My neck basically connects to my chin even if i am at a lower weight. What causes this? Its especially visible when i lower my tongue or smile. I dont think its fat(not sure) since it feels more like the skin is stretched or like my neck is just connected to my chin. Id love to have a more masculine and defined jawline pls help
Im on sustanon and i take it every three weeks, i just had my first appointment with my endo after three months on T and she says my T levels are low (5.4nmol/L) But she doesnt want to increase my dose or lower the period between doses until our next appointment in august which feels like too long imo.
I honestly feel so dysphoric and frustrated, she didnt explain anything she just said that. Does that mean ill have a low T level until august or will my levels increase on their own? Is this normal when starting? Ik its common to have some issues but shouldnt something be done about it?
Im on sustanon and i take it every three weeks, i just had my first appointment with my endo after three months on T and she says my T levels are low (5.4nmol/L) But she doesnt want to increase my dose or lower the period between doses until our next appointment in august which feels like too long imo.
I honestly feel so dysphoric and frustrated, she didnt explain anything she just said that. Does that mean ill have a low T level until august or will my levels increase on their own? Is this normal when starting? Ik its common to have some issues but shouldnt something be done about it?
Ive been on testosterone for over two months now and ive been getting fast changes which im super happy about, muscle growth, moustache and a bit of beard, voice dropping etc. Im wondering if and how and when I'll pass or if i pass yet.
Im 5'2 and i dress alternatively, and im not sure if my voice passes yet which all combined i feel like i dont pass. Ive gone out like twice in the past two months so i didnt get to be misgendered or gendered correctly so idk.
Any tips and advice are appreciated
Ive been on T for about two months and have never done voice training, im wondering if anyone could tell me what my voice sounds like and how i can make it more cis like(?) I know my voice will drop more so im mostly wondering what i should change about the way i speak and all that before it does drop.
Im 18 now and i think im at rock bottom when it comes to executive dysfunction, i truly cant do anything. Ive struggled with school so much i ended up dropping out cuz i just couldn't do it. Ive been home unemployed for over a year, I cant find a job and i cant get myself to look for more, I try sometimes but then im terrified of phone calls and i just get stuck at that point and i keep having to redo it. I think im only now realizing i need much higher support than i thought, im at a point when i truly cant get myself to do anything.
I dont wanna be babysat but at this point it feels like the only choice, im not sure how id get support since my mom already doesn't believe im as disabled as ive usually said, and now im realizing its much worse.
I feel like the amount of support i need just doesnt fit me, i wish i was normal and ive always believed i was "normal" and i hate getting help as im extremely independent, or so i thought. I makes me feel like a fraud or that im just lazy and that i should just "do it" and i believe everyone around me thinks the same.
Im honestly so lost since now i know i need more help but i cant even get myself to contact a psychiatrist, is this the point where ill just be stuck forever? I want to live a normal life and i want to be independent and happy, how can my life improve?
I have all these great plans on how ill do things and make my life good but i cant even do the first step.
Just wanted to vent a bit but if anyone has any advice it would be greatly appreciated.
Prerequisites
What age range are you in?
Im 18-19
Any disorders or conditions we should know about? Autism, adhd, depression, and social anxiety
Main Questions
I think I just wanna live and see how things progress yk, I wanna see myself grown up, see all the upcoming things im excited about, live an adult life and be comfortable. Im living with the hopes my life will be good in the future.
My mom says i was very assertive, i wouldnt share my toys and i would boss everyone around. I would always take the lead in group projects and everyone would listen to what i said, i did get more timid as i grew up
Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted? I grew up with a pretty bad relationship with my mom, our intercations were full of her misunderstanding me and me not being able to understand her logic behind things. Right now id say Im the rational one out of the two of us, when she gets emotional im there to pick an unbiased side and give her a more logical look on the situation.
What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
I think empathy is important. I believe people should respect people or beings who are less fortunate or weaker then them. Its important to be understanding of others and to think of their impact on things before being judgemental.
I hope to avoid being a hypocrite, I think i should follow the ideals i put on others more.
