anyone working there? How's the workplace environment? I've read negative things about it on Indeed but mostly are employee reviews from 2024-2025. How about now? You can definitely just talk about your own experience.

You guys... I'm legit SO confused.

My mom has always been there financially whenever my siblings and I needed it, especially during my college years (I just graduated). We went into huge debt with multiple people just so I could finish my studies. We're not a rich family, and because of my college expenses, we're currently drowning in debt. That's been causing constant stress for the whole family. She's ALWAYS willing to find ways for me to achieve my goals. Both her and my dad are. And I truly, truly appreciate their sacrifices.

However, she's also so volatile. It's like she's going to explode at any moment. When she's mad, she says the meanest things about me, and she can't stand being wrong. When I talk back because I do have a valid reason for making a mistake, she keeps shutting me down, insisting that I'm wrong, that it's all my fault, and that I'm dumb for making such a mistake. But when she makes mistakes, even really dumb ones, she just laughs them off and insists that she's the mother, so why should we be bothered by it, as if we don't have a right to be. Whenever I try to reason with her, she gets aggressive and says that I probably look down on her just because she didn't go to college and that I'm being disrespectful.

Like I said, she has always been willing to provide for me financially, no matter what. Even if it meant borrowing money from people with high interest rates. But I never really felt close to her emotionally. I'm the middle child out of three and the first daughter. She's closer to my eldest sibling, my brother, and she's very endearing toward my little sister, the youngest. I think she's the most distant with me.

Since I'm the most academically accomplished one, I do know I give her a sense of pride. But I never felt like she was truly there for me emotionally. She doesn't show up at school activities when I was younger. I always had to take care of myself on my own (my father is a seafarer), and her reason was always that she was either too lazy or too busy doing household chores. I think that's why I became so hyper-independent and developed a fear of intimacy.

She's also always dumping her rants on me about how huge our debts are, and I honestly don't know how to react because I know it's because of me. I often get so emotionally drained. Sometimes she does the same thing to my little sister, but I call her out because I don't want my sister carrying stress about adult problems at her age. She also complains about me buying makeup when they're cheap ones anyways. It's not like you can blame me as I'm a young adult. I also need it to look presentable during job interviews.

I'm already 23, a fresh graduate, still trying to find a job, and I can't even date (and haven't dated) because I think I'm probably traumatized by my mom's emotional unpredictability. My dad is also very nonchalant, even though he provides for us. I feel like I never really had anyone to lean on because my older brother and I aren't close either.

I feel like I have no one.

Now I'm just so confused. I don't know what to feel about her. Whenever I get sick, she's always alert and takes me to see a doctor. But sometimes it feels like she hates me because of how often she blames me even for the smallest things. Yet when it comes to my brother, even when he talks back to her or says hurtful things, she just laughs it off like it's a joke.

I'm so confused to the point that I often cry because I'm so tired... I don't know what to feel about her anymore.

You guys... I'm legit SO confused.

My mom has always been there financially whenever my siblings and I needed it, especially during my college years (I just graduated). We went into huge debt with multiple people just so I could finish my studies. We're not a rich family, and because of my college expenses, we're currently drowning in debt. That's been causing constant stress for the whole family. She's ALWAYS willing to find ways for me to achieve my goals. Both her and my dad are. And I truly, truly appreciate their sacrifices.

However, she's also so volatile. It's like she's going to explode at any moment. When she's mad, she says the meanest things about me, and she can't stand being wrong. When I talk back because I do have a valid reason for making a mistake, she keeps shutting me down, insisting that I'm wrong, that it's all my fault, and that I'm dumb for making such a mistake. But when she makes mistakes, even really dumb ones, she just laughs them off and insists that she's the mother, so why should we be bothered by it, as if we don't have a right to be. Whenever I try to reason with her, she gets aggressive and says that I probably look down on her just because she didn't go to college and that I'm being disrespectful.

Like I said, she has always been willing to provide for me financially, no matter what. Even if it meant borrowing money from people with high interest rates. But I never really felt close to her emotionally. I'm the middle child out of three and the first daughter. She's closer to my eldest sibling, my brother, and she's very endearing toward my little sister, the youngest. I think she's the most distant with me.

Since I'm the most academically accomplished one, I do know I give her a sense of pride. But I never felt like she was truly there for me emotionally. She doesn't show up at school activities when I was younger. I always had to take care of myself on my own (my father is a seafarer), and her reason was always that she was either too lazy or too busy doing household chores. I think that's why I became so hyper-independent and developed a fear of intimacy.

She's also always dumping her rants on me about how huge our debts are, and I honestly don't know how to react because I know it's because of me. I often get so emotionally drained. Sometimes she does the same thing to my little sister, but I call her out because I don't want my sister carrying stress about adult problems at her age. She also complains about me buying makeup when they're cheap ones anyways. It's not like you can blame me as I'm a young adult. I also need it to look presentable during job interviews.

I'm already 23, a fresh graduate, still trying to find a job, and I can't even date (and haven't dated) because I think I'm probably traumatized by my mom's emotional unpredictability. My dad is also very nonchalant, even though he provides for us. I feel like I never really had anyone to lean on because my older brother and I aren't close either.

