My younger brother beat me to a bloody pulp and idk if or how I should move forward.
today my brother hit me. i am 21 years old female and he is 19. we were having an argument and i insulted him first by saying fuck you and he got angry and asked why i had to insult him. i wont get into the details of the argument but for me i got mad coz he started by raising his voice at me and i went off on him warning him that if he raises his voice at me he shouldnt expect me to listen. anyway yeah i told him fuck you once during the argument and he got angry asked me why i said that and i told him i just did and that he shouldnt expect an apology from me cos i wont give one while in that state so he might as well just insults me too and we call it even .
Instead he proceeded to say that he will hit me and i got ticked off and i told him if he feels like such a man he should hit me then and he kept saying he will and i kinda got in his face ( emphasis on kinda since he was lying down playing a game on his phone and I was standing) and told him to do it then and walked away from him .
Unfortunately ,he did. he came at me and he punched me repeatedly on my forehead ,on my nose ,on my mouth and in my stomach . he mainly hit my head area. he put me in a headlock and punched me repeatedly while making eye contact hitting my head my nose and my lips till i started bleading profusely and screaming . he was not just angry he wanted to hit me and i know it coz after he put me in the headlock and held eye contact with me his punches became slower and as he hit me there were small pauses like he was observing me like there was an outcome he wanted. he hit me til his hands were bloodly and so was my face. i was screaming as he did and my little brother who is three saw all this began crying and running towards me calling my name alarmed. I was bleeding profusely both from out my nose and mouth . then when he finished he sat down on the chair with is phone like nothing happened and I left immediately and went to the bedroom.
my lip is busted and now as big as my whole thumb, my nose is swollen if not broken, my head has a bump, my front teeth hurt, I bit my tongue so it hurts too , my jaw feels tight and I was overall in pretty bad shape. while hysterical i called my dad and i tried to tell him what was going on but i could barely speak well and he couldnt understand me so he hung up and i think he called my mum afterwards and she called me and i calmed down abit and i told her that i cant stay here with him anymore and she told me not to leave the house and to wait for my aunt to come.
Anyway long story short, i am sure he has no remorse , none at all. I could see it in the way he looked at me after and how he had the audacity to hold eye contact with me afterwards and kind of glare at me . and i know he will justify it by saying i insulted him and he did not insult me. and i feel like my parents will partially blame me for getting confrontational with him when none of this would have probably happenned if i just let it go and kept quiet.
Plz excuse the bad grammar and lack of structure,I'm mostly rambling coz this just happened but I really need to know what y'all think.