Ive basically always been scared of being perceived, I hated being looked at or noticed, i was worried of what others thought of me. Do they think im weird? mean? awkward? weak? I dont think this changed, its still a big fear but its more subconscious, I dont care much about what other people think of me anymore.
b.) How do you want others to see you?
c.) What do you dislike the most in other people?
a) I see myself as someone whos very opinionated, almost trying to look for things to criticize about others, I also know im insecure deep down and struggle with actually seeing myself. I think im also lazy and kinda stuck in my own head, I have my own world inside my head and im happy while in it and i dont like it being disturbed, which i think causes me not be focus much on real life.
b) I want others to see me as someone smart and moral, I wish people took my advice on things and i want them to think im right. I wanna be inspiring and envied.
c) I hate it when people cant form their own opinions and just submit to others, when they cant think about something past the surface level. I also dont like it when people are always apologizing and act like they are below others, i know its not their fault and i dont think it makes them bad people, but its irritating when people dont know they are worth more.
a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others.
b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you
c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else.
a) 2, honestly im not really sure so ill go with that, I think i do things for other but subconsciously do it cuz of my ego, Im not sure why i think that tho.
b) 2, I kinda enjoy being argumentative, its fun to challenge different beliefs and concepts, I think its nice to keep finding things to talk about even if it ends up being seen as an argument. But its important to find a stability and i dont want my life to revolve around that.
c) 3, I love giving advice and telling people what to do, I think there is always answers to problems and they can be solved.
9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel good when things go the way i want them to, when a day i planned out goes exactly like the plan. Im happy when i accomplish things ive been avoiding.
I hate it when i just laze around all day, it makes me feel like a waste of space.
a.) anger
Someone doing something i dont believe is right, and refusing to listen to my explanations of advice
b.) shame
Being wrong.
c.) anxiety
Leaving something up to someone, being worried if they will get hurt.
a.) stress
I avoid it and try to forget it by doing things i like
b.) negative unexpected change
Meltdown, I often see things as definite when it comes to plans and things like that, so a small change is huge.
c.) conflict
More conflict tbh, im very stubborn and i need the other person to tell me theyre wrong before i stop.
I instigate things to do and take the lead, tho im not sure since i havent been in many groups
b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why? I change everything, but take it slow so its easy to swallow, I take "With big power, comes big responsibility" if youre doing nothing with the power you have, youre doing it very wrong and i dont believe its moral.
c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why?
I guess since i dont think anyone has authority over me lmao, it might be the autism but i just see others the same as me. I see it as following rules to get what i want, like a job or to not get arrested.
I see their indifference to issues, which i believe is proof of their ignorance amd privilege.
Im not really sure since i dont know that many people, Ive been told i keep a lot of things to myself and that i need to share more with others. I think i subconsciously have very low trust but i dont really notice it or think about it.
I think they influenced my responses since i take my beliefs seriously.
Extra Questions
Which of the following temptations do you find yourself acting upon the most? (And briefly state why)
- To constantly push yourself to be “the best” I do this because i want to be seen as perfect
- To be without needs, well-intentioned
I do this, i think im very independent
- To replace direct experience with concepts
Not sure what this means
- To have an extreme sense of personal moral obligation
I do this, I want to be right
- To think that fulfillment is somewhere else
Not sure
- To cyclically become indecisive and seek others for reassurance
I do this, i want others input before i do something
- To overuse imagination in searching for yourself
I do this a lot
- To avoid conflicts and asserting yourself
I dont do this
- To consider yourself entirely self-sufficient
I do this a lot
What's something you are: a.) thankful you have b.) wish you could have? Why?
a) Good people around me, I think everyone around me is great even tho its just a couple of people.
b) I wish i could be sure about things like the future, Its my biggest flaw, i hate not knowing what is right.
Temptations: Source
Credits
Original questionnaire: Spades, Paradigm, and Boss with the help of Owfin, madhatter, listentothemountains, and others.
Additions and alterations: Wake, Flatlander
Reviewed: Timeless, MBTI Enthusiast
Prerequisites
What age range are you in?
Im 18-19
Any disorders or conditions we should know about? Autism, adhd, depression, and social anxiety
Main Questions
I think I just wanna live and see how things progress yk, I wanna see myself grown up, see all the upcoming things im excited about, live an adult life and be comfortable. Im living with the hopes my life will be good in the future.
My mom says i was very assertive, i wouldnt share my toys and i would boss everyone around. I would always take the lead in group projects and everyone would listen to what i said, i did get more timid as i grew up
Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted? I grew up with a pretty bad relationship with my mom, our intercations were full of her misunderstanding me and me not being able to understand her logic behind things. Right now id say Im the rational one out of the two of us, when she gets emotional im there to pick an unbiased side and give her a more logical look on the situation.
What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
I think empathy is important. I believe people should respect people or beings who are less fortunate or weaker then them. Its important to be understanding of others and to think of their impact on things before being judgemental.
I hope to avoid being a hypocrite, I think i should follow the ideals i put on others more.