I feel like I have no one.

Now I'm just so confused. I don't know what to feel about her. Whenever I get sick, she's always alert and takes me to see a doctor. But sometimes it feels like she hates me because of how often she blames me even for the smallest things. Yet when it comes to my brother, even when he talks back to her or says hurtful things, she just laughs it off like it's a joke.

I'm so confused to the point that I often cry because I'm so tired... I don't know what to feel about her anymore.

You guys... I'm legit SO confused.

My mom has always been there financially whenever my siblings and I needed it, especially during my college years (I just graduated). We went into huge debt with multiple people just so I could finish my studies. We're not a rich family, and because of my college expenses, we're currently drowning in debt. That's been causing constant stress for the whole family. She's ALWAYS willing to find ways for me to achieve my goals. Both her and my dad are. And I truly, truly appreciate their sacrifices.

However, she's also so volatile. It's like she's going to explode at any moment. When she's mad, she says the meanest things about me, and she can't stand being wrong. When I talk back because I do have a valid reason for making a mistake, she keeps shutting me down, insisting that I'm wrong, that it's all my fault, and that I'm dumb for making such a mistake. But when she makes mistakes, even really dumb ones, she just laughs them off and insists that she's the mother, so why should we be bothered by it, as if we don't have a right to be. Whenever I try to reason with her, she gets aggressive and says that I probably look down on her just because she didn't go to college and that I'm being disrespectful.

Like I said, she has always been willing to provide for me financially, no matter what. Even if it meant borrowing money from people with high interest rates. But I never really felt close to her emotionally. I'm the middle child out of three and the first daughter. She's closer to my eldest sibling, my brother, and she's very endearing toward my little sister, the youngest. I think she's the most distant with me.

Since I'm the most academically accomplished one, I do know I give her a sense of pride. But I never felt like she was truly there for me emotionally. She doesn't show up at school activities when I was younger. I always had to take care of myself on my own (my father is a seafarer), and her reason was always that she was either too lazy or too busy doing household chores. I think that's why I became so hyper-independent and developed a fear of intimacy.

She's also always dumping her rants on me about how huge our debts are, and I honestly don't know how to react because I know it's because of me. I often get so emotionally drained. Sometimes she does the same thing to my little sister, but I call her out because I don't want my sister carrying stress about adult problems at her age. She also complains about me buying makeup when they're cheap ones anyways. It's not like you can blame me as I'm a young adult. I also need it to look presentable during job interviews.

I'm already 23, a fresh graduate, still trying to find a job, and I can't even date (and haven't dated) because I think I'm probably traumatized by my mom's emotional unpredictability. My dad is also very nonchalant, even though he provides for us. I feel like I never really had anyone to lean on because my older brother and I aren't close either.

I feel like I have no one.

Now I'm just so confused. I don't know what to feel about her. Whenever I get sick, she's always alert and takes me to see a doctor. But sometimes it feels like she hates me because of how often she blames me even for the smallest things. Yet when it comes to my brother, even when he talks back to her or says hurtful things, she just laughs it off like it's a joke.

I'm so confused to the point that I often cry because I'm so tired... I don't know what to feel about her anymore.

You guys... I'm legit SO confused.

My mom has always been there financially whenever my siblings and I needed it, especially during my college years (I just graduated). We went into huge debt with multiple people just so I could finish my studies. We're not a rich family, and because of my college expenses, we're currently drowning in debt. That's been causing constant stress for the whole family. She's ALWAYS willing to find ways for me to achieve my goals. Both her and my dad are. And I truly, truly appreciate their sacrifices.

However, she's also so volatile. It's like she's going to explode at any moment. When she's mad, she says the meanest things about me, and she can't stand being wrong. When I talk back because I do have a valid reason for making a mistake, she keeps shutting me down, insisting that I'm wrong, that it's all my fault, and that I'm dumb for making such a mistake. But when she makes mistakes, even really dumb ones, she just laughs them off and insists that she's the mother, so why should we be bothered by it, as if we don't have a right to be. Whenever I try to reason with her, she gets aggressive and says that I probably look down on her just because she didn't go to college and that I'm being disrespectful.

Like I said, she has always been willing to provide for me financially, no matter what. Even if it meant borrowing money from people with high interest rates. But I never really felt close to her emotionally. I'm the middle child out of three and the first daughter. She's closer to my eldest sibling, my brother, and she's very endearing toward my little sister, the youngest. I think she's the most distant with me.

Since I'm the most academically accomplished one, I do know I give her a sense of pride. But I never felt like she was truly there for me emotionally. She doesn't show up at school activities when I was younger. I always had to take care of myself on my own (my father is a seafarer), and her reason was always that she was either too lazy or too busy doing household chores. I think that's why I became so hyper-independent and developed a fear of intimacy.

She's also always dumping her rants on me about how huge our debts are, and I honestly don't know how to react because I know it's because of me. I often get so emotionally drained. Sometimes she does the same thing to my little sister, but I call her out because I don't want my sister carrying stress about adult problems at her age. She also complains about me buying makeup when they're cheap ones anyways. It's not like you can blame me as I'm a young adult. I also need it to look presentable during job interviews.

