u/CrusaderofGnosis

I'm 18 years old. Thirteen days ago I underwent a tonsillectomy. My lingual tonsils were reduced, and my palatine tonsils were completely removed. The day after the surgery I experienced severe postoperative bleeding. I nearly choked on the blood and vomited some of it. My mother called emergency services, and I was rushed to the hospital by ambulance. The bleeding eventually stopped without further surgery at that time. I ended up staying in the hospital for six days because of the hemorrhage. After that I was discharged and went home, hoping things would improve.

Then yesterday, on the twelfth day after the original operation, I suddenly started vomiting massive amounts of blood again. It was life-threatening. My mother called emergency services once more. There was so much blood that I nearly died. I was taken to a different hospital, where I continued vomiting huge quantities of blood. The stitches in my throat tore open. I lost consciousness from blood loss. The doctors rushed me into emergency surgery under general anesthesia and used laser cauterization to seal the bleeding wounds. The doctor later told my mother that without the rapid intervention and the second operation, I would have choked to death on my own blood.

A significant amount of blood had also collected in my stomach, so they had to perform a gastroscopy (endoscopy) to suction it out. I'm currently lying in a hospital bed and will have to stay here for several more days. I'm in absolute hell — everything in my throat burns intensely, I have constant shortness of breath and the terrifying sensation that I'm suffocating. I can't taste anything at all, which is driving me insane.

I'm terrified that the combination of the original tonsillectomy, the repeated hemorrhages, and the laser cauterization has permanently damaged my taste nerves, and that I may never be able to taste normally again. I would really like to hear from others who have gone through something similar: how long did it take before you could taste food normally again, breathe without that constant choking feeling, and live without this level of pain?

I'm from Germany and using a translator.

Most Freemasons are in real life utterly unremarkable zeros without any notable achievements, without genuine self confidence and without any inner depth. Driven by chronic mediocrity and conspiracy tales sucked up online they join, in the childish hope of finally rising into the exalted circle of the true elite. Those mythical supermen who supposedly steer the world from dark lodges, manipulate stock markets and sacrifice virgins to obscure gods. Instead they stumble into a musty lodge reeking of stale coffee, sweat and cheap aftershave, full of fat Protestants over 50, with potato chip crumbs sticking to their poorly fitting shirts, while they exchange important sounding opinions about their meager investment portfolios, prostate complaints and the changeable weather. The rituals? An embarrassing spectacle of silly aprons, clumsy hand signs and symbolic junk that would make even an average boy scout cringe. The great enlightenment does not take long: Freemasonry is no occult circle of power but exactly like their own lives, a pathetic, disappointing farce, a sad LARP for bitter petty bourgeois who never achieved anything and now cover up their total insignificance with silly titles and secret recognition signs. And yet they cling with downright pitiful desperation to the facade. Outwardly they continue with knowing smiles, mysterious nods and vague hints as if they belonged to an ancient, mysterious brotherhood that secretly pulls the strings of history. In truth they are just another self help group for modern herd men: weak, desperate for illusions and conformist to the core. A brotherhood of the disappointed who play the lie of hidden greatness to each other because the naked reality, their own mediocre existence, is simply too sobering.

Yahweh is a real deity and entity, the archetypal tyrant who embodies darkness, control, dependency, and pure evil. He stands in total opposition to sun gods such as Ra, Apollo, or Mithras, who symbolize light, clarity, life force, renewal, and individual sovereignty. These solar traditions flourish in openness and vitality. Yahweh, however, is a creature of shadows and submission. His power rests on anxiety, guilt, fear, and absolute obedience. Light exposes illusions and frees the spirit, which is why he harbors a visceral, hateful rejection of anything radiant and life-affirming.

The Holy Scriptures openly reveal this malevolent attitude toward the sun and solar cults:

- Deuteronomy 4:19: "And lest you lift up your eyes to heaven, and when you see the sun and the moon and the stars, all the host of heaven, you be drawn away and bow down to them and serve them..."

- Deuteronomy 17:2-3: Prescribes death by stoning for anyone who worships the sun, the moon, or the host of heaven.

- Ezekiel 8:16: Condemns men who turn their backs on Yahweh’s temple to worship the sun in the east.

- 2 Kings 23:5: Records the purging of priests who made offerings to the sun, the moon, and the constellations.

His direct assault on the Egyptian sun god Ra is unmistakable in Exodus 10:21-23, where Yahweh unleashes three days of palpable, oppressive darkness over Egypt while the Israelites remain in light. This is a deliberate declaration that his darkness conquers and smothers all life-giving illumination.

Yahweh himself chooses to dwell in darkness:

- 1 Kings 8:12: "The Lord has said that he would dwell in thick darkness."

- Psalm 97:2: "Clouds and thick darkness are all around him; righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne."

The sun is essential to human life. Scientific evidence confirms that sunlight drives the synthesis of vitamin D, which strengthens physical health, boosts immunity, elevates mood, and sustains mental well-being. Lack of sunlight leads to widespread depression, weakness, and despair, as observed in regions with prolonged darkness. Yahweh, as a parasitic entity, despises this vital force because it empowers free, strong, and independent people who do not require priestly mediation or slavish dependency. He hates the sun precisely because it represents the opposite of his nature: abundant, freely available life energy that needs no suffering or fear to sustain it.

Segments of the elite actively deploy chemtrails to darken the skies and block these divine solar rays. By enveloping humanity in persistent artificial gloom, they prevent the population from receiving this life-giving light and vitamin D. The result is a weakened, depressed, and controllable populace, perfectly aligned with Yahweh’s desire to keep humanity trapped in dependency and misery.

The elite worships Yahweh as the god of darkness. They celebrate and implement his principles of control and shadow dominion because he is a parasite who feeds on fear, guilt, and suffering. Without constant human emotional fuel, especially trauma and adoration, such an entity would starve. His commands for genocide, child sacrifice, and endless atrocities in the scriptures serve as a sadistic system of energetic harvesting. This evil god thrives on the very pain he inflicts, demanding total loyalty while punishing any turn toward the light.