Ive basically always been scared of being perceived, I hated being looked at or noticed, i was worried of what others thought of me. Do they think im weird? mean? awkward? weak? I dont think this changed, its still a big fear but its more subconscious, I dont care much about what other people think of me anymore.
b.) How do you want others to see you?
c.) What do you dislike the most in other people?
a) I see myself as someone whos very opinionated, almost trying to look for things to criticize about others, I also know im insecure deep down and struggle with actually seeing myself. I think im also lazy and kinda stuck in my own head, I have my own world inside my head and im happy while in it and i dont like it being disturbed, which i think causes me not be focus much on real life.
b) I want others to see me as someone smart and moral, I wish people took my advice on things and i want them to think im right. I wanna be inspiring and envied.
c) I hate it when people cant form their own opinions and just submit to others, when they cant think about something past the surface level. I also dont like it when people are always apologizing and act like they are below others, i know its not their fault and i dont think it makes them bad people, but its irritating when people dont know they are worth more.
a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others.
b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you
c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else.
a) 2, honestly im not really sure so ill go with that, I think i do things for other but subconsciously do it cuz of my ego, Im not sure why i think that tho.
b) 2, I kinda enjoy being argumentative, its fun to challenge different beliefs and concepts, I think its nice to keep finding things to talk about even if it ends up being seen as an argument. But its important to find a stability and i dont want my life to revolve around that.
c) 3, I love giving advice and telling people what to do, I think there is always answers to problems and they can be solved.
9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel good when things go the way i want them to, when a day i planned out goes exactly like the plan. Im happy when i accomplish things ive been avoiding.
I hate it when i just laze around all day, it makes me feel like a waste of space.
a.) anger
Someone doing something i dont believe is right, and refusing to listen to my explanations of advice
b.) shame
Being wrong.
c.) anxiety
Leaving something up to someone, being worried if they will get hurt.
a.) stress
I avoid it and try to forget it by doing things i like
b.) negative unexpected change
Meltdown, I often see things as definite when it comes to plans and things like that, so a small change is huge.
c.) conflict
More conflict tbh, im very stubborn and i need the other person to tell me theyre wrong before i stop.
I instigate things to do and take the lead, tho im not sure since i havent been in many groups
b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why? I change everything, but take it slow so its easy to swallow, I take "With big power, comes big responsibility" if youre doing nothing with the power you have, youre doing it very wrong and i dont believe its moral.
c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why?
I guess since i dont think anyone has authority over me lmao, it might be the autism but i just see others the same as me. I see it as following rules to get what i want, like a job or to not get arrested.
I see their indifference to issues, which i believe is proof of their ignorance amd privilege.
Im not really sure since i dont know that many people, Ive been told i keep a lot of things to myself and that i need to share more with others. I think i subconsciously have very low trust but i dont really notice it or think about it.
I think they influenced my responses since i take my beliefs seriously.
Extra Questions
Which of the following temptations do you find yourself acting upon the most? (And briefly state why)
- To constantly push yourself to be “the best” I do this because i want to be seen as perfect
- To be without needs, well-intentioned
I do this, i think im very independent
- To replace direct experience with concepts
Not sure what this means
- To have an extreme sense of personal moral obligation
I do this, I want to be right
- To think that fulfillment is somewhere else
Not sure
- To cyclically become indecisive and seek others for reassurance
I do this, i want others input before i do something
- To overuse imagination in searching for yourself
I do this a lot
- To avoid conflicts and asserting yourself
I dont do this
- To consider yourself entirely self-sufficient
I do this a lot
What's something you are: a.) thankful you have b.) wish you could have? Why?
a) Good people around me, I think everyone around me is great even tho its just a couple of people.
b) I wish i could be sure about things like the future, Its my biggest flaw, i hate not knowing what is right.
Temptations: Source
Credits
Original questionnaire: Spades, Paradigm, and Boss with the help of Owfin, madhatter, listentothemountains, and others.
Additions and alterations: Wake, Flatlander
Reviewed: Timeless, MBTI Enthusiast
Prerequisites
What age range are you in?
Im 18-19
Any disorders or conditions we should know about? Autism, adhd, depression, and social anxiety
Main Questions
I think I just wanna live and see how things progress yk, I wanna see myself grown up, see all the upcoming things im excited about, live an adult life and be comfortable. Im living with the hopes my life will be good in the future.
