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I’ve had VARIOUS hair colors but was never sure which one suited me the best. I left out blue because it was a disaster. First pic is my current hair color after stripping black color off.
Hi, I’m a true summer and wondered if this shade of pink is going well with my features.
I have the most random aesthetic honestly. From sporty to streetwear to edgy to dark clean girl. But is there a name of blend of these styles? How do I even call my aesthetic?
I accidentally went black as the box said dark brown but my hair acted up and I ended up black. Safe to say no one, not even me, liked it.
Today I went to a hairdresser after two months of patiently waiting for at least a bit to wash out (it did not) but I ended up reddish orange brown depending on the lighting. However, is it at least better than it used to be as black? I’m planning on going blonde if my hair is able to be lifted that much.
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Long story short, I’ve been on Accutane 20mg due to low body weight for few months, nothing too extreme.
Last time I was on Accutane my skin returned to normal aka combination with cheeks being normal type fairly quickly so I thought now would be the same.
It’s been 3 months and my skin and lips are as dry as they were on Accutane. It’s so bad that my ears have cracked and constantly oozing. My hands are dry, I get irritation on my cheeks due to dermatitis and dry skin being a no no so I apply extra moisturizer for dryness, I have to apply chapstick 6 times per day and what not, all in the middle of summer.
Why is this happening? I had a completely different experience when I was on the first round plus now I was on the 20 days pause 10 days taking Accutane kind of regimen for the last two months, it makes no sense. Should I wait a bit longer until my skin returns to normal or what?
I’ve always bought shiny silver jewelry but wondered if perhaps muted looked more in harmony with my skin. What are your thoughts?
Hi, I’m not seeking anyone to diagnose me but rather give me advice on what to do with these intense mood swing episodes.
I’m currently diagnosed with BPD, moderate depressive episode and unspecified psychosis. I’ve been in depressive episode for 6 months now, psychotic symptoms became intense 4 months ago when I was diagnosed. I’m medicated right now and I’m on mood stabilizer.
Now, I had episodes in the past when I was hyper, could not sleep more than 4h even on sleep medication, I was very motivated, high on energy and as if the electricity was running through my body. I was also sometimes pretty irritable and would go on a rampage against people around me. It would last 7 days max, more like 5.
It started again but luckily now I come down after a day and I’m able to sleep but still it feels like the episode wants to start but it can’t if that makes sense.
Should I mention this to my psychiatrist without me sounding like I’m forcing bipolar diagnosis? How do I tell her this?
I usually stick with just doing my eyebrows, lashes and applying concealer underneath my eyes but I wondered if you would add something.
I’m not the biggest fan of blush or contours as I don’t see myself with them but I wondered if some nude lipstick would do the trick in rounding this natural look.
I’d appreciate any help and advice!
Ever since I was a kid I had a fixed belief that everyone wants to humiliate me, use me, abuse me and what not because that was my experience.
Now that I'm an adult I still hold that belief close to my heart and can never shake it off, no matter what evidence I have and have destroyed many relationships because of that.
Why is it a delusion if it was real in one period of my life?
I was diagnosed with BPD 7 years ago and have had many psychotic episodes since then.
However, the criteria mentions transient psychotic symptoms which is not my case. It doesn’t last for hours or days and it’s not simple paranoia or tied to relationships, it lasts for months and it’s usually triggered by very low mood which also leads to auditory hallucinations tied to people knowing and talking about my secrets aka wanting to harm me.
Is that because I’m more susceptible to psychosis or is my case entirely unrelated to BPD whatsoever?
I have the most muted and greyish green eyes I’ve seen recently so they’re nothing special but I wanted to share it with you guys.
I wondered if what I went through was psychosis 4 months ago. Are these signs of it?
- thought every conversation was about me and my dirtiest secrets as if other people knew what was inside of my head
- started actively hearing people talking about me negatively and saying my name
- very distrustful towards people and their motives, thought everyone was out to get me
- I was very aggressive, on the edge, hypervigilant, flat, disinterested in other stuff like my interests, I had nightmares and night terrors constantly and I was in a bad place mentally generally
As a bisexual I couldn’t not include my biggest crushes ever since I was a kid. What does it say about me?
Don't get me wrong, I'm diagnosed with unspecified psychosis but wondered if it's just for the billing of antipsychotics.
I was already in a low mood, flat state and completely dull to my interests, world and people in general so I suspect I was already in a depressive episode which was diagnosed 2 months ago only.
2 months before the breakdown I was sure everyone was talking about me whenever they were laughing and talking in a group of people. I was sure they were gossiping about what I've done it the past, my worst secrets. I couldn't prove it wrong. It went on for 2 months and in the meantime I became more and more agitated, on the edge and rage issues resurfaced to almost breaking objects in my house.
The worst moment was when I was at work and saw a group of people talking. I heard my name, focused on their conversation and heard "I can't believe she likes a taken man, how disgusting of her" and they were laughing. I approached them closer and they were talking about something else. I made some distance and they were talking about me again. Pretty possible that they stopped talking about me mid convo if you ask me. Yet I told my psychiatrist "I can't prove it's wrong".