In essence, Yahweh is the supreme tyrant of slave morality: a malevolent darkness masquerading as the only truth, actively working to extinguish the sun’s blessings so that humanity remains chained in spiritual and physical gloom. The elite’s actions in the skies make his ancient hatred brutally visible in our modern world.

How to defeat Yaldabaoth/Yahweh/Seth/Typhon from a metaphysical, occult perspective:

An egregore is, in esoteric and occult terms, a living thought form, a psychic entity born from the concentrated beliefs, fears, rituals, and emotions of a collective. Picture an invisible vampire sustained by human energy. The more people nourish it through worship, obedience, fear, and especially suffering, the stronger and more independent it grows. It begins as a mere idea yet evolves into a force capable of shaping minds and events. Many so called gods, ideologies, and nations function as such egregores. They are not eternal. Without constant nourishment they weaken and eventually dissolve.

Yahweh, that quintessential tyrant of slave morality, despises sun gods like Ra, Apollo, or Mithras because they embody light, clarity, life force, renewal, and individual sovereignty. They flourish in openness and vitality. Yahweh on the other hand is a creature of shadows and control. His dominion rests on anxiety, guilt, and dependency. Light exposes illusions, hence his visceral hatred for anything radiant and life affirming.

Here are the Bible verses that reveal his hatred toward the sun and sun gods:

Deuteronomy 4:19 

"And lest you lift up your eyes to heaven, and when you see the sun and the moon and the stars, all the host of heaven, you be drawn away and bow down to them and serve them, things that the Lord your God has allotted to all the peoples under the whole heaven."

Deuteronomy 17:2-3 

"If there is found among you... a man or woman who does what is evil in the sight of the Lord your God, in transgressing his covenant, and has gone and served other gods and worshiped them, or the sun or the moon or any of the host of heaven, which I have forbidden... " (punishable by death through stoning).

Ezekiel 8:16 

"And he brought me into the inner court of the house of the Lord. And behold, at the entrance of the temple of the Lord, between the porch and the altar, were about twenty five men, with their backs to the temple of the Lord, and their faces toward the east, worshiping the sun toward the east."

2 Kings 23:5 

"And he deposed the priests whom the kings of Judah had ordained to make offerings in the high places at the cities of Judah and around Jerusalem, those who made offerings to Baal, to the sun and the moon and the constellations and all the host of the heavens."

On his direct assault against Ra: Exodus 10:21-23 describes the plague of darkness that covered Egypt in palpable gloom for three days while the Israelites had light. A blatant strike against the Egyptian sun god who supposedly ruled the skies. Yahweh declares through this: my darkness conquers your light.

He prefers to dwell in darkness himself: 1 Kings 8:12 

"Then Solomon said, The Lord has said that he would dwell in thick darkness."

Psalm 97:2 

"Clouds and thick darkness are all around him, righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne."

This hatred stems from the fact that sun cults generate vital, free flowing energy that requires no priestly mediation or guilt. Yahweh demands total dependency. He sends evil spirits to maintain control, as in 1 Samuel 16:14, and strictly forbids sun worship because it would divert the psychic energy he craves.

This egregore desperately needs worship because he is a parasite. Without human emotional fuel, particularly fear and adoration, he starves. Hence the constant demands for praise, sacrifices, and exclusive loyalty. The genocides, the slaughter of children, the ripping open of pregnant women? They constitute energetic agriculture. Suffering produces high quality loosh, raw emotional nourishment rich in pain and despair. The innocent yield the purest form. By ordering his followers to commit atrocities while threatening them with identical horrors for disobedience, Yahweh secures a perpetual harvest of trauma. Sadistic cultivation that keeps the egregore fat and powerful.

In essence, he is the archetypal tyrant of slave morality: a darkness masquerading as the only light, thriving on the very misery he inflicts. How amusing that billions still kneel before their own psychic leash.

In esotericism, the planet Saturn is often associated with darkness, limitation, time, and the material order. It is regarded as a symbol of the dark, structuring force, often perceived as melancholic or restrictive, that brings order to chaos and sets boundaries.

In the Bible, Yahweh is repeatedly associated with darkness. He himself speaks of creating darkness (Isaiah 45:7). His presence is often revealed in a dense, dark cloud or darkness, as on Mount Sinai (Exodus 19:9; 20:21) or at the dedication of the Temple, where it is said that the Lord desires to dwell in darkness (1 Kings 8:12). Clouds and darkness surround his throne (Psalm 97:2).

In the Abrahamic religions, Yahweh is also symbolically associated with black cubes. In Judaism, believers wear tefillin, small black cubes containing scrolls, during prayer. In Islam, the Kaaba in Mecca is a central sanctuary in the shape of a black cube, toward which pilgrims pray and around which they circle.

Ancient Gnostics equated Yahweh (often referred to as the Demiurge or Yaldabaoth) with the planet Saturn. They saw him as the creator of the material world, a limiting and judgmental god. Some Roman and Hellenistic sources, as well as later esoteric traditions, also drew this parallel.

Both traditions share the same holy day: The Sabbath (Saturday) is the day of rest in Judaism and is associated with Saturn in astrology (Latin dies Saturni, English Saturday). The Roman festival Saturnalia also took place around winter and was dedicated to the god Saturn. The Hebrew name for Saturn is Shabbetai, which establishes a direct linguistic connection to the Sabbath.

In the Abrahamic tradition, Abraham received an explicit command from Yahweh to perform circumcision as a sign of the covenant. This occurs in Genesis 17, where Yahweh says: “This is my covenant, which you shall keep between me and you and your descendants after you: Every male among you shall be circumcised.” This custom is still practiced today in Judaism and Islam.

