u/ChipkaliFekDungi

If someone comments on your flaws/appearance, please fight back and stand up for yourself and don't take their shit cause that person is even more uglier than you(99% of the time). We all have our insecurities even if they're ten times worse or better than others, we fuss over them more than we need to. I'm not giving you the 'love and accept yourself' bullshit when you can't get yourself to do that, sure take steps in improving yourself, no one's stopping you. But don't you dare think love is measured in the size of your waist or the amount of dark spots on your face or how big your forehead is or how sharp your jawline is. Pretty privilege does exist, but upto a limit right? You find people who love you despite who you are inside out. I won't notice your double chin or your pimple or your dark circles but I sure as hell will notice the kind of person you are. There will be people who'll think appearance is everything and spend their entire life perfecting themselves till they realise that they've spent their youth on something which would never matter at some point. I swear I'm trying to make a point here but idk what I'm doing but go wear that dress, take that selfie and post it cause chehre pe fida hue toh kya fida hue, dil toh dil hi dhundega 👺👺👺. Don't listen to judgemental aunties and relatives and you do you. And if you want to feel pretty, take a stupid selfie, write down your stupid flaws and work on them, but do it for yourself only!

It's like in a room full of people, you wouldn't be their first option but hell, you wouldn't even be anyone's second option, you'll just be some sort of annoying background noise. I've never really managed to make friends in my life though I made 2-3 real friends in recent years but we kind of drifted away after 11th and now all of them moved away. So I felt like I wanted to watch the Spiderman movie and realised I had no one to go with, I initiated this with a few people I know but some of them already booked the ticket and had plans while some of them just go like 'I'll ask and see,' and I'm fucking tired of it all. At this points I'll just isolate myself from everyone and everything cause being a social creature isn't for the weak (me). Not only on that, I've also lost in studies, my grades have significantly decreased with back to back affecting JEE, Boards, and mhtcet and right now, I'm just planning to live in survival mode for the next 4 years, study like crazy, with crazy internships and projects and then move somewhere abroad for master's, get a job and settle there, however unrealistic this plan sounds, I'm ready to work my ass off to leave this place and disappear and start a new life even if it means I don't make much connections in a new place. I just want to survive this yk? It's not I wanna kms but if a truck were to run over me, I'd happily stand in front of it unmoving, maybe fatal food poisoning and maybe I always wished the world would end so I did not have to bear all of the burden, but then again, I'd be the first one to shut myself off new connections because all I've learnt is that I'll just be used if I'm useful enough and then thrown away.

Ignore my cart 🤷🏻‍♀️

I mean no offence to anyone but I find this particular part really disturbing.

A few chapters earlier, sakura, a female character quiet literally massaged his p*nis but at some point of the chapter, she was also like "I wish I was your older sister," I've come across the objectification of women in murakami books much after later purchased this one (Kafka on the shore). Of course I won't know the thought process of a 15 year old boy but I very well know that you cannot literally go on sexualising every damn woman you come across in the book. Every single woman was objectified.

Again, this is just my opinion.