u/Delicious-Function19

Self blame

There WAS a cloud roaming around because it had no place to call home.

Someone threw shit in the sky, or let’s just say the toilet bag of airplane just opened up in sky.

The cloud became angry, miserable and in those moments of vibrating with emotions, he caused a shitstorm.

Later most people on earth sent kites in sky saying “you are evil”, so that cloud knows that it is his fault.

Now the cloud is gloomy, because he noticed that on his spiritual journey that water vapours have not been something that were in his control ever. He is not made to control the water vapours in cloud. At some point, it will always rain, whether it wants it or not. And until then he may continue living normally, ignoring the kites in sky.

But the blame from others and his natural actions of raining shit from sky due to someone else’s actions, is something which makes him want to seclude close to some higher mountain, so that he would not be blown away by wind.

But mountains have their own choices. And some of them consider him a parasite for putting his shoulder against them. Some mountains want sunlight, rather than sad and gloomy cloud.

With no place to go in the world, what should cloud do, if immediate dispersal is not in near future, or it must be something that needs planning, like going in a desert and killing itself, to feed water to some cacti 🌵.

It is hard to find a mountain in world where cloud should seek support.

If cloud was to be awakened spiritually, it may become so even in last stage of disappearing in desert, or it may happen by observing and nourishing life near mountain in some valley or it may just precipitate when winter hits the area of mountains. Some mountains may blame him for the ice or hail too.

It may find enlightenment, even while pouring as hailstorm and letting itself disappear in that form.

The possibilities are endless but the cloud feels like he needs an anchor around a mountain bigger than him. People say that there are plenty of fish in the sea, but there are lesser bigger mountains, who have patience to tolerate the clouds, which may suffocate them and block the sunlight.

So what should the cloud do, when even the mountain which is supposed to be its shelter and home, could possibly blame it for having water vapour.

Where should the cloud go, if some river told him that letting himself disappear in a desert is not a good choice and is considered bad.

Could you awakened ones suggest something for the existential crisis of the cloud?

The cloud in homeless, has no job, no support system of any mountain but economy is bad for a cloud to persist alone. His emotions and health does not allow him to do job any job of nourishing lower plain areas.

With inability to work like normal cloud, where should it go?

Can people who are expert in this, try the following two set of options, when they AP and comment the results? It may help us figure out our reality a much better way.

Goal 1: Reach personal soul blueprint at life start point. Reason: This shows chosen lessons and traps that create your survival struggles so you can detach from them.

Goal 2: Access collective records of past souls who broke free from weak positions. Reason: This maps inner methods like focus and surrender that reduce energy loss to control systems.

Goal 3: Link to source field beyond illusion. Reason: This reveals all power games as temporary thoughts allowing temporary peace from daily grind.

All returns could be filtered by human limits. Benefits form them need daily ruthless action or they stay useless distraction in the control loop.

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About Nodes, where time or consciousness or major shifts happen in history of humanity (example: Discovery of a wheel/fire/ making bread etc.)

All nodes form one closed loop or structure, which is sometimes called samsara wheel or reincarnation cycle inside illusion.

Goal 1: See full toroidal net structure from source to fragments and back. Reason: This exposes every personal and collective target as part of same training simulator for consciousness growth.

Goal 2: Map how weak and powerful roles connect in the loop. Reason: This cuts blind spots of fairness so common human stops wasting energy on victim feelings.

Goal 3: Identify exit mechanics via frequency rise. Reason: This shows surrender dissolves identification but physical reality stays unchanged without consistent present action.
Total form is bounded game arena. Understanding alone gives zero real benefit.

If you met goddess in dream, and through one of the maya forms, she somehow gets a promise from you because you were too lost in her illusion and acted like you honestly would in that situation, does that promise that you made in dreams hold true in real life?

Dream 1: I am jobless now and in my dream also I was jobless.
A lady acting like transgender appeared in a dream and I noticed her sandles, which weren’t branded or new, and heels were made of wood. My curiosity about height made me take sandles off her feet and look at them curiously. I even wore those sandles and to see if my feet hurt in them too.

I promised her that I would buy her better sandles, once I get a job. And she pointed me to a road, where branded white loafers were there for being stolen. They must have fallen off a carrying truck or come out of a car after accident. They would have suited a man and I counted it a blessing to have found brand new ones, lying around on road. They suited me more than her, and thought in that moment that she gifted them to me. I did not think that she was asking to bring those to her, and the dream broke by itself.

Dream 2: I was in home of someone else, wanted to rush back to mine. Three ladies of different ages got me involved in small talk before I could go out of the home. One of them asked if I would let another stay in home with me. I lived alone and having a girl over, would be looked with different eyes by neighbours. But I agreed.

In both dreams, I made a vow/promise.

Do those promises hold true in real life?
Should I buy some women’s sandles and gift them to some temple of goddess? What size they should be? What if goddess does arrive in home and I fail to respect her properly?

If you met goddess in dream, and through one of the maya forms, she somehow gets a promise from you because you were too lost in her illusion and acted like you honestly would in that situation, does that promise that you made in dreams hold true in real life?

Dream 1: I am jobless now and in my dream also I was jobless.
A lady acting like transgender appeared in a dream and I noticed her sandles, which weren’t new or branded and heels were made of wood. My curiosity about height made me take sandles off her feet and look at them curiously. I even wore those sandles and to see if my feet hurt in them too.

I promised her that I would buy her better sandles, once I get a job. And she pointed me to a road, where branded white loafers were there for being stolen. They must have fallen off a carrying truck or come out of a car after accident. They would have suited a man and I counted it a blessing to have found brand new ones, lying around on road. They suited me more than her, and thought in that moment that she gifted them to me. I did not think that she was asking to bring those to her, and the dream broke by itself.

Dream 2: I was in home of someone else, wanted to rush back to mine. Three ladies of different ages got me involved in small talk before I could go out of the home. One of them asked if I would let another stay in home with me. I lived alone and having a girl over, would be looked with different eyes by neighbours. But I agreed.

In both dreams, I made a vow/promise.

Do those promises hold true in real life?
Should I buy some women’s sandles and gift them to some temple of goddess? What size they should be? What if goddess does arrive in home and I fail to respect her properly?