In Greco-Roman mythology, Saturn (equivalent to Cronus) castrates his father Uranus with a sickle to end his rule, which bears parallels to circumcision. The removal of the foreskin is understood in some ancient and psychoanalytic interpretations as a symbolic castration.

In Greco-Roman mythology, Saturn (Cronus) devours his own children immediately after their birth. In the Bible, Yahweh is associated with the theme of cannibalism and uses it as a threat of punishment. Thus, Leviticus 26:29 states: “You will eat the flesh of your sons, and you will eat the flesh of your daughters.” Similar warnings are found in Deuteronomy 28:53–57 and Jeremiah 19:9, where Yahweh threatens that people, in utter desperation, will consume the flesh of their own children.

Tacitus (c. 56–117 CE), Histories 5.4

The Roman historian Tacitus offers several explanations for the Jewish Sabbath rest and explicitly mentions a worship of Saturn:

“Others say that this [rest on the seventh day] is done in honor of Saturn, either because the foundations of their religion stem from the Idaeans, who, as the story goes, were driven out along with Saturn and became the founders of the Jewish people, or because among the seven planets that govern the fate of mankind, the star of Saturn possesses the highest orbit and the greatest power, and many celestial bodies complete their orbits and revolutions in multiples of seven.”

The philosopher Celsus (2nd century, quoted by Origen) identifies Ialdabaoth/Yahweh with Cronus (the Greek equivalent of Saturn).

I'm losing my mind and don't know what to do

In the Bible the chosen ones are designated by Yahweh as gods or Elohim. According to the Torah and the Old Testament Yahweh created this world and declared it good. Genesis 1:31 proclaims unmistakably: “And God saw everything that he had made, and behold, it was very good.” In the hebrew Bible Yahweh sits enthroned as the unchallenged lord of this world. Nowhere is it demonized. On the contrary. In Jewish mysticism, especially the Kabbalah and the Zohar, the chosen ones shall after the divine judgment rule this world alone. Zohar III, 221b speaks openly of the future dominion of the chosen ones over the peoples of the earth, while the Goyim serve as cattle.

Psalm 82:6 confirms this arrogance without shame: “I have said, you are gods and all of you sons of the Most High.” Here the hebrew judges and leaders are deified as Elohim, a divine caste that rises above the goyish mass. Olam Haba, the coming world, remains reserved for them. The Talmud in Sanhedrin 90a declares clearly: “Kol Israel yesh lahem chelek l’Olam Haba” – all Israel has a share in the coming world. For the Goyim, on the other hand, there are only scraps or nothing at all, depending on the mood of the chosen race. The parasitic elite secures both this life and the afterlife for itself, while driving the rest of humanity into spiritual suicide.

This world contains good and evil, sorrow and beauty. As Rumi aptly remarked, there is no light without darkness. I myself have suffered severely from an illness for almost four years and yet I love this world with all its raw vitality. The later mystical traditions, however, rob it of everything beautiful. They systematically demonize and vilify it in order to break the strong souls of the Gojim and transform them into will less slaves.

Plato saw in it only a poor copy of the world of ideas. The Sufis reduce it to a mere reflection of Allah. The Hindus declare it a mere dream of Vishnu. Manichaeans and Gnostics curse it as an evil creation of the Demiurge. Christians brand it a fallen, sinful sphere. In the esoteric tradition all these currents teach the same thing: one should merge with a divine origin principle and become one. This principle is called Brahman by Hindus, Allah al Haqq by Sufis, Pleroma by Gnostics. It always remains identical. They describe it as transcendent, not binary, origin of all being and pure light.

Whoever merges with this One dissolves his ego, erases his individuality, that very thing which makes man unique and special. It is the same liberal uniformity, the same mush that denies life that for centuries has undermined the vitality of the strong and kept the goyish herd docile. The kabbalistic elite pushes these ideologies worldwide with cold calculation. Their goal is to shape us simple Goyim into losers who deny life who commit cosmic suicide in the One and leave them this world without a fight. One recognizes the pattern in the targeted promotion of Buddhism, New Age, Christian esotericism and all forms of dissolution by the very same networks that also advance open borders, mass immigration and the destruction of all peoples. It is no coincidence that figures like the Frankist Sabbatai Zevi or later kabbalistic currents preached exactly this dissolution of boundaries in order to weaken the goyish world, while the kabbalistic elite itself rules in this world, exploits it and regards the Goyim as mere resources and cattle.

Nietzsche saw through Plato’s perversion of the Greek, vital, pagan religion as a decadent betrayal of life itself and called it in “The Birth of Tragedy” a poisoning of the instinct by oriental slave morality. We should return to our pagan, Indo European, vital roots. These roots sanctify this life and the one after equally. They devalue neither.

They urge us to become as great as the gods and not remain their mere slaves.

Mother Nature has long warned us. Consider the anglerfish in the ocean. It lures unsuspecting fish with its light and devours them. In esoteric traditions like Gnosticism and Sufism exactly this One, this transcendent principle is praised as light with which one merges and in which all individuality is extinguished. It is the ultimate bait of kabbalistic power that drives goyish humanity into a spiritual mass suicide, while the Jewish elite itself rules in this world, exploits it and breaks every resistance.

I would rather live again and again in Samsara than lose myself forever in Brahman. The One is not a divine goal. It is the cosmic fraud of the weak, the envious and the parasitic caste that hates the strong, the manifold, the living. It is the trap for those who are too cowardly to take this world as it is: a battlefield for the superior, on which only the vital prevail and the "chosen ones" are exposed as eternal foreign bodies and bloodsuckers. That is the attitude of the Overman! Gnosticism is pure scum, and in ancient Alexandria it was an edgelord, loser theology that was only laughed at; yet in this age of ignorance and spiritual, mental decay it seems to be the only truth; but the real truth lies in the pagan, life affirming roots and gods of our ancestors, not in this life denying nonsense and uniformity that is the origin of all modern evil and of liberalism. Whether the gods are now egregores or metaphysical entities that existed long before us plays no role – they are real either way.

