u/Bubbly_Mechanic1630

I've been noticing this a lot recently after starting college and talking to more people. I'm fluent in English as I was born here in the U.S. but somehow it feels like I sound like English is not my first language because of how I speak.

For example, I was talking to my friend, we're not that close so maybe I'm more thoughtful and careful with my words. But we were talking about the book we're reading for class and about where we should buy it. She then texted me that she had the book the whole time, and while I was thinking of how to respond, I couldn't think of the wording I wanted to say so I just replied "lol at least you have it right now." I then realized a while after that I meant "already" and not "right now" but it took me like a minute to think of how to say something like "nice that you had the book already so you don't have to go out and buy it."

These kinds of situations happen to me a lot where I can't think of the right wording to say so my words just get all jumbled and it sounds confusing out loud when I try to find the right wording talking in person. I know a lot of vocabulary, but it just seems like I forget all of it when I speak. Why is that? How do I even fix this?

There are TWO spiders in the ceiling light of my room and they seem like they can't get out. I'm deathly afraid of spiders and even though they seem like they can't get out, I'm still scared that they may fall out onto me while sleeping. While I was looking at them, I felt something, and I looked down to see one more on the ground right by my feet and killed it.

I've left the light on for about 20 mins now, but I am still scared and it's 11pm. Will the lights be enough?? I would use a vacuum but I would need to turn off the lights for that right? Please help 😭😭 I don't want to sleep on my tiny couch

Not sure if my question relates to this sub but my mom is Chinese and when I was sick as a kid, she would put a big coin into a boiled egg and rub it really hard all over my body. After doing that, the coin would be all dark as if it absorbed my sickness or something. What is this called and how does it work?

I'm not much of a crier, I probably used to cry once a year. But recently I been crying almost every week and every small thing triggers me. I feel so many emotions, anger, sadness, hopelessness, it's so overwhelming.

Mostly, I'm not mad at the situations I'm in, I'm more mad and disappointed in how immature I am. I'm 19 years old, an adult, and I can't control my emotions or actions well. Earlier, my mom got mad at me for speaking so negatively but I thought I was just being rational and logical about things and was just trying to make sure our trip next month goes well. We were talking outside the backyard so I got up and walked away and threw my shoes once I got inside. I tried to calm myself down and collect the bathroom trash. I think I got really angry thinking about how my brother never takes out the trash and never helps around the house, I splashed water everywhere while washing my hands.

I then started crying to the point where I was hyperventilating and I couldn't breathe for like a minute. I hate myself, I feel so depressed and I don't know why I'm acting like this. I feel so immature and like a brat.

I do have people to talk to but I feel like my mom ruined my ability to speak confidently because she makes everything I say seem like I'm a bad person. I can't speak without thinking how the other person reacts and I'm so scared of people yelling or calling me out.

Why the hell is it so loud?? I nearly had a heart attack walking near the Well. I also heard it again clearly while I was walking near the library, that's how loud it is

Last September, my mom and I got tickets to go to Japan in late May which is literally next month. Last week, she suddenly invited my brother to go with us. I'm not really close to my brother, in fact, I kind of hate him. He's always so loud playing games at night so I sleep in the garage, and he has no sympathy for me cause everytime I ask him to be quiet, he never listens.

I asked my mom why did she invite his so late, and she got mad at me for asking and telling her that she should have asked him sooner. I checked the tickets and the lowest price is $2,300 when my mom and I got it for less than 1,500.

I'm just so mad because literally this morning, she yelled at him for having negatives in his bank account which she has access to. He's been working at the same part time job for like 4-5 years and hasn't saved a penny. I just don't get why after seeing his bank account and yelling at him, she still wants to invite him last minute when ticket prices are so high 😐.

Also when we bought the tickets, it also let us pick a hotel to stay at and we chose a room with two twin beds. When I asked about where my brother will stay, she said she'll ask if they can bring in another bed into the room, like hello? Based on the pictures online, no, there's no space for that and you can't just ask them to bring a whole bed inside.

My mom said she'll buy the tickets tomorrow but I REALLY don't want him to go and I can't convince her to not buy the tickets because she'll just yell at me again. I don't know what else to do, I just keep thinking about him going, imagining how it will ruin my whole trip. I hate him so much, I hate everything about him, I don't want to be near him.

I just applied to ARC to take ENGL20 there (ENGWR301 at ARC) and when I tried enrolling into that class, it said I needed to have completed ENGLC1000 or something but I'm pretty sure I completed it here at Sac state if I could take ENGL20 here. How am I supposed to take it at ARC if they don't have any of my Sac state info?? Do I need to send like a transcript to an advisor there? I'm so confused