u/Designer-Gift-2390

You ever use a ref for art (to study), realize how awful it looks when you drew it and lost all motivation to keep doing it?

Thats me rn

Edit: im gonna try again-

Edit 2: then I got so worked up about it I didnt really try again 🥀 looks horrific either way

Im looking for one because i need to make some neons but I really have a hard time grinding. If someone loves grinding (unlike me) and wants to help out, please comment or dm!

Btw, ill have a couple neons i need to make. You dont have to grind for like 12 hours but im looking for at minimum around 20 min (idk if thats really a short amount of time to make neons 🥹)

Only using family method btw!

So i used to do commissions for a subreddit named r/robloxcommissions. I quit though. Multiple times. 5-6 times. Why do i keep coming back? First I asked what to fix with my art and people told me it looked unfinished or to quit entirely because it wasnt good enough. Got that today too on r/arthelp. That i shouldn't do comms because i was struggling to much (which is another why I quit honestly I have a LOT of trouble). All the feedback of just quitting got to me honestly. Im young so im fragile lol so I cried about this every single time i got hit with "you shouldn't do comms". I thought you could do them at any age and have fun with it! I posted once a day for maybe 5 DAYS on how to price something, and i didnt even get a response. That also made me feel like my art was completely worthless, or not worth people's time on. Got a downvote or 2 too with those posts.

This all makes me feel like im not good enough for jack shit. That I should quit comms and leave. I want to be a commission artist when I get older too but this just makes me feel like I cant.

Ofc I need to improve, but its hard. I have a really hard time practicing unless I get an urge to. Its really repetitive and boring and just underwhelming. I dont even see improvement sometimes.

I really hope I can get better and maybe get to the point i CAN start comms again, but im struggling so much on simple things (like an eye in side profile, lips in side profile, the nose etc) that i cant right now. Its really hard for me to practice but I like to look at photos of anatomy which idk if it helps but I like to think it does.

Again, im young, so im fragile lol. My emotions are unstable. But i still have a hard time trying to cope with comms after this. 🥲

Edit: i have a feeling now I should quit art entirely which wont happen but its saddening to me i thought about that. Im just happy they gave genuine feedback that I shouldnt be doing this anymore 🥲

So our toilet had some problems. Sometimes itd flush and other times not. She didnt want to fix it. Why? ITS EXPENSIVE. So she let the toilet like that for WEEKS. The problem persisted for WEEKS on end and she never fixed it due to being expensive. She could of just fixed it for cheap sooner but no. Even my mom said her cousin could put in a new toilet for FREE and she refused. Now, shes buying an entirely new toilet for 900$ USD.

My grandma waits till its to late to fix things. We currently have small leaks in our house due to the rain (its a 1950s house too) that shes not fixing ASAP. She just put a bucket under the leak and let it go. She COULD just fix it now while the problem is small, or she could fix it WAY to late and have it be more expensive.

Now that in 2 days its going to be the first day of 9th grade, im actually VERY worried. Mostly because I wont be able to find my classes. The map feels like one thing and the actual school feels like another. It feels like the maps inverted or something. I found my locker very easily the second time I went to school (orientation was for a couple days, I went most of those days to prepare every single time.) And I found the E hall! But.. on the map you have to go straight down from the foyer to get to the e hall. I made a turn. This confused me pretty bad. It reminds me of the time I found the S hall the first time my family went with me and it was actually the E hall? Its labeled as S but the classes were Es. Im afraid when i go in that hall it'll be Ws or something.

Its all likely anxiety as I bet I got it from my mom, but i feel stunted now. Theres also going to be WAY more kids in 10th-12th grade who've already been in this school once before and know where to go. I dont. I dont even have siblings who could guide me or smth. Id feel embarrassed if I were to use the map they gave us in orientation.. and I CANNOT ask someone for help. Id likely cry from stress if I had to, I never could ask for help and i literally gained a habit of holding in urine all day long since 1st grade. I was to afraid to just ask for the bathroom.

Im sure it'll all go fine but my parents had a hard time maneuvering around (and my mom went to this high school.. albeit a long time ago lol) and its partially my fault for not asking to go around to each class one more time. It was to late when I wanted to. Im glad I can find my first class easily but my 2nd period is on the other side of the building. I dont even know how to get there.

Ill probably send another post ON my first day to tell you how it went, but my hypothesis is it'll honestly be fine. I was late for my first period in 7th grade (middle school) because I kept going the wrong way.

(Im also very proud of myself for using proper grammar here as 90% of my normal text messages to friends and family is made up of emojis lmao)

There isnt many out there in my experience. Most of them use keys or just paid. Cant do paid and with keys are annoying lol!

If theres none out there keyless I will resort to keyed sadly. I just REALLY prefer keyless! Thank you!