Just got back from my follow up appointment
I had my first follow up appointment today since the beginning of January. I had my last IPL (4th) at that time so this follow up was to see how my eyes are doing. My dry eye specialist doesn't love the schirmers test because she says it can vary so much but I always request that she still does it so I can track my tear production and she's great about doing it for me.
In January my schirmers test was a 5 and 6 with numbing drops after 5 mins. Today they were exactly the same - 5 and 6. And it just barely was a 5 so you could argue it was just passed 4.
Anyway, she said I had no dry spots except one super tiny one that she showed me but it was very small and my eyes actually looked good. My main symptoms are burning somedays which is by far the worst symptom for me because I struggle to keep my eyes open and other days my eyelids burn which I think is due to not having enough tears and there being constant dry friction when I blink. Other days my eyes are okay and I just manage with drops and it's fine.
I have a positive ANA and negative antibodies for Sjogrens but I am scheduled for a lip biopsy soon to get a definitive diagnosis because sometimes antibodies can be negative and the biopsy is positive.
I guess what I'm saying is I'm really nervous. I'm so scared that I might have Sjogrens and what that means for my future. It is such a scary disease from what I have read and I'm just nervous. I also am nervous to try sclerals (in the process of trying to get them covered because they are too expensive out of pocket) and worried they won't work for me and I'll be stuck in my high prescription glasses forever which just adds to all of this being super shitty. I know being in glasses isnt the worst but mine are such high prescription that it really messes with my self esteem. That's all. I just needed to vent.
Oh also, she pushed on my glands in the slit lamp and said they're producing great oil and it's coming out just fine so idk where that leaves me. Maybe I don't have MGD at all? But I know my glands in one eye are slightly shortened.
And the other thing is, is it worth going to a specialist that does all the fancy testing and stuff? Idk what that would change for me but I know some doctors do like the advanced testing that shows your lipid layer density and all that. I have a meibography and I did the NIBUT and shirmer but that's all I've done. Curious what yalls opinions are.