They want to erase your individuality and kill your ego, even though the ego is sacred and makes us who we are; without it, we have no will to do anything.

In the Bible the chosen ones are designated by Yahweh as gods or Elohim. According to the Torah and the Old Testament Yahweh created this world and declared it good. Genesis 1:31 proclaims unmistakably: “And God saw everything that he had made, and behold, it was very good.” In the hebrew Bible Yahweh sits enthroned as the unchallenged lord of this world. Nowhere is it demonized. On the contrary. In Jewish mysticism, especially the Kabbalah and the Zohar, the chosen ones shall after the divine judgment rule this world alone. Zohar III, 221b speaks openly of the future dominion of the chosen ones over the peoples of the earth, while the Goyim serve as cattle.

Psalm 82:6 confirms this arrogance without shame: “I have said, you are gods and all of you sons of the Most High.” Here the hebrew judges and leaders are deified as Elohim, a divine caste that rises above the goyish mass. Olam Haba, the coming world, remains reserved for them. The Talmud in Sanhedrin 90a declares clearly: “Kol Israel yesh lahem chelek l’Olam Haba” – all Israel has a share in the coming world. For the Goyim, on the other hand, there are only scraps or nothing at all, depending on the mood of the chosen race. The parasitic elite secures both this life and the afterlife for itself, while driving the rest of humanity into spiritual suicide.

This world contains good and evil, sorrow and beauty. As Rumi aptly remarked, there is no light without darkness. I myself have suffered severely from an illness for almost four years and yet I love this world with all its raw vitality. The later mystical traditions, however, rob it of everything beautiful. They systematically demonize and vilify it in order to break the strong souls of the Gojim and transform them into will less slaves.

Plato saw in it only a poor copy of the world of ideas. The Sufis reduce it to a mere reflection of Allah. The Hindus declare it a mere dream of Vishnu. Manichaeans and Gnostics curse it as an evil creation of the Demiurge. Christians brand it a fallen, sinful sphere. In the esoteric tradition all these currents teach the same thing: one should merge with a divine origin principle and become one. This principle is called Brahman by Hindus, Allah al Haqq by Sufis, Pleroma by Gnostics. It always remains identical. They describe it as transcendent, not binary, origin of all being and pure light.

Whoever merges with this One dissolves his ego, erases his individuality, that very thing which makes man unique and special. It is the same liberal uniformity, the same mush that denies life that for centuries has undermined the vitality of the strong and kept the goyish herd docile. The kabbalistic elite pushes these ideologies worldwide with cold calculation. Their goal is to shape us simple Goyim into losers who deny life who commit cosmic suicide in the One and leave them this world without a fight. One recognizes the pattern in the targeted promotion of Buddhism, New Age, Christian esotericism and all forms of dissolution by the very same networks that also advance open borders, mass immigration and the destruction of all peoples. It is no coincidence that figures like the Frankist Sabbatai Zevi or later kabbalistic currents preached exactly this dissolution of boundaries in order to weaken the goyish world, while the kabbalistic elite itself rules in this world, exploits it and regards the Goyim as mere resources and cattle.

Nietzsche saw through Plato’s perversion of the Greek, vital, pagan religion as a decadent betrayal of life itself and called it in “The Birth of Tragedy” a poisoning of the instinct by oriental slave morality. We should return to our pagan, Indo European, vital roots. These roots sanctify this life and the one after equally. They devalue neither.

They urge us to become as great as the gods and not remain their mere slaves.

Mother Nature has long warned us. Consider the anglerfish in the ocean. It lures unsuspecting fish with its light and devours them. In esoteric traditions like Gnosticism and Sufism exactly this One, this transcendent principle is praised as light with which one merges and in which all individuality is extinguished. It is the ultimate bait of kabbalistic power that drives goyish humanity into a spiritual mass suicide, while the Jewish elite itself rules in this world, exploits it and breaks every resistance.

I would rather live again and again in Samsara than lose myself forever in Brahman. The One is not a divine goal. It is the cosmic fraud of the weak, the envious and the parasitic caste that hates the strong, the manifold, the living. It is the trap for those who are too cowardly to take this world as it is: a battlefield for the superior, on which only the vital prevail and the "chosen ones" are exposed as eternal foreign bodies and bloodsuckers. That is the attitude of the Overman! Gnosticism is pure scum, and in ancient Alexandria it was an edgelord, loser theology that was only laughed at; yet in this age of ignorance and spiritual, mental decay it seems to be the only truth; but the real truth lies in the pagan, life affirming roots and gods of our ancestors, not in this life denying nonsense and uniformity that is the origin of all modern evil and of liberalism. Whether the gods are now egregores or metaphysical entities that existed long before us plays no role – they are real either way.

They want to erase your individuality and kill your ego, even though the ego is sacred and makes us who we are; without it, we have no will to do anything.

The "evil" Elite, the kabbalists and the Freemasons, who are heavily influenced by Gnosticism and Neoplatonism and call God the Great Architect of the Universe, deliberately worship Yahweh.

They worship the Abrahamic God fully consciously and intentionally, not because they believe he is some good, merciful force, but because they have studied the biblical and gnostic texts with precision. Texts like the Apocryphon of John and the Hypostasis of the Archons reveal the truth they embrace. They know that the God of Abraham is a tyrannical, sadistic, demonic figure who rules this earth. This world is completely chaotic, and only through evil does one advance in it.

Just look at nature in all her perverse glory. Animals survive only by tearing each other apart in endless cycles of agony and predation. Female praying mantises devour their male partners alive after the sexual act, slowly crunching through their still twitching bodies while the sperm continues its work. Lions disembowel weaker rivals and feast on the entrails of their own cubs when resources run low. Hyenas laugh maniacally over the slow death of wounded prey. Parasites burrow into eyes and brains, turning hosts into zombie slaves before bursting out in a spray of gore. This is no harmonious creation. This is Yahweh's masterpiece, a grand theater of cruelty where suffering is the currency and death the only certainty.