My mom says i was very assertive, i wouldnt share my toys and i would boss everyone around. I would always take the lead in group projects and everyone would listen to what i said, i did get more timid as i grew up
Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted? I grew up with a pretty bad relationship with my mom, our intercations were full of her misunderstanding me and me not being able to understand her logic behind things. Right now id say Im the rational one out of the two of us, when she gets emotional im there to pick an unbiased side and give her a more logical look on the situation.
What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
I think empathy is important. I believe people should respect people or beings who are less fortunate or weaker then them. Its important to be understanding of others and to think of their impact on things before being judgemental.
I hope to avoid being a hypocrite, I think i should follow the ideals i put on others more.
Ive basically always been scared of being perceived, I hated being looked at or noticed, i was worried of what others thought of me. Do they think im weird? mean? awkward? weak? I dont think this changed, its still a big fear but its more subconscious, I dont care much about what other people think of me anymore.
b.) How do you want others to see you?
c.) What do you dislike the most in other people?
a) I see myself as someone whos very opinionated, almost trying to look for things to criticize about others, I also know im insecure deep down and struggle with actually seeing myself. I think im also lazy and kinda stuck in my own head, I have my own world inside my head and im happy while in it and i dont like it being disturbed, which i think causes me not be focus much on real life.
b) I want others to see me as someone smart and moral, I wish people took my advice on things and i want them to think im right. I wanna be inspiring and envied.
c) I hate it when people cant form their own opinions and just submit to others, when they cant think about something past the surface level. I also dont like it when people are always apologizing and act like they are below others, i know its not their fault and i dont think it makes them bad people, but its irritating when people dont know they are worth more.
a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others.
b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you
c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else.
a) 2, honestly im not really sure so ill go with that, I think i do things for other but subconsciously do it cuz of my ego, Im not sure why i think that tho.
b) 2, I kinda enjoy being argumentative, its fun to challenge different beliefs and concepts, I think its nice to keep finding things to talk about even if it ends up being seen as an argument. But its important to find a stability and i dont want my life to revolve around that.
c) 3, I love giving advice and telling people what to do, I think there is always answers to problems and they can be solved.
9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel good when things go the way i want them to, when a day i planned out goes exactly like the plan. Im happy when i accomplish things ive been avoiding.
I hate it when i just laze around all day, it makes me feel like a waste of space.
a.) anger
Someone doing something i dont believe is right, and refusing to listen to my explanations of advice
b.) shame
Being wrong.
c.) anxiety
Leaving something up to someone, being worried if they will get hurt.
a.) stress
I avoid it and try to forget it by doing things i like
b.) negative unexpected change
Meltdown, I often see things as definite when it comes to plans and things like that, so a small change is huge.
c.) conflict
More conflict tbh, im very stubborn and i need the other person to tell me theyre wrong before i stop.
I instigate things to do and take the lead, tho im not sure since i havent been in many groups
b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why? I change everything, but take it slow so its easy to swallow, I take "With big power, comes big responsibility" if youre doing nothing with the power you have, youre doing it very wrong and i dont believe its moral.
c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why?
I guess since i dont think anyone has authority over me lmao, it might be the autism but i just see others the same as me. I see it as following rules to get what i want, like a job or to not get arrested.
I see their indifference to issues, which i believe is proof of their ignorance amd privilege.
Im not really sure since i dont know that many people, Ive been told i keep a lot of things to myself and that i need to share more with others. I think i subconsciously have very low trust but i dont really notice it or think about it.
I think they influenced my responses since i take my beliefs seriously.
Extra Questions
Which of the following temptations do you find yourself acting upon the most? (And briefly state why)
- To constantly push yourself to be “the best” I do this because i want to be seen as perfect
- To be without needs, well-intentioned
I do this, i think im very independent
- To replace direct experience with concepts
Not sure what this means
- To have an extreme sense of personal moral obligation
I do this, I want to be right
- To think that fulfillment is somewhere else
Not sure
- To cyclically become indecisive and seek others for reassurance
I do this, i want others input before i do something
- To overuse imagination in searching for yourself
I do this a lot
- To avoid conflicts and asserting yourself
I dont do this
- To consider yourself entirely self-sufficient
I do this a lot
What's something you are: a.) thankful you have b.) wish you could have? Why?
a) Good people around me, I think everyone around me is great even tho its just a couple of people.
b) I wish i could be sure about things like the future, Its my biggest flaw, i hate not knowing what is right.
Temptations: Source
Credits
Original questionnaire: Spades, Paradigm, and Boss with the help of Owfin, madhatter, listentothemountains, and others.
Additions and alterations: Wake, Flatlander
Reviewed: Timeless, MBTI Enthusiast