How to deal with my wrath?
2-3 months ago I found out my fiancé was cheating on me so we were exes, then i (foolishly) tried to reconcile as per his request, and now we're not talking again bc i just cant bring myself to trust him ever again. But the wrath is never ending!
I still reach out to him to insult him and unleash all my anger onto him and tell him the most vile things I never would say to another person's face, but it doesnt make me feel better. (Surpise surprise ik)
But it's nearly impossible for me to let go of this anger. I was in therapy to help me process my anger, but im in another country for a few months in a different timezone so I cant even have a zoom meeting with my therapist (12 hour time difference) and the country im in doesnt exactly recognize mental health like that.
How does anybody else cope with their anger? I dont want to reach out to him anymore just to scream at him, it's not productive but i cant shake the urge sometimes.