Thanks to a member on Reddit who has helped me discover that I am indeed a Christo Pagan. Anyone else here a Christo Pagan? Anyone know how I should get started? I prayed to God and told him I figured out my faith. What else do I need to do? I want to honour Selene the Moon Goddess.
I’ve head extreme apathy my entire life and there’s not point to my existence. Don’t care about anything except my soul dog who died. Should I just kill myself? Nothing to live for.
If you made a pact with someone important in a past life that if they died in this life that you commit suicide shortly after? Would you do it? Even if you feel no urge to do it at all?
So I put my dog down a week ago because she had a few medical issues and had a hard time breathing. She was 13. I don’t know why but I feel like I should be more sad about it because I feel disconnected from my emotions. Feels like I don’t care about anything. I don’t like this. I also care at the same time because I’m constantly worrying in my head and wondering if I was a good dog mom. There are a lot of things I was I did different with her. I just am having a hard time crying. Anyone know why I could be feeling like this? Is this a normal experience? I didn’t want her to be suffering. I just can’t turn the thoughts off in my head about things I should have done better. I’ve been out doing things maybe I am running away from trying not to think about her?
How do I be more friendly and talk to people more? The only ones I talk to are my neighbours in the same building because I’m comfortable with them. I’m socially awkward with certain people and I tend to avoid people especially my age. I also should be nicer to the cashiers I see often and actually say hi but I overthink it wondering if they would think I’m weird? Anyone else like this? If they are nice to me I’ll say hi but if it feels like they don’t like me I won’t say anything cause I don’t want to be annoying. Ugh it’s like I always have to be liked or something and I’m noticing people are getting colder around me.
I feel dead inside. I have depression, anxiety and ADHD. I am on like 10 medications. I have no interest in socializing. All I want to do is be alone with my dog. Conversation is hard and listening to others is hard. I don’t care about anything. I don’t work. I have no hobbies. All I look forward to is taking my next medication and staying in bed. I can’t sleep, I just stay up and think all night worrying. I am trying to do better habits, but they just aren’t sticking. I worry I am a bad dog mom. I only care about me. This is concerning. Anyone else feel like this? Any advice? Even tv and movies barely interest me and everything is scaring me lately. I feel like I am a phony around people.