How or what to pray in my free time
I've been falling into despair alot since last year, I've been getting up and falling down but I'm tired of failing God and I want that relationship with Him again. I've been so lost when it comes to prayers. For example, when I'm walking alone, I used to speak alot, then I started to get repetitive. Now I got to a point where I got nothing to say, so I just stay silent, which pushes me more into despair, and even when im silent, i hear and feel nothing, just a void. Besides those conversations, I of course pray the Jesus prayer, always ask for mercy when I'm convicted, thanking Him for everything, and I just genuinely want to please Him. Any suggestions would be appreciated