u/CrittersVarmint

I am just venting here because the level of stupid is alarming at this point.

He took some sort of pills or powder based on a viral video telling people they have pinworms and other parasites and that this supplement would cleanse the body. He took this stuff and is now he is sick and he is super disappointed that no parasites came out. I told him he does not have parasites. You have to HAVE a parasite in your body in order for a parasite to come out.

This man is a registered nurse. I do not understand how this could happen. I don’t even know if he really knows what is in this shit that he took. This is just scary. What is wrong with these people??

I am all but 100% sure I have misophonia but I have never been diagnosed or asked a doctor or therapist about it. I have read that there are exercises or whatever that are recommended to cope with this but I’m curious if anyone has gone through that and actually had success?

It sounds stupid but right now I cannot imagine ANYTHING helping me with this. In the past I have just been able to deal with it as I spent most of my time alone but I now have a partner I live with who has ADHD and he is CONSTANTLY making annoying sounds and movements. He is a doll, truly the sweetest man ever, so breaking up is not something I will consider (in case anyone is going to suggest that). But I really need to find a way to deal with this or I might lose my mind. :(

Thanks in advance!

I just started watching this show and one of my favorite things about it is that it does not spell out and repeat the plot or point or characters constantly like so many new shows do. It also doesn’t use horrible dialogue to introduce characters (i.e. “Hi, little brother”). You have to actually watch it and interpret events and conversations.

So many new shows and movies are designed for people who are dicking around on their phones rather than actually watching the show. This one is not! I quite appreciate this aspect of it. It’s good anyway as far as the story and themes and such but it’s refreshing to have a series that is not dumbed down or written to cater to people who don’t actually watch shows but just play them in the background while they’re on Instagram or whatever.

What is going on with these two this season? Ramsay is annoying tf out of me with constantly saying/yelling “LET’S GO!!” STFU with that. And Tiffany seems like she is just being extra in general compared to last season. Like that weird exchange in the first episode with her and Joe and all the over the top reactions and facial expressions.

Maybe it’s just me but these two seem like their undies are on too tight or something.

I left and went no contact and it’s both the biggest relief and also excruciating at times. I stayed with my sister for a few months and I have to say if I hadn’t had that option I am terrified I would have gone back to him (YET AGAIN).

It sounds insane that I would have ever gone back once, let alone multiple times. The way I have described it is that the dark cloud of his alcoholism had been over my head for so many years and I had felt hopeless for so many years and depressed and stressed for so many years and I had thought about and anguished over the relationship for literally every waking moment of every day and night for so many years that I sometimes feel like I don’t know what to do without that. What an awful thing to somehow be attached to THAT. But it’s real.

I left in August and it has been tough. I still think about him a lot and worry about him. I still wonder if he is okay and hope he is. I feel sadness when these thoughts cross my mind. It’s amazing but now that I am out, my mind somehow ends up focusing on the good things that were there. But there were hardly any of those, to be clear—I have always had to struggle to come up with even one positive thing to say about the relationship. I still get a bit touchy if anyone mentions him or asks questions about everything. It’s just so upsetting to think about.

All of that is true. But the general relief I feel far outweighs any sadness or despair. I no longer wake up and feel like crying immediately because I’m so miserable. I don’t fall asleep at night dreaming of some other existence. I don’t feel sad watching some rom-com or seeing happy couples. I don’t spend every waking moment contemplating how to get out of what feels like an impossible situation. I don’t cry over every little thing. I don’t have generalized anxiety over things that aren’t a big deal anymore. If I make a mistake at work I don’t dwell on it for hours or days or weeks. I have so much more room, so to speak, to deal with every day life in a healthier way because I no longer have this massive cloud of despair hanging over my every emotion, every decision, every thought.

Whenever I start feeling sad or feeling guilty for hurting him by leaving and having thoughts about how easy it would be to just go back and say “never mind, let’s try again” I try reading some of the journal entries I wrote from the last several years and remember just how insanely miserable I was for well over a decade. How many events and activities I passed up over the years because I was chained to this miserable person who cared more about drinking than anything else. How many years I spent walking on eggshells in my own home because of his alcoholism. How many of these journal entries are almost word for word the same thing written over again and again and again for over a decade. I hate thinking about that but sometimes I have to just so I don’t forget why I left and. I still come to this sub and read other stories to remind me but also to offer help where I can.

I used this sub SO much as a sounding board and outlet for frustrations over the last few years and it truly helped me feel less alone and I am forever grateful. But I also knew that the sub could only do so much. The only one who could truly change the situation was ME. It was a tough decision for so many reasons but I finally made it and for once I stuck to my guns. I feel so much lighter, more positive, and free. I don’t necessarily believe in “happiness” as far as this image of people being happy all the time. I don’t believe that’s a genuine or real thing. But I do believe in feeling content and finally after years and years I feel that.

TLDR:
I know there are so many people here who stay in these situations and they have their reasons. I had mine—I know! But I just want to share that I was finally able to muster up the courage to remove myself from a terrible situation that was never going to change. And it was incredibly tough but I did it and I am so much better off now. Even when I go through some of the sadness, which I still do and probably will for a long time, I am SO MUCH HAPPIER now and feel a sense of relief I cannot express.

I hope everyone here who is going through the same things I did can make the decision to leave the situation someday. It will be tough but the relief that comes once you reach the other side is immeasurable. You only get one life, and I hope everyone can live the life they want to. I don’t mean being rich or famous but just not being held back from just enjoying a simple existence by someone else’s addiction.

I’m forever grateful for this sub and will always offer support here where I can.