u/Charming-Rate278

Long story short, I spend my last decade with health problems and in misery. Shit job, no degree, no experience with women, no friends. I am human waste. I will never be happy or amount to anything or experience being desired by a woman.

Could there be a reason I should live? I really don't want to and my suicide date is coming up, I am scared, but I am beyond saving and I know it. My heath will not get better and I am stuck is scrawny sickly body since I can barely eat. No love, no success of any kind, no friends, no health, is there a reason I should live? My youth is gone and I will never get to feel young and healthy.

Why should I live, when the best years of my life are wasted and nothing good awaits me.

I am sorry for ranting, just needed to let it out.

At this point I am not even angry anymore. Maybe it is the antidepressants,but i think I'm accepted that I will be gone soon. I am a burden on my family, never had any experience with women and I have no friends. I am a net negative, everyone would be better without me. I am sad I will never experience love, but it was never meant to be. I'm starting to prepare for the day, writing instructions for what things can be sold and where, various accounts that can be useful to family and access to whatever I have in my bank. Sorry for the rant, wish you a good day.

So i was sexting today, and they send pictures claiming to be a lesbian and wanting me to tribute her girlfriend. Well I did. I send a screenshot of my man tears on my phone. It seemed legit, check post history and all. Am in any trouble? I haven't given location, contacts, or image of myself. And I dint go to other platform. I was horny and I thought it wont be my face or anything , but now I feel uncomfortable. They deleated the account right after.

I think the title is descriptive enough. I would like proper heresy sized sang guard kits. It would be cool if they came in a couple different marks of armor,but that is a bit greedy.

Around 3 years ago I started getting depressed due to wasting my youth without any romantic/sexual experiences amount other things, but it was tolerable. Now it is really getting to me. I am on antidepressants currently, but it still hurts. If you have dealt with this and have tips for to cope with this.