u/Charming_Ad9536

I always wanted that Disney fantasy until it slowly died as I gotten older. The amount of times I realize that guys don’t like me. I don’t know if I don’t fit the society standards of beauty and guys have openly express is ridiculous. Yeah, I might consider cute to some guys but the guy could be average in looks and he act like being seen in public with me is horrible. There were times that I would be minding my business and guys have made it into humiliating ritual to reject me in public and out loud in the room.
I was young and never dated anybody at that age. Guys already had presumed idea about me without talking to me. When I decided to date someone, it was like guys were signing up to take my v-card before the thought of first date. I wasn’t advertising it or throwing in their face. I only mention it once or they heard from someone else and their mind were set on the idea.
Unfortunately, I came across my ex who was a close friend for a year before I gave him a chance. Many men (including married men) stated my ex was a good guy and I should give him a chance. My ex had lovebombed me for two months in relationship which it led to me sleeping with him. Afterwards, he didn’t care about me and he treated me like a problem.
I already have insecurity and doubt about being in relationship due to my previous experience with men in general. My ex just put a nail the coffin on the idea of dating. I attempted to date or hang out guys after my ex and it always this weird humiliation ritual they love to pull on me. I had guys reach out to me and convince me that they wanted to date or hang out with me just for me waiting hours to look stupid.

I had never dealt with a toxic environment where I felt I was walking on eggshells with my coworkers and manager. I mostly keep my nose down and complete my work. I felt my work environment was a high school clique of mean girls. If one girl didn’t like you then rest of them doesn’t in their group. They would go out on restaurant lunch dates (which everybody gets an hour lunch and they would be gone for 2 hours).
My manager started writing me up for crazy stuff to get me fired. A person in the office lost someone’s personal information and the person who lost their documents described to being a Hispanic male. I’m not Hispanic male but I got written up for the loss documents. My manager only gives me a probation time for two weeks then she told me I was improving then fired me the next week.
They knew I was working at the place to pay for college with their benefits. I knew she was going to fired me so I filled out my tuition assistance and they paid my classes a month after firing me. The funny thing is… they didn’t know how to revoke the tuition assistance benefits like they thought.
Good thing… I always kept my weekend job and my manager switched me back to full time employee after I got fired. I still went to classes with my old job tuition assistance and work my old job for the meantime. I started applying for internships in February or March and I received an email from a global company two weeks ago. They were impressed by my resume that they were willing to relocate me to another state and pay for housing. This story is remind people to not give up hope! Losing a job isn’t the end!

I know haven’t gotten offer yet. I have a set interview tomorrow and I’m worried I might reject the offer. I was comfortable with idea of paying for housing expenses on the first interview. The recruiter never gives me a solid idea where they were going to relocate me. I originally applied for local near my area where I could depend on my family members to live there.

The recruiter loved my resume that they wanted to relocate me. One of the state he had in mind is easy for me find a suitable apartment, ride public transportation, and big city area. Now, my second interview is coming up and the job description is sending me to small town where renting for two months will be expensive compared to other location. What should I do?