u/DatXeanres

The chef sat me together with the woman who made the complaints and scolded me for not being hygenic enough in the kitchen and stinking. I talked to the chef and asked him why this conversation couldnt be private because it was humiliating being scolded in front of the person who is supervising me.

I then had a mental breakdown and got send home.

After writing a messege that I am sorry for my breskdown (I am an unmedicated autist, I didnt have money at all, this was my dirst week at the job) and promised I would be better but I got fired nonetheless.

I am in Germany. Does anyone know what I do now? I dont have any money and I needed that minimum wage job crucially to survive.

Now I dont know if I will ever get a job again and applying for Bürgergeld in my condition is impossible.

Edit: Thank you all for the help. I don't have a washing machine though. And I dont have the money to go to a laundromat now. I need recommendations on how to get money if possible. I have no money at all. My shower is falling apart too and is infested with spiders. I cant move out because, well, no money. If anyone could help me in thatvregard that would be nice.

The chef sat me together with the woman who made the complaints and scolded me for not being hygenic enough in the kitchen and stinking. I talked to the chef and asked him why this conversation couldnt be private because it was humiliating being scolded in front of the person who is supervising me.

I then had a mental breakdown and got send home.

After writing a messege that I am sorry for my breskdown (I am an unmedicated autist, I didnt have money at all, this was my dirst week at the job) and promised I would be better but I got fired nonetheless.

I am in Germany. Does anyone know what I do now? I dont have any money and I needed that minimum wage job crucially to survive.

Now I dont know if I will ever get a job again and applying for Bürgergeld in my condition is impossible.

​Hi everyone,

​I’m writing this from a place of deep crisis. I live in Aachen, Germany; I am Autistic (though currently without an official diagnosis) and I’m stuck in a downward spiral that I cannot escape on my own.

​The Jobcenter has stopped my benefits, which means my health insurance is currently suspended. The Jobcenter refuses to reinstate my health insurance until I am fully approved for Bürgergeld, but they are making the application process impossibly difficult to complete. As a result, I have no access to my antidepressants. Without this medication, my nervous system collapses under even the slightest bit of stress. Despite this, the Jobcenter still expects me to be actively looking for work and attending appointments, even though I have no money for food, my apartment is barely habitable due to mold/pests, and my mental health is dying.

And ​I am truly trying. This month alone, I completed four unpaid trial shifts in kitchen jobs. I’m motivated and I work hard, but in the end, I get "ghosted" every single time. I clearly don’t "fit in" socially, or perhaps the visible stress of being unmedicated is too much for them. It feels like I’m trying to sell my soul for jobs that just spit me back out anyway.

​I can’t keep going like this. The constant rejection and the bureaucratic pressure are destroying me.

How can I earn a living without forcing myself into industries where, because of my autism, I don't stand a chance?

Thank you all for reading.

​Hi everyone,

​I’m writing this from a place of deep crisis. I live in Aachen, Germany; I am Autistic (though currently without an official diagnosis) and I’m stuck in a downward spiral that I cannot escape on my own.

​

​The Jobcenter has stopped my benefits, which means my health insurance is currently suspended. The Jobcenter refuses to reinstate my health insurance until I am fully approved for Bürgergeld, but they are making the application process impossibly difficult to complete. As a result, I have no access to my antidepressants. Without this medication, my nervous system collapses under even the slightest bit of stress. Despite this, the Jobcenter still expects me to be actively looking for work and attending appointments, even though I have no money for food, my apartment is barely habitable due to mold/pests, and my mental health is dying.

And ​I am truly trying. This month alone, I completed four unpaid trial shifts in kitchen jobs. I’m motivated and I work hard, but in the end, I get "ghosted" every single time. I clearly don’t "fit in" socially, or perhaps the visible stress of being unmedicated is too much for them. It feels like I’m trying to sell my soul for jobs that just spit me back out anyway.

​I can’t keep going like this. The constant rejection and the bureaucratic pressure are destroying me.

​

How can I earn a living without forcing myself into industries where, because of my autism, I don't stand a chance?

​

Thank you all for reading.

Hello. I'm an autistic woman in Aachen looking for a minimum wage job for over half a year now.

The first trial shift made me clean up refrigirators, floors, fill sauces up into containers, prepare ready made food in cans and help serve a few people. No reply after that.

The second one was in a turkish shop. I helped sell some baklava, cleaned up and prepared some tables, watched the turkish speaking people how they prepared their stuff, washed a few plates, filled up dips. No reply after that.

The latest one yesterday I was helping making some breakfast plates, making coffee for the people, washing a few plates and just watching how every dish was made. I asked for feedback. No feedback. No reply after that.

And all of them shared the same thing: "I guess there isnt much to do today." I would make sure to ask if I could help. And I watched because the chef told me thats important. I asked questions and dud my best. But no one ever replies and no one gives me feedback or tells me what I did wrong.

I am so poor I am wearing no underwear everyday. I am eating one meal a day because I cakt afford more. I havent seen a cinema, swimming pool or club in over a year since i started the job search. Im behind on rent in an appartment thats full of mice and spiders and where the water leaks from upstairs. The Aachen Jobcenter is doing everything in its power to NOT give me Bürgergeld. I need antidepressants and therapy becsuse I am autistic and heavily depressed but my health card is blocked and the Jobcenter refuses to help me until I get five hundred documents that constantly change each time I send them some. I am not finding reasons to live and if I don't get help soon I will very likely kill myself because this world is not made for me.

Hello. I'm an autistic woman in Aachen looking for a minimum wage job for over half a year now.