I'm already 23, a fresh graduate, still trying to find a job, and I can't even date (and haven't dated) because I think I'm probably traumatized by my mom's emotional unpredictability. My dad is also very nonchalant, even though he provides for us. I feel like I never really had anyone to lean on because my older brother and I aren't close either.

I feel like I have no one.

Now I'm just so confused. I don't know what to feel about her. Whenever I get sick, she's always alert and takes me to see a doctor. But sometimes it feels like she hates me because of how often she blames me even for the smallest things. Yet when it comes to my brother, even when he talks back to her or says hurtful things, she just laughs it off like it's a joke.

I'm so confused to the point that I often cry because I'm so tired... I don't know what to feel about her anymore.

You guys, I kinda find myself getting too bored with Chinese romance dramas nowadays because I noticed the plots just keep getting too repetitive and downright predictable. And I keep seeing the same faces to the extent that I'm starting to see that it's all just truly acting🤣😭 (like I can see the celebrity version of themselves and not the character anymore). The characters may be too beautiful but I just couldn't find any substance and depth in current dramas anymore prolly because of how predictable and familiar the narratives are. I'm sorry if I sound rude or hateful I'm really just expressing my thoughts and how I feel about current dramas.

I need recommendations for Cdramas with no romance for the lead/s (male or female centric). Like interesting plot of revenge, mystery, adventure, fantasy even! With romance scenes are accepted as long as they're for the supporting characters. I need independent leads for now for a change.😅 Example: No Mercy (a Korean movie starring Lee Si-young)

Rant: I thought Legend of Zang Hai will be 'the one' but I was disappointed that there was romance. The revenge plot alone would've been sold to me so easily. 🥹

Thank you! I'll do my research as well but I wonder if you guys know some interesting ones too.

PLEASE I need recommendations of Chinese historical romance dramas where the male lead and female lead EQUALLY love and respect each other and would equally DIE for each other. I'm tired of seeing mls (especially the good ones) grovel and being repeatedly pushed away by their nonchalant, in denial fls who expect the male lead to do all the work (as an empath, I always feel bad fr!) 😭 I love females who are not in denial of their feelings and are givers in the relationship as well!

I prefer more serious dramas unless the idol drama is good! (wuxia or xianxia are fine!)

I've watched and rated these dramas based on how much I loved how 'ride or die' the leads are (MIGHT CONTAIN SPOILERS):

1. Kill Me Love Me (9/10) — There are times the fl would push the ml away, say the wrong things at the right time, and think of the worst of his intentions but she doesn't fail to show up whenever he's in trouble. I loved it all in all. She's done so much for the ml and vice versa. Also, very very hot kissing scenes😆❤️

2. The Prisoner of Beauty (10/10) — Y'all this drama honestly set my standards in C-dramas so high.😭 They both respect and have very high regards to each other's strengths and intellect!!! The fl understands the pressure the ml is going through being the Head of the State and is always there to be his safe haven. She's so smart, eloquent and an excellent strategist yet can still be soft with her husband aka be a soft wifey when she has to be❤️ But she's surely someone you shouldn't underestimate! I love the communication after every misunderstanding!!🥹 Healthy relationship wins!!!

3. Love You Seven Times (10/10) —  Underrated gem. Ml keeps risking his life to get his girl's ancient powers back and she's ALWAYS ready to find him no matter how dangerous his whereabouts are. Fl doesn't know the ml's intention (why he's risking his life going to dangerous places). They have 7 lifetimes to spend together to test how deep their bond can be. Each lifetime is so interesting and a different relationship dynamic! Many cute kissing scenes and cute moments despite them being in dangerous situations!🤣🤗 Both willing to sacrifice for each other. It's like they can read each other's minds!!! I love the ending so much that I teared up cutely 😭(how the fl searched for him in the mortal world for years and finally found him)! Also I love the OST in this one. 'Only Love' by Faye Zhang.

4. The Double (9.5/10) — I love love!!! I guess the minus .5 is for the 'not enough' yearning on both sides but I love how flirty they are as a couple!!! 🤗 And I love how they are each other's ride or die!!! Ml respects the fl's resilience and bravery so much.❤️ He definitely finds her cunningness sexy.🤣

5. Legend of the Female General (10/10) — Same explanation as The Prisoner of Beauty except the fl here is more of a martial arts badass😩❤️ Yet she can still be a softie as well!!! I love Cheng Lei!!!

6. Veil of Shadows (10/10) — I love how honest and straightforward the sisters are!❤️ Both couples sacrificed a lot for their significant other! 😩 Mls and fls are all badasses!!! ❤️ Actually the fls here are scarier than the mls. And I love.🤣

Do you guys have any drama recommendations similar to these ones? 🤗 No unnecessary love triangle (or if there is, the ml/fl is clear with the boundaries), no unnecessary drama, ml and fl are clear with their feelings and are not hesitant to show it. Both ml and fl are givers. Basically like what I said, both leads love and respect each other equally and both are ready to die for each other anytime.😩 Any historical genre is welcome!!! Thank you so much!!!

My eyesight according to the doctor I have myopia.

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