However, my psychiatrist didn't think so, pushed the idea of substance abuse which I haven't done and wrote in the report "high interpretative readiness inclining towards ideas of reference".
What the hell did I even go through?
I had a psychotic episode 4 months ago, not sure how long it lasted but definitely 2 months minimum and 4 months max.
I used to get depressive episodes in the past, took venlafaxine and my state would be better after 2 months give or take.
Now? It won't even touch me.
I've been on ADs for 4 months now and my state is getting worse to the point of not being able to shower and wash my face yet I'm expected to go to work like this.
I'm losing hope that anything can help besides time. Why does medication have no effect on it whatsoever?
I didn’t put too much effort into my eyebrows as I’m just testing which looks better so excuse me for that but I have the hardest time picking out a shade that goes well with both my face and hair.
I kinda like how number 1 suits my face but number 2 is slightly closer to hair color. Black looked catastrophic, number 2 is the darkest brown I could find.
I’d appreciate your help!
I suspect that I've had episodes many times before but was only diagnosed 4 months ago. I have never had such a long lowest of low episode.
I'm feeling flat, demotivated, lethargic, I sleep 12-14h per day when I don't have to go to work, I think living doesn't have any purpose at all, I struggle with anhedonia and basically things similar to it. I've been diagnosed with moderate depression in the meanwhile but meds won't even touch me and I changed two.
I'm suspecting this doesn't have much to do with depression but rather a complete burnout if that's even possible. That made me wonder, how long will I have to be like this before it gets better? What do I even do? What do I avoid? I'm so lost.
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First off, sorry for the peeling skin care, I didn’t notice it before taking pictures 💔
Now, I’m fully aware that I’m cool toned, silver looks amazing on me opposed to gold, shaded grey looks fantastic on me opposed to light silver but it makes sense since I’m not that fair, I’m medium contrast and all that. Definitely not soft season so I settled on true summer. Users here say black overpowers me and I agree to some degree.
However, I can’t explain why I can pull off sapphire which is winter color. Some have said that the red in slide 5 also looks amazing but that’s bright winter red. I can pull off soft black hair as if it’s my natural color due to my darkish eyebrows many have said.
I’d appreciate your input and honesty.
Hi, I’ve been diagnosed with unspecified psychosis in March after I started hearing everyone speaking about my darkest secrets and visiting psychiatrist due to coping mechanisms and issues it brought up.
I admit I was already struggling with depression at that moment like intense loss of interest in things I used to love, being flat affectively and struggling with cognitive stuff I had no issues months before that but I wasn’t diagnosed with moderate depression until last month. However, I still could do things in the past and was somehow functional thanks to the higher energy like agitation, rage and general irritability which usually leads to action in my case.
Now? I’ve been on medication such as lithium, capiprazine and venlafaxine which were supposed to help me but I feel even flatter. I can’t wash my face let alone do something more. I go to work and pretend I’m functional but the truth is I’ve never been worse my whole life. I can’t solve a hard level of sudoku and constantly play on medium and even then I struggle while it was a piece of cake before. I can’t make one choice or do one thing without feeling like I’m going to pass out due to anxiety. Music is flat, boring noise. Tv shows or movies are hard to follow. Nothing seems worth my energy which is nonexistent so I don’t bother doing anything.
I don’t know where the psychosis came from, whether it’s from BPD or completely unrelated to it, whether it’s a mood disorder with psychotic elements but that doesn’t make sense since I don’t suffer from severe depression or if it was just a psychotic episode out of nowhere. Still I ask, is it normal to suffer such a great depression after a psychotic episode?
We all know how misunderstood this disorder is but the fact that people don’t understand it really makes you feel isolated.
I had an episode yesterday. I was struggling with dysphoria and it triggered extreme agitation, irritability, inability to control my emotions so I would erupt with anger and have abrupt mood swings whole day. I could barely stand myself.
My closest people who I won’t call friends got offended. To one I replied something with a sharp tone and he got a bit mad but gave me space, I later apologized and replied normally to his question. But the other one… I told him “Leave, I have no filter today and either you’ll get offended or we’ll fight which I don’t want” to which he replied “You’re like a poisonous frog, you keep changing colors” either implying that I’m double faced or addressing my mood swings but he was offended. He’s extremely subjective, self absorbed and invalidating at times.
Both of them know I have BPD but I somehow think they don’t register that. Whatever I do isn’t a character flaw but a literal disorder that sometimes feels out of my control. Yes I’m medicated, yes I practice skills, yes I take accountability sooner or later and apologize and explain but that doesn’t mean I’m cured or “normal” which they fail to realize. Majority fails to realize that.
I don’t know, I have a feeling that I keep running into people who simply aren’t a good support system and are only preoccupied with themselves to the point of not wanting to know what’s going on inside me. Please tell me there is hope and that at least you found someone who’s supportive and validating.