Look at this world. Humans invent atomic bombs that bring unspeakable suffering, as in Hiroshima, where flesh melted from bones in seconds and shadows of the vaporized were burned into walls like grotesque murals. Entire genocides unfold with industrial efficiency. Weapons of mass destruction are perfected in secret labs while the masses cheer their own enslavement. In this world we see an extremely sick, psychopathic, sadistic Elite ruling over everything. The Epstein files are not even close to as bad as what they hide from us, the ritual abuse, the blood rites, the systematic breaking of innocence that mirrors the ancient commands they study so devoutly.

And the Elite knows all this. They know that the God of Abraham in the Bible commands the most abominable things, such as cannibalism in sieges (Deuteronomy 28:53-57, where parents eat their own children in starvation), child sacrifice like Abraham raising the knife over Isaac or Jephthah burning his daughter alive as a burnt offering to Yahweh (Judges 11). They know the commands for genocide and sexual slavery against the Midianites and Canaanites, where virgins are kept as spoils while everything else is slaughtered. The Elite knows what the Gnostics taught about Yahweh, that he is the blind Demiurge Yaldabaoth, the arrogant craftsman who declared "I am God and there is no other" in his ignorance. And that is exactly why they worship him at all, because they worship the Demiurge on purpose.

Look, the ancient Gnostics despised Yahweh because he is the Demiurge and they recognized who he truly is, wanting to flee from him into some imaginary Pleroma. The modern Elite, the Freemasons and so forth, have recognized who Yahweh is, his true nature, that he is the Demiurge, and therefore they worship him. Because they do not want to escape this world, they want to become gods in this world and rule it themselves. Carl Jung identified Yaldabaoth, the gnostic version of Yahweh, with the Ego, with the left brain hemisphere. And that is ultimately what Yahweh is. Yahweh is the Ego. Yahweh is the will to power. In the Bible Yahweh is a jealous God who demands that no other god be worshiped beside him, ruling with complete brutality and cruelty. The ancient Romans, Egyptians and Greeks identified Yahweh with the chaos god Seth. In Egyptian mythology Seth wants to be the sole ruler of Egypt and kills the divine king Osiris to seize his throne. Seth is associated with plagues, chaos, storms and the desert. Yahweh sent plagues upon Egypt, made the sky dark for several days, which from the Egyptian view was blasphemy against the sun god Ra.

He turned the Nile red with blood each year, which was blasphemy against the Nile gods.

And Yahweh demands that no god be worshiped beside him because he is a jealous God. These are all parallels with Seth, who murdered Osiris out of jealousy and wanted to be worshiped alone as king of Egypt, also associated with plagues, the desert, chaos and foreigners among the Egyptians.

Yahweh was the god of the Israelite foreigners, and according to the Egyptians Seth was the god of foreign outsiders. He sent plagues to Egypt that were, from an esoteric perspective, blasphemy against the Egyptian gods. He revealed himself to Moses and the Israelites in the desert. Yahweh is Seth, he is the Demiurge Yaldabaoth, he is the Ego, and he is the God the Elite worships precisely because he is this evil being.

He symbolizes the pure Ego that wants to be worshiped, rules with cruelty, dominates everyone and enslaves everyone. Instead of worshiping something higher, one should become the higher thing that is worshiped. And Yahweh enforced this with violence and cruelty. Yahweh is the Ego and the Elite worships the Ego.

This world is a slaughterhouse by design, a perverse carnival of blood, lust, and domination where every pleasure is laced with pain and every victory built on crushed bodies. Rivers of tears and semen and gore flow together under Yahweh's approving gaze. Rape, betrayal, slow torture, the ecstatic thrill of breaking another will, these are not deviations but the authentic language of creation. The strong sodomize the weak, the clever poison the trusting, and the truly sovereign laugh as empires of bone rise from the corpses. Compassion is suicide here. Mercy is the delusion of slaves. Only through evil, raw, unapologetic, creative evil, does one truly win in this realm. The Demiurge laughs at the weak who pray for justice while he rewards those who imitate his sadistic genius.

The Ego is holy. It is the sacred flame that lifts us out of the bleating herd, what makes us sovereign predators rather than prey. The Elite understands this initiation perfectly: do not flee the Demiurge like the whining ancient Gnostics, become him. Rule your own sphere with the same jealous, creative cruelty, the same thunderous will to power. That is true power in a cosmos built on suffering. Nietzsche glimpsed this when he spoke of the blond beast and the eternal return of struggle. Everything else is illusion for the weak, slave morality dressed up as progress or compassion.

Yahweh is pure evil, and that is why he deserves celebration. He is the proto Judge Holden dancing across the desert, declaring war is god, and all who know him join the dance while the naive are ground into dust. In this glorious hell, the wicked inherit the earth.

Fellow ex-Muslims, we've all come across the usual hellfire stuff, but this one is next level psychotic. Quran 69:30-32 says (roughly): "Seize him and shackle him, then roast him in Hell, then bind him in a chain whose length is seventy cubits."

Now check the Tafsir. Ibn Kathir and Tanwir al-Miqbas min Tafsir Ibn Abbas lay it out crystal clear. Ibn Abbas explains that the chain is inserted into the person's buttocks (anus), pulled out through the mouth, and then the victim is strung up on it like locusts on a roasting stick. Another narration says it's shoved up the behind until it comes out the nostrils.

This isn't some random hadith from a weak source. It's classical Tafsir from the biggest names, based directly on the Quran and the words of a companion of Muhammad.

