u/DesignerImpact2000

I'm 18 and live in Australia, for as long as I can remember I've wanted to be a vet and help animals. The one thing that stopped me, was the fact I would have to do euthanasia. After doing more research at 14 years old I decided to put it to the side and look at other career options. That's when I came across dog grooming, long story short I've been grooming dogs for 4 years now (learnt from professionals ofc). Throughout my time grooming, I've seen so many cases of skin conditions, rotted teeth, infected ears, embedded grass seeds, etc. I like the fact I can help these dogs to an extent, help them feel more comfortable or recommend a vet trip. It reminds me why I wanted to be a vet in the first place. Could you give me a list of pros and cons ? And any information I may need to know ? I'm heavily considering going down this path

2 years ago I was in a relationship with a guy a few months younger than me (I was 16 so was he). At that point in life I was working through really bad depression and anxiety. When I was 6 my oldest brother (who was 10 at the time), asked me to lay on the floor, confused I agreed. He then took my pants and panties off and put his penis on my 🐱. I didn’t know what was going on. That happened 4 times. Before I got in a relationship with this guy (let’s call himmmm ben) I told him about my history and how it still effects me and how I’m not ready for any sexual stuff, including kissing. Ben would often ask me if we could kiss, to which I would tell him I’m not ready. One night we walked up a big hill to watch the sun go down, we were chilling in the grass when he asked if we could try to kiss, I said no and he kept pressuring me and dispite me saying no, eventually I gave in. I didnt want to, he kissed me multiple times (I was obviously uncomfortable and wasn’t kissing him back) a dog came over while he was leaning over the top of me and interrupted it. I was so stressed in the moment the only thing I could think of was “pat the dog, pretend he’s not there and this isn’t happening”, the dog was very tolerant and friendly. The owner came over and apologised, I think he saw how much I was shaking and likely could tell something was happening so he stood there for a second looking at us, then continued to play with his dog near us. We then left and went back to my house. This kind of thing happened multiple times. One morning I woke up and decided to try to go back to sleep, I thought he was still asleep but he wasn’t. without asking (cause he though I was asleep) he put his hand on my 🐱 (over clothes) and started masterbating, I froze, I didn’t know what to do, I couldn’t move or talk. A few months after, I broke up with him, my parents didn’t know what was going on and thought I broke up with him because he was being dry with texting me but that wasn’t the truth. I told my friend everything after we broke up, I explained it in a way that made it sound worse than what it was, I made it sound like he he actually went under clothes and I eventually said the same to my parents. I feel like I really messed up with the way I’ve explained it to them and feel like I’m really overreacting and it wasn’t that bad. A year later, I started having images in my head of him making me give him a BJ, I still don’t know if it actually happened but it feels really real. I remember the morning of that, after it happened, I was shaking, on the bridge of a panic attack, sitting on the kitchen floor patting his dog trying to calm myself down. In the moment I didn’t know why I was so panicked but if what I’m seeing now did actually happen, then it makes sense. I feel a lot of guilt over this and don’t like talking about it. Was this actually SA or am I overreacting? Also I want to state, that I realise now I shouldn’t have gotten into a relationship knowing I wasn’t ready for any sexual activity