M22 my situation ship, just traumatised me from ever having any real feelings for anyone
Context- i was in a situationship with this girl(a) for a year .lets just say she never had any intention of dating me.she liked the attention,she liked that i was caring.
Fast forward before new year we called it quits for the first time
2 months later we talked again for a while and this time i ended it .
Now
For the last two weeks ive been getting drunk calls and its been conflicting and hard
The last time she called she was extremely drunk and wanted me to come meet her .i refused and called her friends to take care of her .
The group she was with has a girl(b) who kinda has a crush on me and is also friends with one of my mates
She (b)told him that when i cut the call on my situationship ,she(a) told her (b) that she knows about her having a crush on me and to go for it and the reason she (a)gave her is because i was easy to play . That whenever she(a) wants to feel better ,wants attention,wants to feel validated she texts me and calls me .
After hearing all of this i feel like shit and idk what to do .
Any advice about how i should process or get over it
Side note- there is a lot more context and lot more complicated feelings but hearing her say all that just makes question everything about my self