u/Desperate_Ship_9654

So I noticed that my gender shifts with the seasons. Now hear me out , because this might be a little long but I have to get this out .

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I am 27 (AFAB , He/She) , I started noticing I was bigender and was questioning for a long time until recently I settled in . I noticed I have this weird phenomenon where my gender shifts with seasons . During late spring all the way through summer I am male , I go by he/him and experience top dysphoria like no other , I start feeling dysphoric with my voice at a different escalated level and I wear more male attire , but when Fall , winter and early spring come around I am female , my tastes and preferences shift , my attire is more feminine but sometimes mixed , depends how I feel that day . I'm more finicky with my hair and nails and am more adventurous and outdoorsy and don't mind my breasts at all .

I have brought this up to my gender fluid spouse and other bigender individuals and they know exactly what I mean . My spouse joked that I'm a "Ranma ", and as funny as it is , I can't help but think because of how this works it's a good example of what I experience . In Ranma 1/2 the main character (AMAB) fell into a pool that gave him a curse where when splashed with cold water he shifts gender into a female , but when splashed with hot water becomes his normal male self . This related to me because of this weird phenomenon and I don't know if any of u have this experience or know someone who has this experience , am I the only one ? Just food for thought .

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I'm going on T soon as my dominant gender is male and am gonna get top surgery ( I'm leaning more towards a androgynous softer male appearance which if I change genders can still work for the female side respectfully as I still will show some femininity ) .

Hello guys ! I have posted on here before and have been part of this sub for a good few years now, but I have come to the realization that I am a Demigirlflux. I was so so happy to be in this sub and I hope u all stay safe , happy , and continue on your journeys as the boys and men you are . I will always be your sister and will be visiting on occasion to check in on ya guys . I know things are tough rn , but remember u are loved and nothing can ever change that , no matter what , u will always be loved and will always be valid 💓 have a blessed day and stay strong !

I am hating this body I have been born in and I want out . I'm to soon be on Testosterone at some point this year, but until then I feel hopeless and heavy .

My chest is big and I hate it , feeling myself going through ovulation just amplifies my dysphoria even more and how I am perceived by others has pushed me to the point where I don't hardly talk to anyone anymore .

I want out of this cage , I know it's happening soon , but I feel like it cant be soon enough . I can't even hardly get myself off anymore through masturbation because my lower half feels disgusting , I hate it and I'm increasingly starting to hate it even more . I can't wear my binder much anymore without wheezing because my bust has gotten bigger, I feel overweight and my body feels like it's starting to look more and more feminine as my life goes on ( I'm 27 ) I hate my cellulite and can't hardly look into the mirror anymore .

This body feels like it's not even my own anymore so much that I feel like I'm starting to go numb to it . It feels like I am trapped in someone else's body and it's giving me the massive ick , as in , I'm starting to physically feel nauseated by it . I can't hardly sleep much anymore because of the distress .

I don't mean to sound like a crybaby , but I want to get this out , I feel like if I don't get this out I will go crazy .

I want to have that flat chest so bad , a more masculine voice , I want to be able to stand up to pee finally with a proper dick and not this mess of a thing I have between my legs, I want my fat to distribute properly so that I am not this fucking curvy.

I never thought waiting could be such torture . It's like I'm literally in Hell being roasted on a spit over fire 24/7 . How do u cope with this ? Especially when u are hyper aware of your own body feeling like a literal sarcophagus that you are tossing and turning in trying to get out .