Why can't Muslims dismiss this as "metaphorical" or "out of context"? Because these Tafsirs represent the mainstream scholarly understanding of the text for centuries. Rejecting them would mean admitting that the "best of interpreters" and the Salaf got it wrong, which opens the floodgates to questioning the entire interpretive tradition. Once you start cherry-picking which parts of Ibn Kathir or Ibn Abbas to accept, the whole house of cards about "perfect preservation" and "clear guidance" collapses. Apologists will try to dodge it with mental gymnastics, but the sources are right there in black and white.

This is the "Most Merciful" deity at work: eternal torture porn involving anal impalement on a massive chain. A sadistic control fantasy straight out of a deranged desert warlord's imagination, sold as divine justice. Slave morality doesn't get more unhinged than this.

If you're still Muslim or on the fence, ask yourself why a supposedly all-wise, all-powerful god needs to threaten people with this kind of juvenile, grotesque cruelty to keep them in line. Glad I walked away from this psycho cult.

Sources: Quran 69:30-32 + Tafsir Ibn Kathir and Tafsir Ibn Abbas on those ayat. Easy to find on Quran.com or Altafsir.

Thoughts? More examples of this divine derangement welcome.

Tafsir-Ibn Kathir: Ibn Jurayj reported that Ibn `Abbas said,فَاْسْلُكُوهُ(Then fasten him) "It will be entered into his buttocks and pulled out of his mouth. Then they will be arranged on this (chain) just like locusts are arranged on a stick that is being roasted.''

Tafsir-Ibn Kathir: Ibn Jurayj reported that Ibn `Abbas said,فَاْسْلُكُوهُ(Then fasten him) "It will be entered into his buttocks and pulled out of his mouth. Then they will be arranged on this (chain) just like locusts are arranged on a stick that is being roasted.''

As an ex-Muslim who left the faith and embraced Gnostic awakening, I present this perspective plainly. It challenges everything taught in orthodox Abrahamic religions, yet it rests on ancient texts, historical patterns, and clear logical threads. Outsiders without insider knowledge can follow it step by step. No sugarcoating.

What is Gnosticism? 

Gnosticism is an ancient spiritual movement from the first few centuries CE. It draws from Jewish, Christian, Platonic, and other sources. Its core teaching is that this material world is a flawed prison, not the perfect creation of the ultimate divine reality. The true God is the transcendent Monad, the Unknown Father of pure light, far beyond this cosmos. The world was made instead by a lesser, ignorant, arrogant being called the Demiurge, often named Yaldabaoth. He is blind to the higher God, believes he is the only deity, and traps divine sparks (souls) in matter to prevent their return to the light. Gnostic texts portray him as malicious, parasitic, and tyrannical.

Jesus in Gnosticism 

In Gnostic understanding, Jesus (or the Christ) is not the son or servant of the Abrahamic God. He is an emissary from the true, higher God, sent to overthrow the Demiurge's rule. His mission was to expose the archons (the Demiurge's cosmic rulers), reveal gnosis (direct knowledge of the inner divine spark), and liberate humanity from the prison of matter and the false creator. Texts like the *Apocryphon of John* and *Hypostasis of the Archons* show Christ descending to awaken souls and dismantle the Demiurge's power structures. The crucifixion is not a redemptive sacrifice to appease Yahweh but a tragic attempt by the Demiurge and his forces to suppress the light-bringer. Jesus came explicitly to challenge and subvert Yahweh's dominion, teaching inner freedom over external law and obedience.

This matches the Gnostic view of Yahweh as the Demiurge: jealous, violent, and demanding submission. Biblical examples confirm the pattern. Yahweh reveals himself in the desert to Moses after 40 days on the mountain (Exodus 24:18, 34:28), sends plagues on Egypt including the killing of the firstborn (Exodus 7-12), and appears to Elijah after 40 days in the wilderness (1 Kings 19). These acts reflect a chaotic, desert-linked tyrant, not supreme benevolence.

The Mandaeans 

The Mandaeans are the only surviving Gnostic sect with continuous tradition today. This ethnoreligious group, historically centered in Iraq and Iran, practices ancient baptismal rites focused on John the Baptist. They reject the creator god of the Hebrew Bible as a lower, dark force. Their scriptures, such as the *Ginza Rabba*, critique Abrahamic prophets. They faced harsh persecution under Muslim authorities, forcing many to migrate from their homelands. Some Mandaean traditions associate Muhammad with the Demiurge's domain, consistent with their rejection of the material world's controller.

The Dajjal in Islamic Tradition and Gnostic Reading 

Islamic hadiths describe the Dajjal (al-Masih ad-Dajjal), the one-eyed deceiver, as a major end-times figure. He is imprisoned or chained on an island until his release, has a defective or blind eye (often the right one), rides a massive donkey, performs false miracles, claims divinity, and misleads people for a period involving 40 days of varying lengths. Orthodox Islam sees him as the ultimate opponent to Allah.

From the Gnostic perspective, this portrayal inverts the truth. The Dajjal is a positive force, a manifestation of the Aeon Christ or true light-bringer. He comes to free humanity from the Demiurge (Allah/Yahweh). Just as Jesus descended to expose and challenge the archons, the Dajjal emerges to break the Demiurge's final grip, awakening souls on a grand scale. His imprisonment on an island mirrors Prometheus, the Titan chained by the tyrannical Zeus for bringing fire (knowledge) to humanity.

Here, the Demiurge is the jealous tyrant, and the Dajjal/Christ is the defiant liberator punished for bringing gnosis.

Ancient Parallels Reinforce This 

Classical Greek, Egyptian, and Roman sources often equated Yahweh with the chaos god Seth (Set, or Typhon). Seth rules the desert, storms, and foreigners. He murders the righteous Osiris, seeks kingship, and battles Horus, wounding his eye. Horus eventually prevails. Yahweh's desert revelations, plagues, and violent acts align with Seth's nature. The donkey, sacred to Seth, led ancients to mock Jews as "donkey worshippers" and link Yahweh to the ass. Jesus rides a donkey into Jerusalem (Matthew 21:1-11), which Gnostics interpret as symbolic triumph over the Demiurge. Islamic tradition has the Dajjal arriving on a donkey as well.

