u/Brilliant_Kick1816

How to deal with my wrath?

2-3 months ago I found out my fiancé was cheating on me so we were exes, then i (foolishly) tried to reconcile as per his request, and now we're not talking again bc i just cant bring myself to trust him ever again. But the wrath is never ending!

I still reach out to him to insult him and unleash all my anger onto him and tell him the most vile things I never would say to another person's face, but it doesnt make me feel better. (Surpise surprise ik)

But it's nearly impossible for me to let go of this anger. I was in therapy to help me process my anger, but im in another country for a few months in a different timezone so I cant even have a zoom meeting with my therapist (12 hour time difference) and the country im in doesnt exactly recognize mental health like that.

How does anybody else cope with their anger? I dont want to reach out to him anymore just to scream at him, it's not productive but i cant shake the urge sometimes.

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u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 17 hours ago

Begged and begged me for reconciliation, and couldnt hack it in the end

New to this subreddit but D-Day happened 2 months ago for me. I wanted to leave the first time I caught him cheating online (and lying to my face when I caught him) but he begged and begged for us to try again and that he'll change.

To his credit, he was going to therapy, he was being more forthcoming, he even handled my wrath whenever it occurred. But he still got defensive whenever I wanted to look through his phone. He would still let me, but he wouldmt do it without complaining or making me feel silly or insane (I literally caught him cheating by looking through his phone.....idk who he thinks he is to think he deserves privacy if he wanted to stay with me.....)

Anyways, normally when i go through my bouts of rage, he is usually very calm and he talks about it with me and gives me reassurance and insists he would rather die than to put me through thay type of pain again (i mean why do it at all???), but this time was different. He just kinda flopped over on his back and gave up. Idk if i finally broke him down enough to where he gave up, or if I caught him in a lie and he felt too guilty to even cover it up. So as of today, we are no longer in contact.

Idk where im going with this, I just wanted to type and post my thoughts to people who know what im going through. I guess i feel relieved to end things, but at the same time, I would just feel a whole lot "better" if he was just honest in the first place and honest now about his wandering eye and need for validation from other girls instead of pretending he's my white knight who can change and would rather kill himself than talk to another OF model.

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u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 4 days ago

Please help how do i open this

Im trying to twist the clear cap off but there are blue ridges and white ridges preventing it from twisting off??? I cant pop it off either!

u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 12 days ago

I have international calling and texting, but no roaming data so I wanted to look into eSim plans on top of my regular Sim.

Klook looks like it has a pretty good unlimited data eSim, but the instructions for activation is written as if it should be done pre-trip. Is it like a Google Fi thing where you have to activate it in the US before you land?

If not, could i please get some recommendations? Thanks!

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u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 15 days ago

LOOK AT MY NEW BABYYYY

I've been wanting one for sooo long but i couldnt handle the online prices and all those accessories I didnt want! I found her in a random build a bear I was just browsing leisurely!! I even got to use my gift card finally, I had been holding onto that one for a whileee

u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 18 days ago

Went to a doll show this weekend and saw this beautiful girl for 20$. I decided to see all the tables before I made a purchase and she was already gone by the time I came back around i think 😭 it's fine cuz i bought a really gorgeous vintage madame alexander, but it still hurts!

u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 18 days ago

Found this baby hat at Once upon a child, thought it was perfect for my candy corn guy since i thought his forehead was too big :,)

u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 22 days ago

Ive been seeing a lot of posts just straight up saying where they shop at and what theyre buying when the community guidelines specifically say not to do that...if it's not a big deal to you, good for you. But i personally dont want to see brands mentioned since it triggers FOMO and i feel the urge to browse and look.

Community Guidelines

I. This is a recovery related subreddit. Please refrain from discussions of products, deals, sales, hauls, or any form of encouraging shopping behavior. This is not the place for that.

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u/Brilliant_Kick1816 — 25 days ago