u/Drago_di_ferro

The website and discord disappeared, also the post announcement on this sub was also deleted and there’s no info whatsoever

Asides from the artstyle, designs and gameplay which i kinda loved what do you think about the story, characterization, lore and the entire gameplay? Worth spending the bucks to get the full game?

Keeping it bottled every day is driving me hysterical but I also can’t open about it with any of my irl or online close people as they would probably look at me with disgust, rightly so, now my only option is trying to vent vomit to strangers on a sub

I’m 20 and pretty much depressed, i’m overly stressed and frustrated with school being a very mediocre scholar no matter how hard i try and find solutions for my struggles or remembering stuffs, i chose game dev for my uni course but i’m not even feeling it all that much, nothing interests or entertains me anymore. I constantly feel dry and hollow, spending my days on my phone without having enough energy to try and be productive or avoid getting distracted by other stuff. I have a couple passions but i’m mentally burnt out by everything and I’ve become constantly apathetic and not caring even about my interests.I’m not sure if i’ll be able to study at uni and insert into society as an adult

I’m very aloof and closed in my self, most of the time i prefer staying alone on my room over social interactions and it results in me barely having irl friends and losing a lot of people during the years, and at that a couple of them heavily criticize me for not going out often and being asocial, so I think i’m ruining even more friendships. Even when i tried to open up about my depressive problems and all i got ignored and just called dramatic or making up excuses. I feel like no one in this life really cares about me as a human being or value me

I obviously have no partner, and haven’t had any since elementary school which I don’t even count. I hate how I look and everything about me, i have 0 confidence to approach someone and deeply fear being rejected and insulted and humiliated. Everytime i had a chance to maybe link up with someone I always backed out at the last out of fear. But if it wasn’t about I look I definitely can’t see myself with somebody because of my horrible personality: clueless, dumb, selfish, prickly, constantly looking for excuses, always shifting blame to something else, lazy, never taking accountability for anything and so much more it will become a bore to continue listing it

But my most horrible and pathetic aspect, that i can’t ever seem to defeat or leave behind, I how disgustingly hypersexual and porn addict I am and how it poisons my mind and dictates my life. I hate how much energy and time I spend on porn for minuscule gratification. I hate that I was so desperate for sex that I lost my virginity to a prostitute the moment I was 18, and then subsequently met up with prostitutes 3 more times in the last couple years, with the last being only a week ago, just to have any amount of gratification and attention from a girl, just to discover the deed felt gross and not even that satisfying much to my dismay and I ended up wasting money and my dignity on something so stupid and rash. I hate how I’ve been for a year and half some sorta of therapist/shoulder to lean on for an old crush, trying to comfort them through their depression and other problems but i find increasingly disgusted by myself that the only reason i’m doing it is because i’m attracted to their body and biding my time to have a chance and asking them out, but i’ve been refusing all attempts of hang out with them, so i guess my subconscious is trying to make me do the right thing and not being completely irredeemable, but i’m still an horrible person and terrible “friend”

I feel like i’ve hit the bottom, but i also hate how my situation isn’t nearly as bad as other people who suffer much worse than me daily and i feel guilty for just drowning in self pity instead of taking any action, good or not. I have no idea what to do or how getting out of this hell of my creation, but at least this venting made take a fresh breath of air

I was interested in playing unite again because of the new mons added and I was unsure if I should go back to my old account with a good chunk of licenses but that I haven’t touched in like 2-3 years or I should begin again from 0