You don’t realise how primitive modern medicine still is until you get dry eyes
Growing up, I always had the impression that medicine had become so advanced that there was a fix for almost everything except cancer, which everyone made such a big deal about because it seemed like the only disease there wasn’t a cure or truly effective treatment for.
It’s astonishing to think that people are still being sent away and told to use warm compresses and some drops for dry eyes and blepharitis, especially when warm compresses only made things so much worse for me.
If I had known this, I think I would have been far more careful about my eye health. I wouldn’t have spent so much time on screens, and I would have been much more diligent about eyelid hygiene, which is something I was never once told to do growing up (not even by all the optometrists I saw whenever I got new glasses.)
I have so many regrets, and they haunt me. I know my eyes are as bad as they are because I was reckless, earnestly and foolishly believing that I could rely on medicine to provide a quick fix if things ever got bad, and that would be it and I could just get on with my life. It was pure ignorance on my part.
But in a way, I’m not sure whether some of my lack of diligence was also a good thing. If I had been more diligent, I probably would have just done warm compresses every day, as advised by many optometrists after I got a chalazion six years ago (thinking all optometrists must know best and not questioning them). If I had followed that advice for six years, I can only imagine how much worse my dry eyes might have become and even earlier, since I have ocular rosacea, and no optometrist (or the one ophthalmologist I saw ever) told me I had it. My eyes became much worse and unbearable when I started doing warm compresses every day at the beginning of this year.
The sad thing is that even if I had been more diligent and careful, the treatments recommended by optometrists are so primitive that they would not have done me any good and made things even worse, so it’s like I was always bound to end up where I was.