u/DeBounty_

Hey, im a tech savvy guy, and really love computers. But what i love more are cars. The only problem, is that while im 21(22 in 2 days), I know barely anything about cars. I play a few car games, like forza horizon 5 and 6, and assetto corza competizione, but I dont know how accurate forza horizon is to car builds. My dad has been a mechanic for 20+ years, so i could ask him as well on anything, but im trying to get as much info as I can.

The point is that im trying to save up for a project car. Something I buy from a scrapyard and work on for a while. May take me a while, but thats why its a project right?

Anything helps.

We originally broke up at the beginning of the year. I(21M) was going off for another army contract, but in germany, and she(20F) was going off to college. We both tried to do our best, but only after 10 days of me in Germany, she left me. Our year and a half relationship, gone. She lifted me up from a dark time of mine, and now has left me. She told me though that there would be a possibility of us getting back together, and she likely wont date for many years while trying to find herself.

A few months later, I found out I was being deployed. I didnt tell her until after I got out there, and obviously she was worried. We spoke about it and I tried talking some reason to her that I will be safe. Near the end of it, she stated "I miss you, alot" and I said the same thing back. I still cared. I still held onto hope.

Just yesterday, we both agreed to call, to catch up. In the first little bit of it, she told me "I figured it should let you know, I've been seeing other people." This completely devastated me. I asked her what made her want to do so, and she said that she needed to get experience in her life. We hung up shortly after as she needed to go.

In the next few messages, she stated that I will always have a place in her heart, yet she will never get back with me. She wants me to move on. She said that while she was seeing someone, it doesnt mean she will date them. She still needs a few months to cope.

Im completely devastated once more. I feel betrayed, lost, unloved, and most of all, unable to move on from this. I know this is just a stepping block for my life, but I genuinely put in the time, effort, and finance all into making this work. Should have I gotten out after my first contract, and maybe we wouldve worked? Absolutely. But I chose to do another, because of some family situations that I feared I wouldnt be able to afford if I got out.

Just, if any of you have some advice, i would like it. Ive been given advice about how she was shit, how she was terrible. But I still see her as someone that was a decent human being.

Edit: i am actively trying to do things like workout and such. But honestly I just want to chat to people to clear my head.