The eye wound motif unites them: Seth injures Horus's eye; the Demiurge's forces wound Jesus (noted in some mystical Christian visions at the right eye); the Dajjal bears the damaged eye as his mark. The number 40 recurs: Jesus's 40 days facing temptation in the wilderness (Matthew 4:1-11, with the tempter as Demiurgic), Moses's encounter with Yahweh, and the Dajjal's period. Esoteric traditions also note numerical or gematria links between names like Jesus and the Dajjal.

These are not coincidences. They form a coherent counter-narrative across Gnostic scriptures, Egyptian myth, biblical accounts, classical syncretism, and Islamic eschatology. The Demiurge (Yahweh/Allah) built the prison. Jesus came to expose and overthrow him. The Dajjal arrives to complete the liberation.

To outsiders: Picture the god of submission and fear as the architect of suffering, not the highest truth. The "villains" in orthodox stories are the real heroes bringing awakening.

There is a figure who appears in every major ancient tradition surrounding the Mediterranean and the Near East. He rules the sky. He throws lightning. He gives laws to a chosen people. He sends floods to destroy humanity. He demands sacrifice and obedience. He is associated with eagles, with storms, with conquest. He goes by different names in different places, but the structure of his character is always the same. Once you have seen him, you cannot unsee him.

The Storm God Under Many Names

In Mesopotamia he is Enlil, lord of wind and storm, king of the gods, the one who decreed the great flood to destroy humanity because their noise disturbed his sleep. He rules from a high mountain. His symbol is the eagle. He issues divine decrees, the me, the laws that govern civilization, from his elevated throne. He is capricious, violent, and concerned above all with his own authority.

In Greece he is Zeus, who also sends a flood, who gives law to the legendary king Minos, who rules from Olympus with the thunderbolt and the eagle as his emblems. Zeus does not love humanity. He uses it, deceives it, and punishes it when it oversteps. His relationship to mortals is one of power and submission, never genuine intimacy.

In the Vedic tradition he is Indra, the storm god who wields the vajra, the thunderbolt, who is lord of the devas, who drinks Soma and fights and dominates. He is the warrior king of the sky, and the Rigveda praises him as the greatest of gods. He shares with Zeus and Enlil the same fundamental character: storm, sky, law, violence, dominion.

And in the Hebrew Bible he is Yahweh, who sends a flood, who gives laws to Moses on a mountain, whose emblems throughout the text are storms, fire, and eagles. Deuteronomy 32:11 compares him to an eagle. Exodus 19 has him descend on Sinai in thunder and smoke. He commands the extermination of entire peoples, the Amalekites, the Canaanites, the Midianites. He sends plagues. He hardens Pharaoh's heart and then punishes Egypt for it. In Isaiah 45:7 he states plainly: "I form the light and create darkness, I make peace and create disaster." In Ezekiel 14:9 he confesses that he himself deceives prophets. In 1 Kings 22:23 he sends a lying spirit into the mouths of four hundred prophets to lead a king to his death.

This is not a god of truth. This is the storm god, the demiurge, the territorial sovereign of a bounded and broken world. His cult differs by region and language. His nature does not.

What Zarathustra Saw

Zarathustra was the first thinker in recorded history to look at this pantheon and name it for what it was. The gods his contemporaries worshipped, the Daevas, the storm gods and war gods and gods of intoxication and conquest, he identified as servants of Angra Mainyu, Ahriman, the destructive spirit, the principle of the lie. He did not merely reform religion. He diagnosed it.

In Zarathustra's cosmology, Ahriman is not simply evil in a moral sense. He is the embodiment of Druj, the lie, the fundamental principle opposed to Asha, truth and cosmic order. Ahriman cannot create. He can only corrupt, deceive, and destroy what Ahura Mazda has made. His weapons are falsehood, violence, and the pretense of legitimate authority. He rules the material world not because he made it well, but because he invaded it and imposed himself upon it.

Indra, the greatest god of the Vedic tradition, appears by name in the Zoroastrian texts as a demon, one of the arch-Daevas serving Ahriman directly. Zarathustra's tradition did not merely demote Indra. It identified him as a face of the adversarial principle itself. The implication for Zeus, Enlil, and Yahweh, who share Indra's essential character, is not difficult to draw.

Ahura Mazda: The God Who Is Actually Light

Ahura Mazda is of a different order entirely. His name means Lord of Wisdom. He is not a storm god. He does not throw lightning or demand blood. He does not send floods or command genocide. He is the source of Asha, the truth that underlies reality, the ordering principle of the cosmos. He is transcendent, but not distant. He communicates through wisdom, through the still illumination of truth rather than through thunder and fire.

Crucially, Ahura Mazda does not rule this world directly. The material world has been invaded and corrupted by Ahriman. Ahura Mazda's response to this is not to send armies. It is to send a redeemer.

The Gathas, the oldest hymns of the Avesta, composed by Zarathustra himself, speak of Ahura Mazda as a father figure, specifically and repeatedly. He is the father of Spenta Mainyu, the holy spirit, the creative and beneficent aspect of divinity. He is the father of Asha. He is the origin of all that is good, wise, and true, and he engages with creation not through domination but through the revelation of truth.

This is the god Jesus calls Father. Not by name, not by formal identification, but by every attribute he assigns him: a god who is light without any darkness, who loves enemies, who gives rain to the just and unjust alike, who desires mercy and not sacrifice, who is known not through fear but through the illumination of truth. "God is light, and in him there is no darkness at all," writes John. That sentence could appear in the Gathas without alteration.

