u/Cool-Pomegranate6510

Salam guys, i kinda feel weird. I observe that GenZ is marrying and i am in the beginning of 30 and you people will laugh that i haven't felt love or was in a relationship. Slowly the family wants to persuade but i don't have a full time permanent job and i am a lazy person as well.

Questions that bother me

Hey,

i am in the beginning of my 30s and i did some mistakes concerning porn and i pray that Allah swt protect all people from porn.

\-> i never had a relationship with a girl

\-> i found my questions unfortunately in porn which lead me into more insecurities, anxiety and hopelessness. My Iman, faith did downgrade than 10 yrs ago

\-> i was bullied that i have a voice like a girl, some told me i were gay and etc

\-> so in conclusion i faced a lot insult even from my family

\-> of course these points harms my masculinity

now i am in my 30s. I didnt have any experience with a girl. Family tell me to marry. I want to marry but i feel lazy, i feel nowadays less libido. No mood to watch porn Alhamdullilah and this frightens me. I sometimes want to be alone. I dont feel proud to myself to marry. Then i think if i had sexual experience i would feel more masculine. This porn stuff bothers me a lot. My prayers dont get answers like they got answered years ago.

I am going to gym but this year i got sick several times then i had a leg injury. So i feel like the German football team as i live in Germany.

I am powerless. I have a lot worries about future. For example: I am worried about first time that i dont be able to perform good and etc..

What are your suggestions ?

Thanks

Salam Alaykum,

i am in the beginning of my 30s and i did some mistakes concerning porn and i pray that Allah swt protect all people from porn.

-> i never had a relationship with a girl

-> i found my questions unfortunately in porn which lead me into more insecurities, anxiety and hopelessness. My Iman, faith did downgrade than 10 yrs ago

-> i was bullied that i have a voice like a girl, some told me i were gay and etc

-> so in conclusion i faced a lot insult even from my family

-> of course these points harms my masculinity

now i am in my 30s. I didnt have any experience with a girl. Family tell me to marry. I want to marry but i feel lazy, i feel nowadays less libido. No mood to watch porn Alhamdullilah and this frightens me. I sometimes want to be alone. I dont feel proud to myself to marry. Then i think if i had sexual experience i would feel more masculine. This porn stuff bothers me a lot. My prayers dont get answers like they got answered years ago.

I am going to gym but this year i got sick several times then i had a leg injury. So i feel like the German football team as i live in Germany.

I am powerless. I have a lot worries about future. For example: I am worried about first time that i dont be able to perform good and etc..

What are your suggestions ?

Thanks

Can someone help with this "burden". I am keeping that for 7 yrs and it depresses me a lot. Sometime when i think about it i get sad. Sometimes i have odd sexual dreams.

I am totally exhausted guys. Can someone support how to stop this disgusting porn...

Is it normal to get hard due to admiring or liking a specific quality?