The first trial shift made me clean up refrigirators, floors, fill sauces up into containers, prepare ready made food in cans and help serve a few people. No reply after that.

The second one was in a turkish shop. I helped sell some baklava, cleaned up and prepared some tables, watched the turkish speaking people how they prepared their stuff, washed a few plates, filled up dips. No reply after that.

The latest one yesterday I was helping making some breakfast plates, making coffee for the people, washing a few plates and just watching how every dish was made. I asked for feedback. No feedback. No reply after that.

And all of them shared the same thing: "I guess there isnt much to do today." I would make sure to ask if I could help. And I watched because the chef told me thats important. I asked questions and dud my best. But no one ever replies and no one gives me feedback or tells me what I did wrong.

I am so poor I am wearing no underwear everyday. I am eating one meal a day because I cakt afford more. I havent seen a cinema, swimming pool or club in over a year since i started the job search. Im behind on rent in an appartment thats full of mice and spiders and where the water leaks from upstairs. The Aachen Jobcenter is doing everything in its power to NOT give me Bürgergeld. I need antidepressants and therapy becsuse I am autistic and heavily depressed but my health card is blocked and the Jobcenter refuses to help me until I get five hundred documents that constantly change each time I send them some. I am not finding reasons to live and if I don't get help soon I will very likely kill myself because this world is not made for me.

The first trial shift made me clean up refrigirators, floors, fill sauces up into containers, prepare ready made food in cans and help serve a few people. No reply after that.

The second one was in a turkish shop. I helped sell some baklava, cleaned up and prepared some tables, watched the turkish speaking people how they prepared their stuff, washed a few plates, filled up dips. No reply after that.

The latest one yesterday I was helping making some breakfast plates, making coffee for the people, washing a few plates and just watching how every dish was made. I asked for feedback. No feedback. No reply after that.

And all of them shared the same thing: I guess there isnt much to do today. I would make sure to ask if I could help. And I watched because the chef told me thats important. I asked questions and dud my best. But no one ever replies and no one gives me feedback or tells me what I did wrong.

I am so poor I am wearing no underwear everyday. I am eating one meal a day because I cakt afford more. I havent seen a cinema, swimming pool or club in over a year since i started the job search. Im behind on rent in an appartment thats full of mice and spiders and where the water leaks from upstairs. The Aachen Jobcenter is doing everything in its power to NOT give me Bürgergeld. I need antidepressants and therapy becsuse I am autistic and heavily depressed but my health card is blocked and the Jobcenter refuses to help me until I get five hundred documents that constantly change each time I send them some. I am conscidering robbing a place because either I will get caught and I go to jail which would be better then what I am living through right now or I would get away and have some money to survive for a few months while I keep bamging my head against a wall.

The first trial shift made me clean up refrigirators, floors, fill sauces up into containers, prepare ready made food in cans and help serve a few people. No reply after that.

The second one was in a turkish shop. I helped sell some baklava, cleaned up and prepared some tables, watched the turkish speaking people how they prepared their stuff, washed a few plates, filled up dips. No reply after that.

Nos the latest one yesterday I was helping making some breakfast plates, making coffee for the people, washing a few plates and just watching how every dish was made. I asked for feedback. No feedback. No reply after that.

And all of them shared the same thing: I guess there isnt much to do today. I would make sure to ask if I could help. And I watched because the chef told me thats important. I asked questions and dud my best. But no one ever replies and no one gives me feedback or tells me what I did wrong.

I am so poor I am wearing no underwear everyday. I am eating one meal a day because I cakt afford more. I havent seen a cinema, swimming pool or club in over a year since i started the job search. Im behind on rent in an appartment thats full of mice and spiders and where the water leaks from upstairs. The Aachen Jobcenter is doing everything in its power to NOT give me Bürgergeld. I need antidepressants and therapy becsuse I am autistic and heavily depressed but my health card is blocked and the Jobcenter refuses to help me until I get five hundred documents that constantly change each time I send them some. I am conscidering robbing a place because either I will get caught and I go to jail which would be better then what I am living through right now or I would get away and have some money to survive for a few months while I keep bamging my head against a wall.

The first trial shift made me clean up refrigirators, floors, fill sauces up into containers, prepare ready made food in cans and help serve a few people. No reply after that.

The second one was in a turkish shop. I helped sell some baklava, cleaned up and prepared some tables, watched the turkish speaking people how they prepared their stuff, washed a few plates, filled up dips. No reply after that.

Nos the latest one yesterday I was helping making some breakfast plates, making coffee for the people, washing a few plates and just watching how every dish was made. I asked for feedback. No feedback. No reply after that.

And all of them shared the same thing: I guess there isnt much to do today. I would make sure to ask if I could help. And I watched because the chef told me thats important. I asked questions and dud my best. But no one ever replies and no one gives me feedback or tells me what I did wrong.

I am so poor I am wearing no underwear everyday. I am eating one meal a day because I cakt afford more. I havent seen a cinema, swimming pool or club in over a year since i started the job search. Im behind on rent in an appartment thats full of mice and spiders and where the water leaks from upstairs. The Aachen Jobcenter is doing everything in its power to NOT give me Bürgergeld. I need antidepressants and therapy becsuse I am autistic and heavily depressed but my health card is blocked and the Jobcenter refuses to help me until I get five hundred documents that constantly change each time I send them some. I am conscidering robbing a place because either I will get caught and I go to jail which would be better then what I am living through right now or I would get away and have some money to survive for a few months while I keep bamging my head against a wall.

I'm about to whore myself out, commit crimes or kill myself I can't do this anymore.