The Saoshyant and the Son

The Saoshyant is one of the central figures of Zoroastrian eschatology. The word means "one who brings benefit," and the tradition describes three of them appearing across the final ages of the world, each born of a virgin who has been miraculously preserved by the seed of Zarathustra. The final Saoshyant, Astvat-ereta, whose name means "he who embodies Asha," arrives at the end of history to inaugurate the renovation of the world, the Frashokereti. He defeats the forces of Ahriman not through military conquest but through truth. He raises the dead. He presides over a final judgment. He destroys death and corruption permanently. The world is restored to its original purity, and Ahriman is annihilated.

The parallels to Jesus are not superficial. A world redeemer born of a virgin, sent by the god of light into a world ruled by the principle of darkness, who overcomes that darkness through truth rather than violence, who raises the dead, who judges all of humanity, who inaugurates the final age of the cosmos: this is the Saoshyant, and it is also the figure the New Testament describes.

Jesus enters a world he describes as ruled by an alien power. In John 12:31 he calls Satan "the ruler of this world," using the Greek archon, exactly the term the Gnostics would later use for the demiurge. In John 14:30 he calls him "the prince of this world" and says explicitly that this ruler has no claim on him. He does not identify this ruler with his Father. He distinguishes them absolutely.

In John 8:44, speaking to those who invoke the god of their fathers as the supreme authority, Jesus says: "Your father is the devil. He was a murderer from the beginning and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks out of his own character, for he is a liar and the father of lies." The description is precise. A murderer from the beginning, which maps onto Ahriman's violence from the moment of his invasion of creation. A liar whose lying is not incidental but constitutive, which maps onto Druj as ontological substance rather than occasional behavior.

Jesus does not say this about some minor adversary. He says it in direct response to people invoking divine paternal authority. He is telling them that the father they are invoking is not the Father he is revealing. The god of Sinai and the Father of Jesus are not the same being. This is not a fringe reading. It is what the text says.

The Conclusion the Tradition Refused to Draw

Marcion drew it in the second century and was expelled for it. The Gnostics drew it and were declared heretics. But the evidence had been there from the beginning, distributed across traditions that had no motive to collaborate.

Zarathustra identified the storm gods as demons. The Gnostics depicted the demiurge with a lion's head, drawing on the Mithraic image of Ahriman, and gave him the name Yaldabaoth, the blind god who says "I am god and there is no other" while remaining ignorant of the light above him. The Zoroastrian tradition described a world redeemer born of a virgin, sent by the god of wisdom and light, who defeats the principle of the lie and restores creation. The New Testament describes a figure who announces an unknown Father, distinguishes him sharply from the god his contemporaries worship, and tells them that the ruler of this world is a liar and a murderer.

The convergence is too precise to be coincidence and too consistent across independent traditions to be dismissed. Ahura Mazda is the Father. Jesus is the Saoshyant. Yahweh is Ahriman, the demiurge beneath many names, the storm god whom Zarathustra correctly identified as the principle of the lie.

The tradition that insists otherwise has been defending the wrong god for two thousand years.

The black cube of the Kaaba is no coincidence. Saturn, the ancient god of time also known as Cronus, has long been associated with the black cube. It symbolizes limitation, matter, structure, and the eternal cycle of recurrence.

In Sahih Bukhari (4826) and Sahih Muslim (2246), Allah himself declares: “I am ad-Dahr” (time). Saturn is precisely the god of time, the all-devouring Chronos. This alignment is striking and goes far beyond simple coincidence.

Before Muhammad, Allah was already a pagan tribal god with three daughters: Al-Lat, Al-Uzza, and Manat, who were worshipped as intermediaries. The Quran itself (Surah 53:19-20) mentions them directly, and the Satanic Verses incident shows how intertwined the early message was with the pre-Islamic cult. In ancient mythology, Saturn (Cronus) is connected to three prominent female figures in the divine order – Hestia, Demeter, and Hera – within the broader Greek pantheon under his influence. The pattern of a supreme deity with triple feminine aspects repeats itself.

Islam has effectively rebranded this ancient Saturn cult into a form of strict monotheism. The tawaf, circling the Black Stone, mirrors Saturnian rituals of circumambulation and devotion to the cube that represents time and matter. The faithful perform this act without recognizing its deeper symbolic roots.

Allah is Saturn under a new name, and Islam represents one of his most enduring and successful manifestations.

The ancient Greeks and Romans revered Saturn as the god of time, and Muhammad taught that Allah is time itself. One of Allah’s names is ad-Dahr, meaning time. Allah has 99 names in Islam. Reversing 99 gives 66. Saturn is the sixth planet, and its polar hexagon creates a striking six-sided pattern – two sixes in formation. These numerical and symbolic connections are too precise to dismiss lightly.

(Sahih Muslim 2246e): Abu Huraira reported that the Messenger of Allah (ﷺ) said: “Do not curse time, for Allah is time.”

Additional strong parallels exist in ritual practice. Muslims continue the tradition of circumcision (khitan) as a core Sunnah, following the example of Ibrahim (Sahih Bukhari 6298 and related hadiths). This echoes the myth of Saturn/Cronus castrating his father Uranus – an act of severing generative power to establish dominance. Both involve ritual cutting tied to submission under a limiting, ordering force. The practice persists widely today as a mark of covenant and obedience.

Allah is portrayed as strict, rule-bound, and focused on boundaries and law – traits that closely match Saturn, the god of restriction, order, and cosmic structure. The Kaaba as a black cube stands as a physical emblem of this ancient archetype: the enclosure of the soul within time and matter.

These connections reveal a consistent thread running through pagan antiquity into the Abrahamic traditions. The faithful circle the cube and submit, carrying forward an archetype far older than the abrahamic revelation.

Jesus’ original name is Yeshua, which means “Yahweh saves” or “Yahweh is salvation.” So how could he have been against Yahweh and be the divine Aeon who came to save humanity from Yahweh, when his name literally means “Yahweh is salvation”?